Unhappy with 23/10, wanted to consult fortune or suicide!
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Are u crazy?
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there there ......
you sounds like you'd need more serious help than what you'll get here .....
you tried talking to anyone ? .... teachers in school, friends ? ...
I'm sure there are para-counsellors in your school too, you tried talking to one of them ? ....
ranting about life is fine ... we all do that ... but before you think of doing anything drastic .... remember this: we don't live for ourselves alone , eh ..... -
Originally posted by SGEMP:
thought you said you were not going to post here?
I wanted to die!
I do not want to lead a fruitless life!!!
WHAT A WASTEFUL LIFE FOR ME!
[b]I NEED HELP!
IF ANYONE COULD HELP THENK YOU![/b]
anyway take a step back and relax, think throught things.
there are many things we have no control over and are pissed about but realise that there are also alot of things that makes us happy and we love about the life we live.
was actually about to recommend doing something legal or "informative" about what happened but i realised that it might be rather subjective and you may end up in a worse light esp since its your words against the teachers and as we know teachers seem to stand higher in the estimation of others...............
Side note: i seem to be feeling rather do-goodish today.. hmm -
About your CCA on the computer club. I can see your efforts that u have contributed in the past 3 years and aiming to join the committee member.
But unfotunately u are not selected to be one.
So u ask yourself 3 things
1. Have u ask or petitioned to your teachers or club facilitator about your interest in joining the committee member? If no get your butt up & see them with immediate effect!!
2. How much can you contribute to the club when u are a committee member?
3. Have u ever thought of the responsibility of a committee member that has to go through, whenever there is challenges up ahead of them. So are u ready for the stress that is going to be pressed onto you? If u can't take stress i suggest u either stay as a normal member to slack & learn or think thrice b4 u join in.
Lastly who says normal member can't contribute in terms of improvements & suggestion. Committe members cannot survived without the opinion of junior members. And don't have the negative thinking that the committee member will take advantage of you juz because you have no status & that u are in the same steam as them.
Did you know that committing suicide is a chargeable offence even though u are pronounced dead on the scene of your death.
Dun forget that u are 16 years old & is liable to be charged under capital punishment.
I can tell u what are the process that is going to happen to you is that you will be handcuffed in your coffin & your family would be wailing & crying more horribly than the ghost in the 7th month period.
So do you want to see your family suffer in this fate & having your name stained & tarnished in this foreign country of yours juz because of depression that is pushing u to suicide?
Its not worth it & u have no rights to take away your life juz like that!!
So for the better you pls live on & face those challenges that is opposing you!!
Only Heroes dun give up like that & your parents would be very proud to have a hero like you if u choose the path to overcome challenges...
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sec school sucks.just concentrate on getting outta there..
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U must be slacking all the way in sec school over there...Originally posted by stellazio:sec school sucks.just concentrate on getting outta there.. -
Originally posted by larrenV2.003:U must be slacking all the way in sec school over there...
eh how you know ar?but my sec sch life was enjoyable...due to slacking.. -
Can see your cheerful posting here in sgf tells me that u have enjoyed a slacky life in the past...Originally posted by stellazio:
eh how you know ar?but my sec sch life was enjoyable...due to slacking..
Especially this trademark ==> or "+1 close and ban thank you!" 
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why bother getting laid down by stress when you can work your way around it.. there's only a fine line between happiness and sadness,and guess what you're the one that chooses it..it doesn't choose you..so as long as happy can liao la..Originally posted by larrenV2.003:Can see your cheerful posting here in sgf tells me that u have enjoyed a slacky life in the past...
Especially this trademark ==> or "+1 close and ban thank you!"
oh wait my life is still very slack now.. -
Originally posted by SGEMP:
Dear Aunt Agony and everyone
I am SGEMP, (Yuen Shek Ngai), a Hong Konger, a loyal member of sgForums, and a student, 16, from Damai Secondary School
I am very unhappy with what had happened for today 23 October.
Today before my Damai Secondary school assembly, at about 1230, as I rushed my way down to the hall that damn Jordan and his wicked ugly Malay gang of seven of 3E4 obstructed my way there, and knocked me to the pillar when I tried to overtake them.(In response I used middle finger to scold these goddamned bums.) Them, instead of condemning them, the teachers in the hall condemned me! I want them crushed dead by a Bishan-bound service 59 bus--------and their entire families wiped out by bird flu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!They will all be knocked down into hell!!!!!!!!!!
