Such a failure I am, feeling so down. =(
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I don't know what's wrong with me these days.
I snap at everyone, including my bf. I skip lectures and tutorials like there's no tomorrow and I hate school. Not to mention that I can't cope with the schoolwork, econs, stats, ITAB, accounts, and all that crap.
Feeling so down lately.
Me and the bf aren't doing great either.
We don't talk much. And my snapping at him isn't exactly helping, not that I know why I'm snapping at everyone.
I used to cut myself and it doesn't give me the rush I used to get anymore. Friends say I've become another person and that my already bad temper is so bad they're afraid to even talk to me.
On the outside, I am as happy as can be. And only my close friends realise the change in me. Projects and tests are coming in fast and furious, and I have no idea at all, for econs and accounts.
Family is one big mess.
R/s is one big mess.
School is an even bigger mess.
My life is a mess.
Sigh.
Teen rants.
And now, I'm thinking of quitting polytechnic to go to JC next year.
Before I kill myself out of frustration. -
Right now, it would seem to you that life seems to be in a big mess. So it would do you a whole lot of good to just stop for a short while and think about how you're going to get yourself out of this mess.
Tackle your problems one at a time. Whatever problems that can be tackled quickly in the short term should be tackled first. Your studies, for instance. Since you're already in poly, the best idea is to simply stay in it. If you believe that poly is tough, believe me, JC is much, much tougher. The environment there is far more regimented and you'll have much less time for yourself.
Instead, why not reflect on how you're going to improve on your studies? If you haven't been doing well, look at why you haven't been doing well. If it's due to insufficient studying, then you have to learn to prioritise and balance between all your different activities.
Next, your relationship. Ask yourself this: is it worth it to be in this relationship? Can you still see yourself with your boyfriend five years down the road? If you don't see the relationship heading anywhere, then I suggest just breaking it up. It's radical, but let's see it this way: there's no point in causing yourself continuous pain for the next few years just to delay the inevitable break-up. I would think that it's far better to break up now, get sad for a few days, and then get on with your own life.
And please don't think of suicide. It solves nothing, and all it does is bring pain to your family and friends - the very people whom you love. Do talk to a school counsellor or someone else you can trust to help you deal with your problems - there's not much anyone can really help you on an online forum.
Good luck.
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don't give up no matter what. dying will never solve anything, giving up your studies and life will only add saddness and guilt to your friends and even family. whether you like it or not, you're here to stay and work for a better tomorrow - believe in your future, even if its no better than a sand castle.
someday it will get better, believe in that. -
been there and I survived.
Take a deep breath, bite ur teeth and get it over and done with. -
watever it is, u cause ppl to be pissed off by snapping at them first.
and u will cause your bf to leave u if u continue to do that. unless u r living in denial and think that he will still be grovelling at your feet no matter how much crap u throw at him.
time for a change in your frame of mind, sweetie.
as for the mess, just f- it and dun let it affect u. -
firstly, u need to find out why r u snapping at everyone. it could be stress u r facing. but sometimes, when things seem to be a bit messy, it's better to take things a step at a time. dun rush into ur decisions. organise ur time for every single activities.Originally posted by missqi:I don't know what's wrong with me these days.
I snap at everyone, including my bf. I skip lectures and tutorials like there's no tomorrow and I hate school. Not to mention that I can't cope with the schoolwork, econs, stats, ITAB, accounts, and all that crap.
Feeling so down lately.
Me and the bf aren't doing great either.
We don't talk much. And my snapping at him isn't exactly helping, not that I know why I'm snapping at everyone.
I used to cut myself and it doesn't give me the rush I used to get anymore. Friends say I've become another person and that my already bad temper is so bad they're afraid to even talk to me.
On the outside, I am as happy as can be. And only my close friends realise the change in me. Projects and tests are coming in fast and furious, and I have no idea at all, for econs and accounts.
Family is one big mess.
R/s is one big mess.
School is an even bigger mess.
My life is a mess.
Sigh.
