Originally posted by Nu^Ren:
why can't i find him in my life? where is the prince charming for me?
Juz when i thought i am one of a lucky girl to have found the man whom i believe i could spend my life with, whom loves me wholeheartly no matter what.
God took my happiness away, by telling me how stupid i am, to believe that the man whom i trusted will really treasure and love me for what i am. Pple often say, "when God took something away from you, he will give you something in return" so what is my return?
Distant is getting nearer, the closeness is leaving, love is fading, Yet its so beyond me... He no longer understand me for what i am. And time goes by, i realise that i have actually meant nothing to him.Thats why i get all the blames and also pin-point. In fact i mean stress to him. But i am also stress! If thats so, why tell me "i love u! even when u do this!" why tell me you will never give up on me and why lie to yourself that u love me when this is what happen now? why give me hope and pull me down? I thought i am doing everything for the benefit of you and me. Am i wrong to show concern over you? why do you blame me for my effort?
Maybe its me, maybe i shouldn't do so much and to adjust myself. Since he is not appreciative of my efforts and blamed me for not contributing of any effort at all. I guess i am too naive to believe. To think that he is my future, he will provide the best for me, he will be my everything.
And now even though we talked it out, after knowing he actually dun want me to interfere in his life too much. I finally understand that i have done too much for him. I should have adopt those half-fucked attitude.
But the day i dun care abt him is the day i let go.. becoz i can't simply boh chup the person i loved. So now he wants me to stay out of his life and give him some breathing space... what should i do? should i stay on but not to care so much for him? or should i give him up? My mind is very vexed. I dunno what mindset i have to adopt to treat him..
Your mind is vex is becos you cannot let go. you cannot just let go half way and hope another guy to come along and rescue you asap.
If you are very serious in trying to find that so call someone. Please let this bf go. If not you will only harm your prince chamming by loving him half heartedly. Since you never even give up on your current bf how can you even ask for a return?
So please tell yourself if you still love him then stick to him and stop whinning, if you can let him go then you will have a chance to find someone new. Stop blaming on others when the only person you should blame is yourself for not being brave enough to let go.