Then when the prize-giving ceremony came (1-something pm), I realised that prizes that could have been won freely free of charge i.e. the SKM were all won by the others! (If not remember wrong, I could only get my SKM badge after a purchase of $10 NANAS 2006 calender, which was yet to arrive when I had truly ordered for IT!)
I do not know why in recent years it is getting harder and harder for me to won in any prizes or competitions without much expense while others were easier without spending much of their fortunes? WHY? Why the Chinese gods are so fuckingly unfair, keeping on abandoning me when at the time I needed them most?????? WHY??????
I am very damn angry on this injustices on top and below!
Later in the computer club meeting(1415 pm), although I was satisfied with the CCA score I got (in LEAPS system), but I am very disappointed that others, not me (a secondary 3 express student about to be promoted to secondary 4 express the next year), were appointed by my CCA teacher for the position of Computer Club Committee members. They all went up effortlessly, only by their teachers' help! Such fucking unfairness and injustice!
In the past whole year I worked very hard, under my chemistry teacher¡¯s advice, in my Computer Club, attending the CCA regularly and participating, eventually completing, in everything as instructed by my teachers without fail, in hopes of getting enough points and a leadership role, that is, the committee member.
And what did I get in return? Everything is wasted. I was damn unfortunate. I was unfortunately not appointed into the committee. What a fucking waste!
And that extra CCA points all gone, I have no choice only but to suffer for the next whole year under them, without any extra points to lighten my damning fucking asshole load!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Finally back home, over a minor disaggreement of placement of skipping ropes (4-something pm) evolved a terrible arguement and meltdown between me and my mother, unfortunately. My mother suggested me to place the ropes in the shelf near to the computer I am using to issue THIS agony note, but I disagreed for cleaness reasons because in that shelf were my computer peripherals such as my thumbdrive, audio-speakers and so. And maybe because I did not heard her "OK", so in my angry fuckingly angry protest I shutthe door and boycotted today's skipping session. And so a flame war started until I reasoned "I could have either misunderstood you or didn't hear clearly what you had said just now."
And as the flame war goes on I have came up with my mind of go to the overhead bridge near my home and JUMP DOWN onto the PIE, let me die from the impact or the traffic. I WANTED TO COMMIT SUICIDE!
And so, I asked myself: Is all these caused by bad luck, bad fengshui, bad Wen Chang fate, or else? Is it all because I was too cheap? Is it that I am damn incapable of winning? Is it that I was being stripped of my potentials and chances especially to both leadership and winning prizes, awards? Or is it because I am of late-night born, snake and Taurus that I was only fated to win later in life as a late-formed supreme being? (I mean, ´óÆ÷Ã�óÉ?)
And am I totally useless, shunned by Singapore society?
If all these were yes, and essentially if there were no improvements in the near future, I had rather go and commit suicide rather than living a bitter, hopeless, fruitless life, since by now I believed that in life, I could not get what I desired for(I do not have even my desired friends, only to be with the undesirables daily!), and in death, I have no grievances.
I wanted to die by suicide as now I wanted to live but cannot and that now I wanted dead but also cannot!
And that if all these were yes, I would want to give up everything including the bus guides I had and my most hatred life, by committing suicide until I am dead, all my blood were leaked out of my body and no air comes into my body and my wholebody becomes senseless, numb!
Up till here, I feel that I wanted to commit suicide, because I felt that I am cheap, slow developing, very useless, very incapable, very inable, and very hopeless, not optimistic of my life. I don't think there would any more achievements for me in the near future while life is getting very bitter for me, being futile, fruitless, hopeless.
And so I believed that only by commiting suicide would I be able to get what I wanted.
Also I think it is better for me to go into fortune superstition because only this is good for my future.
(And so I would be out tomorrow 25 October afternoon in Kuan Yin Temple praying for my fortune and my future, and where necessary I would look for a roadside stall providing luck-telling for help. Even better I have considered of changing my name.)
[b]What do you think about my plan to consult fortune and commit suicide? And is there any way to help me out? I urgently needed help!
HELP IS NEEDED FROM EVERYONE!
And So I would appreciate if everyone here could help me out before it is all too late, by providing useful advices and suggestions for me to improve on, with the sincerely welcomed suggestions and advices sent to here, my Private Message, or my email account [email protected]
Also I decided to go on strike, not doing anything, not even to post on this forum!
Thank you and I would like to hear from everyone soon.
Thank you for your invaluable help rendered to me in my miserable times.
