Hurts deep & deeper........
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Cant get off that 'hurting thing' of what they had done to me & worst now that they purposely hurts me further. They knew they r wrong, but they choose not stop but carry on what they r doing, even though with no ending, They dont want & refuse to face the real problem, chose to escape & ignore, choose to avoid... chose to be selfish and hoping everythg will goes well for them despite of many differences btwn them. Pride is holding them back. Both too stubborn to admit and repent their mistakes..
Felt so lost, hurt & lonely. just cant help recalling the good old days & now facing the problem & people around me alone is very very stressful. Had never know they can be so heartless & selfish (as day goes by) to cause hurt to so many people still esp. innocent me who cause no treat to them at all. why they want to do these to me? maybe now they r hoping me dead becos i m in their way? How can it be when ntg went wrng to affect our life for almost 2 decades till she appear this year? they make my life so miserable, every minute causing mental hurt. i m really very depress now..
How i wish they be punished for their wrong instead for fulfilling them now & stop all miseries caused. & how i wished time could stop & goes back where it used to be. -
Oh what happened?
Who bully you and make you feel so bad? -
Yeah, i mean what really happened? Care to share a bit more in details??? Can't seems to figure out what exactly happened.
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nOthiNg iS ImpOsSibLE In tHiS wOrLd
EvEn tHe wOrD ImPoSsiBLe SaYs "i'M pOsSiBLe" -
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In LIGHT I shall FEAR NOT. FOR what I AM is CUT so DEEP inside of ME.
I LIVE my FLESH and SOUL ONLY to BLEED for the OTHERS.
FEAR ME NOT. FOR I AM YOUR 'MASTER'. GIVE YOU STRENGTH. FOR YOU ARE MY 'ENEMY'.
DEVIL PHRASE I
I have no 'friends' nor 'family'.
I hold no past and see not future...
These are just samples of illusions....
I don't exist, but I shall live ETERNITY..... DEVIL PHRASE II
ße COOL, NOT s¢rr¥.... -
erm.. those people tat hurt you, i hope you not refering to guys?
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just need to release for a while....
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ASK MIKE lor...?Originally posted by yc:
just need to release for a while....
was there another outing going on? just asking........... -
yc ahhhh yc....
Relaz a bit lah... Must do things for yourself mah. Cannot always rely on other to make you happy. To be happy, you must make yourself happy. Everything also heck lah... for all you know... they suddenly end up kena some bad karma then you'll regret.
Do good be good... the rest will come.
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Like you..? Be a GOOD 'boi boi'..??Originally posted by Klactovak:yc ahhhh yc....
Relaz a bit lah... Must do things for yourself mah. Cannot always rely on other to make you happy. To be happy, you must make yourself happy. Everything also heck lah... for all you know... they suddenly end up kena some bad karma then you'll regret.
Do good be good... the rest will come.
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Like you..? Be a GOOD 'boi boi'..??Originally posted by Devil1976:[QUOTE]Originally posted by Klactovak:
[b]yc ahhhh yc....
Relaz a bit lah... Must do things for yourself mah. Cannot always rely on other to make you happy. To be happy, you must make yourself happy. Everything also heck lah... for all you know... they suddenly end up kena some bad karma then you'll regret.
Do good be good... the rest will come. [/B][/QUOTE]
Yes, but sometimes I wish I can lose control and scream and shout at stupid people and do some naughty... make that very naughty things. hahahahaha.... -
how r u klac? long time not heard ur vocal liao
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wah..yc, u have not posted a new topic for quite long.. sadly that the next post is actu still revolving ard the same thing.. hmm.. its been quite some time already n things are still not really rite, i think u better not keep it to yourself anymore.. prob share wif ur sister? it's really hard on u trying to hide things all to yourself.. u will fall sick easily like that! if not, prob try calling some conselling lines that are let u pour out ur woes n they prob can suggest much better solutions to reduce ur pain.. i hope! all e best...
