Originally posted by antoh:
i was drinking last night ... with a good friend of mine Arthur ...
i was a bit high and i asked him whats wrong wif me for not proceding to work together with him in sales.
i was shocked he told me that i did not continue doing it becuase of my male ego ... which i find it very true.
He told me i like to do things very last min ... and not about time mangement ... which i find it very true ...
anyway this stupid MCP of me has cause a gal that i have deeply in love with very hurtful .... i dont know what to do to make her come back to me ...
and i m bloody uninteresting and boring person ... what should i do to change my boring characteristic ....
please help
Well...this self-realisation of yours has already put you on the path to change for the better. You probably don't realised it because you're still with your old friends and they still have this hard-coded mentality of you being a MCP. So it's difficult for you to notice even the slightest change in yourself.
Keep your old friends and go find some new ones. Remember to constantly remind yourself that you've been a MCP before and you're not going to let it ruin your new-forged friendships with your new friends. If you can keep your new-found friends satisfied and without any complaints for you as their friends, then you'll know that you've changed for the better.
MCP is part of the upbringing and you must realised that you yourself have supported it for so many years in your life, so it's not easy to get rid of it overnight. But you must realised that once you've been a MCP before, it will remained as part of your character whether you like it or not. But once you realised and have suffered for it, you'll know that you never want to get stuck in your life again...just like now.
It's really up to you to prove yourself once again to your friends/girlfriend and yourself.
Good luck and be strong...losing doesn't means that you're weak, it just means that you've taken on a greater courage to a stronger self.