Yours sincerely
ysn
Yuen Shek Ngai (SGEMP)
24 October 2005, Singapore Bedok North
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I think you need a change of mindset more than a change of fortune.
P.S: Anything about fortune, you can PM Zacken99.
Cheers -
Hmm Yunhaier i dun quite believe in fortune on my aspect..i believe only things like what goes round comes around that kind of thing...Originally posted by Yunhaier: I think you need a change of mindset more than a change of fortune.
P.S: Anything about fortune, you can PM Zacken99.
Cheers -
Fm wat u wrote, U blame gods, people, society & even yourself for not able to achieve wat u wan. Are u having expectations beyond your mind and body could take - if yes, slow down for a while, 'rest' ur body & mind. Since u are loyal member of sgForums, do visit the bar forums to loosen ur 'mental' nuts a bit
'Bad luck' is being in the wrong places, timing & *events that is beyond our controlled. (No one to is to blame, just dun give up easily, *plan ur mission or projects, keep on trying and trying...)
Make failure your teacher, not your undertaker. Success would become meaningless without effort & challenge. Failures make a success sweet! Of coz dun make repeated mistakes over & over again, and do the same thing with the same *attidute and EXPECT different results.
Example: if u are a gamer, u play every games using cheat code or god mode, U kill all enemies & proceed to higher level without sweat, begining u may feel good and entertained, but after many games for months and years... u will realised that games are meaningless without challenges.
Do find out if u are suffering from depression - it can leads to sucide!! The causes of depression can be many and can happen to ANY body. Over work, studies, exam & parent pressures and so on. Find out more about depression on the net. Talk to the right people/parent, and seek help if necessary.
NOTE: be aware of ur moods (Negative -emotions) dun let them control u. Remember -anger or -worrying abt problems u encounter daily...
- 1 Does NOT solve the problems (Can u solve problems by being angry or worrisome
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- 2 Blinds U from having a calm mind to think of solution and see 'situation' clearly
- 3 *It could make things worse (Wat happens if 2 Depressed and Angry person bump together = D + Anger)
DEPRESSION
2: a state of feeling sad : dejection (2) : a psychoneurotic or psychotic disorder marked esp. by sadness, inactivity, difficulty in thinking and concentration, a significant increase or decrease in appetite and time spent sleeping, feelings of dejection and hopelessness, and sometimes suicidal tendencies.
+ God help those who help themselves, u have to clear/solve ur negative emotions(Anger/Hatre) 1st b4 any1 can help. In the end, itz ONLY up to u to decide, and have control of ur mind/mood, dun lose it. But if u do, I dun pity u, I pity ur parents and those who loved u. To me, it jus another mishaps I read daily on newspapers, it dun bother me after that
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When you step into the society in the future, you'll learn that there's many different things in this world and 'fairness' ain't exactly the way ya imagined it to be...Originally posted by SGEMP:Dear Aunt Agony and everyone
I am SGEMP, (Yuen Shek Ngai), a Hong Konger, a loyal member of sgForums, and a student, 16, from Damai Secondary School
But 1st thing's 1st... UNDERSTANDING that 'WINNING' is not EVERYTHING is life... What's the point of 'WINNING' if you loses all else that's IMPORTANT TO YOU
LIFE is a LONG JOURNEY.... NO MATTER how ya 'change your life'... There're BOUND to be DAYS when things don't feel right... Or people you can't help but to see them suffer... And they might even be people you CARE ABOUT more than yourself....?
SGEMP. The NEXT TIME you feel this 'EMOTIONAL RUSH UP' AGAIN,
FIND YOURSELF A SAFE CORNER TO SIT. DON'T MOVE. JUST SIT. DON'T THINK. JUST RELAX....
UNDERSTAND?
FINALLY, pls go to the 'Need a Talk? Call these..." thread which is STICKY at the TOP of AA forum... Drop down a few important numbers with you... When you feel frustrated or down.. Just chat with someone over there...? -
Originally posted by Devil1976:
I'm quite sure he don't understand.
When you step into the society in the future, you'll learn that there's many different things in this world and 'fairness' ain't exactly the way ya imagined it to be...
But 1st thing's 1st... UNDERSTANDING that 'WINNING' is not EVERYTHING is life... What's the point of 'WINNING' if you loses all else that's IMPORTANT TO YOU
LIFE is a LONG JOURNEY.... NO MATTER how ya 'change your life'... There're BOUND to be DAYS when things don't feel right... Or people you can't help but to see them suffer... And they might even be people you CARE ABOUT more than yourself....?