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Thanks Joanne. m actually better now. its just that occassional swing of depression. trying to concentrate on other thgs esp now my boss allocating more work for me, (manning 3 different dept jobs). had not been on line for awhile but just reading them. Msybe i'll try to post new treads next time. how's ur exams? planning big party for ur weekend? BD hor....
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wah..thanks yc..real touched that u remember my bdaY!!! haha..i dun haf much plans leh, but will be celebrating wif my bf.. both of us are real broke so will be a low budget one i supposed..haha.. but i think the most impt thing is that he spends it wif me loh.. hmm..wah, u so busy ah? me also in the midst of my exams..will end only end of next month but by then i will real free... got lobangs for jobs inform me leh!!!
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You BORROW $$$ from me 1st lor... I don't know being PART-TIME loan shark..??Originally posted by joanne:wah..thanks yc..real touched that u remember my bdaY!!! haha..i dun haf much plans leh, but will be celebrating wif my bf.. both of us are real broke so will be a low budget one i supposed..haha.. but i think the most impt thing is that he spends it wif me loh.. hmm..wah, u so busy ah? me also in the midst of my exams..will end only end of next month but by then i will real free... got lobangs for jobs inform me leh!!! -
If got job lobang i go there myself first!Originally posted by joanne:wah..thanks yc..real touched that u remember my bdaY!!! haha..i dun haf much plans leh, but will be celebrating wif my bf.. both of us are real broke so will be a low budget one i supposed..haha.. but i think the most impt thing is that he spends it wif me loh.. hmm..wah, u so busy ah? me also in the midst of my exams..will end only end of next month but by then i will real free... got lobangs for jobs inform me leh!!! anyway, veri difficult lah. we in different end of hometown leh.... think u better be good good girl to ur mummy if not she ground u agn?? -
haha...i am gd ger ok...! mama nv ground me one lah, just that sometimes i feel i shouldnt go overboard loh.. anyway, hmm.. if got ppl want tuition for pri n sec sch intro me hor!Originally posted by yc:If got job lobang i go there myself first! anyway, veri difficult lah. we in different end of hometown leh.... think u better be good good girl to ur mummy if not she ground u agn?? -
try to be easy-tempered. not even happy - happyiness is unreal thing and there's no place for it in our world; don't wanna be happy. happyness makes you blind. i'm glad you won over yr bad mood, cuz it wasn't a depression. depression's eatin' ya for days, weeks, months, and you must be 'happy' cuz it wasn't really dis horror named deprassion. i wish ya not to know what's this.
take care
thx
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Hey yc,
Nowadays, i seldom have time to come here. Hope you're feeling better. My life has been a roller coaster ride of happiness and extreme depression but like i always say... heckcarelar. Life is still good and bad times don't last forever...
Hmmmm... you missed my vocals ahhhh... heehee
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yc:
Life is never easy. What matters most is how u manipulate your life to curb those unhappiness.
I too have a very hectic worklife. But I'm happy nonetheless. Not because I like my job, but rather how I manipulate my work to make myself happy. -
'FISH'?Originally posted by Larry:yc:
Life is never easy. What matters most is how u manipulate your life to curb those unhappiness.
I too have a very hectic worklife. But I'm happy nonetheless. Not because I like my job, but rather how I manipulate my work to make myself happy. -
Originally posted by Klactovak:Hey yc,
Nowadays, i seldom have time to come here. Hope you're feeling better. My life has been a roller coaster ride of happiness and extreme depression but like i always say... heckcarelar. Life is still good and bad times don't last forever...
Hmmmm... you missed my vocals ahhhh... heehee
Next time...m ok now. thks. try not to think & ponder over what had been done. sad but what to do? an innocent victim will always suffer for ntg.
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Good to hear you're all right. Don't think too much, life goes on....Originally posted by yc:m ok now. thks. try not to think & ponder over what had been done. sad but what to do? an innocent victim will always suffer for ntg.
so ur vocal still as charming?
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i/m very hurt too
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Why so frd?