Teen rants.
And now, I'm thinking of quitting polytechnic to go to JC next year.
Before I kill myself out of frustration.
as for ur bf, i'm not sure if he is willing to tok it out with u, but it has to begin with u first. learn to share ur problems with him if there's any, instead of taking ur anger or frustrations out on him. u need a listening ear though.
as for ur education wise, i hope u will make a wise decision as to not quit so soon. education is very important. dun quit just because u feel like quitting. that's not the right attitude. do u like the course u r taking. if not, then dun quit too soon. it's better to finish with a diploma at the end of everything and proceed to further study as u wish. if u quit and go to a jc now, u'd end up with an 'A' Level.
And mind u, jc is not easy as well. 'A' Level cert is much smaller than a diploma. and if u dun get at least 3 or 4 As in ur jc, u'll have a slim chance of getting into the uni.. because the competition is very fierce in the local uni.
so, think again. i advice u to take things one at a time and not rush into any decision of urs. stress u may be, but i hope u can be able to handle it with courage and determination, and then walk out of it stronger and wiser.
all the best. -
juz rmb tt however shit or failure u r feeling now, there are a million more people out there who are worst off. people hu dun even get to study, eat, roof over their head...much less a bf
and before u kill urself, donate all your organs first. there are a million more people out there who desperately wants to live, even if it is just one more day...to see the beautiful sunrise
watever u r going through right now, it'll soon pass...in fact, it'll pass even before u noe it. and when u look back in the future, u'll find that all these 'failures' are insignificant after all...
rather than drowning yourself in self-pity and sorrow, why not go out there and find something meaningful to do? such as helping those who are much much much less fortunate than you... -
teenage angst again? just chill and get it over and done with. I wonder why can't people live happily, at least not taking their daily worries and troubles too seriously..?
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if u tink ur life is screwed up, den ur life is screwed up.
u reali have to eliminate all that pathetic negative thoughts that u hav cus its obvious they serve no purpose and only add to ur misery..
be positive..all the best -
“On a long journey of human life, faith is the best of companions; it is the best refreshment on the journey; and it is the greatest property.” quoted by buddha.
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what type faith are u refering to?Originally posted by grandeur:“On a long journey of human life, faith is the best of companions; it is the best refreshment on the journey; and it is the greatest property.” quoted by buddha.
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To me this depends on what kind of acheivement you want in life.Originally posted by Gwangetto:what type faith are u refering to? -
you need a truth friendOriginally posted by missqi:I don't know what's wrong with me these days.
I snap at everyone, including my bf. I skip lectures and tutorials like there's no tomorrow and I hate school. Not to mention that I can't cope with the schoolwork, econs, stats, ITAB, accounts, and all that crap.
Feeling so down lately.
Me and the bf aren't doing great either.
We don't talk much. And my snapping at him isn't exactly helping, not that I know why I'm snapping at everyone.
I used to cut myself and it doesn't give me the rush I used to get anymore. Friends say I've become another person and that my already bad temper is so bad they're afraid to even talk to me.
On the outside, I am as happy as can be. And only my close friends realise the change in me. Projects and tests are coming in fast and furious, and I have no idea at all, for econs and accounts.
Family is one big mess.
R/s is one big mess.
School is an even bigger mess.
My life is a mess.
Sigh.
Teen rants.
And now, I'm thinking of quitting polytechnic to go to JC next year.
Before I kill myself out of frustration. -
ur not a failure.
juz dun cramp problems up tgt in ur mind.tackle them one at a time.
look at me..i din score As for my A lvls..
and both unis rejected me..
facing the rejections..i still have to serve NS now..
the sense of loneliness prevails...
yet i take things in my stride..
it's all in the mind.
take it easy. -
Likely an unhealthy balance between lost of control over your life and too much 'pseudo-control' over the ways you can behave and do things... It should quickly brings about a psychological clash...Originally posted by missqi:I don't know what's wrong with me these days.