[b]SGEMP. The NEXT TIME you feel this 'EMOTIONAL RUSH UP' AGAIN,
FIND YOURSELF A SAFE CORNER TO SIT. DON'T MOVE. JUST SIT. DON'T THINK. JUST RELAX....
UNDERSTAND?
FINALLY, pls go to the 'Need a Talk? Call these..." thread which is STICKY at the TOP of AA forum... Drop down a few important numbers with you... When you feel frustrated or down.. Just chat with someone over there...?
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Originally posted by larrenV2.003:Hmm Yunhaier i dun quite believe in fortune on my aspect..i believe only things like what goes round comes around that kind of thing... Fortune... aiya... I also don't use astrology to see when I will be rich or sucessful. It is more like a philosophy to me, although Fortune telling has somewhat placebo effect on people, if it is all good news.
Lots of people yearn to know what lies in their future, but sadly, they know so little about their present and past, which I think it's so much more important than the future, because those are the baby steps that shape your future. Do you people think that terrorism is something that is BORN out of this period? Hell no! It is years and decades of suppression... mental, spiritual and emotional erosion cum editing.
It is because of our history, that's why our future are so screwed up.
That's why our topic starter badly needs a change of mindset, than a change of fortune. I don't know how to change fortune, so this one can ask Zacken. I only know that even when you change your fortune and similar problem crops up, he will not be able to handle it because his soul lacks the learning lessons and will not be able to take the challenge.
Anyone seriously naive enough to think that this crisis is the ONLY one he will face in life?
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To our HK forum mate: To KILL yourself over such MUNDANE issues is terribly a waste of your fringin life. If you can't even handle stress and challenges at your age now, don't talk about life outside school, without astrology, I can tell you that you won't make it as well.
There are REASONS why things are happening. If you humble yourself and seek for those reasons, these are knowledge that carries with you for the rest of your life... the key that works with human relationship and how you could succeed. I said before, people who succeed are like you - humans. You think every single successful person (in their own ways) has favor from Gods meh?
The difference is just that he discovered something that worked for him before you do.
So the question is: What will work for you? How are you going to find out? By knowing, what will you do?
Cheers -
Originally posted by Devil1976:
[b]HELPLINES
• SOS (Samaritans of Singapore) - Anybody in crisis and the suicidal.
Tel: 1800-221-4444 (24 hours daily)
• Care Corner Mandarin Counselling Centre: 1800-353- 5800 (10am to 10pm daily)
• Family Service Centre: 1800-838-0100
• Family Counselling Service (Family Life Society) - For anyone who requires marital, family & youth counselling.
Tel: 6488-0278 (9:00am - 5:00pm Tue, Wed, Fri & Sat)
(9:00am - 9:00pm Mon & Thurs)
• SPPA Counselling Centre (The Singapore Planned Parenthood Association) - To help young people and adults deal with sexuality-related problems and concerns.
Tel: 1800-775-8582 (8:30am - 5:15pm Mon-Fri)
• Choices (Church of Our Saviour) - For individuals facing homosexuality or other sexual disorders and their family members and friends.
Tel: 6274-1475 (9:30am - 5:30pm Tue to Sat)
6271-4271
• Student Advisory Centre 6778 0700 (for runaway youths and parents)
• SENIORS Helpline 1800-555-5555 (for older persons and their care-givers)
• aLife 6258 8816 (help for fertility, sexuality and pregnancy-related problems)
• For pregnant women and their partners who need help. For example have doubts abt keeping the baby, are confused, need help and support, etc. : 1800-6868623
• Pregnancy Crisis Service 6339 9770
• Association of Women for Action and Research Helpline 1800-774-5935
• Singapore Anti-Narcotics Association 1800-733 4444 (English/Malay) / 1800-732 4444 (English/Chinese)
• Handicaps Welfare Association 6254 3006
• Alcoholics Anonymous - Those who are alcohol dependent and their families.
Tel: 6475-0890 (24 hours daily)
• Singapore Association for Mental Health Helpline 1800-283-7019
• TOUCHLINE (TOUCH Youth Service) - Youths between 12 and 19 years old, who are struggling, frustrated or depressed and badly in need of a listening ear.
Tel: 1800-377-2252 (10:00am - 10:00pm Daily)
• Fei Yue Family Service Centre - Families or individuals in distress.
Tel: 6569-0381, 1800-565 6626 (2:00pm - 6:00pm Mon-Fri)
• Touch Youth Community 6377 0122
• Teenage Crisis Centre (Teen Challenge) - Drug addicts, inhalant abusers, teenage gangsters, runaways, school-dropouts, delinquents, crisis counselling.
Tel: 6346-9332 (9:00am - 5:00pm Mon-Fri)
(9:00am - 1:00pm Sat)
• Tinkle Friend (Singapore Children's Society - Bukit Merah Centre) - Primary school students, especially children who are alone at home, who need someone to chat or discuss problems with.
Tel: 1800-274-4788 9:00am - 11:00am, 2:30pm - 4:30pm Mon-Fri)
• Youthline (Youth Challenge) - Young people with interpersonal, family, stress/depression/anxiety and sex-related problems.
Tel: 6336-3434 (8:30am - 6:00pm Mon-Fri)
• Youth Guidance 6552 6477
• CDC Helpline (Community Development Council) - One-stop helpline and referral services for anyone in need of help.
Tel: 1800-344-1234 (9:00am - 6:00pm Mon-Fri)
(9:00am - 1:00pm Sat)
• Counselling and Care Centre - For individuals, couples and families experiencing psychological, marital or family problems.
Tel: 6536-6366 (9:00am - 5:00pm Mon-Fri) www.counsel.org.sg
• Care Community Services, www.carecom.org.sg
• Shanyou Counselling Centre, www.shanyou.org.sg
• Care Corner Singapore, www.carecorner.org.sg/counselling.html
• MCDS website for youths
• MCDS website for family
• More helplines..
- The Health Promotion Board runs a Mind Your Mental Health education programme to raise awareness of depression.
For information on this, call 1800-223-1313 or visit the website, http://www.hpb.gov.sg
eGen (www.egen.org.sg)
eGen tries to be more than just another blogging community by providing forums and photo albums for bloggers to share pictures, as well as 'cyber counsellors' whom teens can talk to online.
metoyou (www.metoyou.org.sg)
A counselling chatroom where youngsters can log on to speak to an online counsellor from Monday to Friday, 2.30pm to 5.30pm
Project CRuSH (www.planetcrush.org or call 1800-377-2252)
Project CRuSH runs workshops and roadshows at schools to teach students how to stay safe on the Internet. Volunteers - including former Internet addicts - also provide e-mentoring services on its forums to help others overcome cyber addiction.
Credit Counselling Singapore (CCS)
CCS contacts :
Hotline: 1 800 CALL CCS (1 800 2255 227)
Address: 1 Selegie Road, #06-25 Paradiz Centre, Singapore 188306
Fax: 6338 6586
Email: [email protected]
- Courtesy of everyone who cares to make that difference to your life.
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SGEMP
Hold steady dude! i don't know what to say. just hope that you'll somehow find the strength to handle life. i've copied the help lines for your easy reference here, if you need to talk to counsellors. all the best pal. life has its ups and downs. take heart. things will only get better.
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SGEMP
23/10 was bad, but the sad reality is, there will be many other days just as bad as 23/10, and some even worse. Life is a constant struggle.
While we all try our best to survive and make the most of the situation, I would like to remind you to appreciate the simple, nice things in life and nice incidents in your day. While this may not solve the problems, knowing that life is not all bad would improve your mood and attitude somewhat, and this makes the burdens more bearable. -
When you are at the worst point of your life, life may not seem worth living. No matter what everyone else might say. It is only in retrospect that you are able to realise how much you fretted over something not so significant. I went through a stage of mild depression myself (I say 'mild' since no one else except a friend knew about it). It was only when I got over it, that I could laugh at myself at being so silly.
But the fact that you could post here and ask for other people's opinion, goes to show you have taken one step forward, to recognise the potential problem.
You may not believe it now, but as many others can tell you, life is worth living.
All the best to your struggles.
What doesn't destroy you, only makes you stronger. -
Same advice as SP: Don't play the losing game. No harm trying new things.
PS: Eh you very jia lat, need to see psychiatrist or not? This is not the first time I see such a thread from you. -
Bad school, bad situation.
Why not get better PSLE score to avoid this bullsheet gangsters who get themselves screwed up?
And about the committee thing, come on, only a committee what, you get extra marks for getting in is it? Or money?
Skipping rope can dirty computer things meh? I place PCI cards, hard disks, AGP graphics cards and things more worth than some dipshit thumbdrive under my bed and it is still alright.
You have poor communication skills. You use your MOUTH, and EARS. If you know you cannot hear your mother correctly, ASK FOR WHAT SHE HAD SAID AGAIN! -
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