I snap at everyone, including my bf. I skip lectures and tutorials like there's no tomorrow and I hate school. Not to mention that I can't cope with the schoolwork, econs, stats, ITAB, accounts, and all that crap.
Feeling so down lately.
Me and the bf aren't doing great either.
We don't talk much. And my snapping at him isn't exactly helping, not that I know why I'm snapping at everyone.
I used to cut myself and it doesn't give me the rush I used to get anymore. Friends say I've become another person and that my already bad temper is so bad they're afraid to even talk to me.
On the outside, I am as happy as can be. And only my close friends realise the change in me. Projects and tests are coming in fast and furious, and I have no idea at all, for econs and accounts.
Family is one big mess.
R/s is one big mess.
School is an even bigger mess.
My life is a mess.
Sigh.
Teen rants.
And now, I'm thinking of quitting polytechnic to go to JC next year.
Before I kill myself out of frustration.
Remember the other time when we discussed about you enjoying being 'unhealthy'? It's sort of like an 'escape'... To compensate for your lost of control over life... A 'balance' which might otherwise quickly trip you over and be totally lost within your own life....
You've slowly lost sense of your 'self' in life... It provides you with the delusion that you can be away from your current 'position' in life... Like your mentioning of JC, it's probably also a subconscious decision to move away from your current track...
Remember when I mentioned that you could be a 'stray' like myself? But I forgot to tell you... You need not drown yourself within a life like that.. Yes, sometimes you can be really helpless against things... But understand that sometimes not all things need to be solved at the same time at this point of your life... Give yourself more room to breathe and walk...
Currently you've also sort of under a certain 'spell' under my Devilism study... I would not go into the details for now, but just to let you understand that... 1. Nobody is casting that 'spell' on you... (It's self-induced...) 2. If you don't assume your spirits and a more concrete soul / character to defend yourself soon, you could soon be like a wandering ghost...
"Life can be a mess, but not as big as one in which you mess it up yourself...." -
quit schOriginally posted by missqi:I don't know what's wrong with me these days.
I snap at everyone, including my bf. I skip lectures and tutorials like there's no tomorrow and I hate school. Not to mention that I can't cope with the schoolwork, econs, stats, ITAB, accounts, and all that crap.
Feeling so down lately.
Me and the bf aren't doing great either.
We don't talk much. And my snapping at him isn't exactly helping, not that I know why I'm snapping at everyone.
I used to cut myself and it doesn't give me the rush I used to get anymore. Friends say I've become another person and that my already bad temper is so bad they're afraid to even talk to me.
On the outside, I am as happy as can be. And only my close friends realise the change in me. Projects and tests are coming in fast and furious, and I have no idea at all, for econs and accounts.
Family is one big mess.
R/s is one big mess.
School is an even bigger mess.
My life is a mess.
Sigh.
Teen rants.
And now, I'm thinking of quitting polytechnic to go to JC next year.
Before I kill myself out of frustration.
break up
disown ur family -
Good idea.Originally posted by Master -_-:quit sch
break up
disown ur family -
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dun forget to take a chopper and chop master's dick off too.Originally posted by missqi:Good idea. -
He'e too nice for me to do tt.Originally posted by Ito_^:dun forget to take a chopper and chop master's dick off too.
Lol
What on earth is a domokun?
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korean cookie monster.Originally posted by missqi:He'e too nice for me to do tt.
Lol
What on earth is a domokun?
^^
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Originally posted by mase101:
isnt this the opposite of the "anti-masturbation kitty killer" pic? -
=DOriginally posted by Gwangetto:korean cookie monster.
that's all? -
domo - thanksOriginally posted by Gwangetto:korean cookie monster.
kun - young-mr
japanese leh?
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Originally posted by missqi:=D
that's all?Domo-kun (どーもくん
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Domo-kun is the mascot of Japan's NHK television station, appearing in several short stop-motion sketches. Domo-kun, a strange monster-like creature born from an egg, is short, fuzzy and brown with beady black eyes and an open mouth revealing pointy teeth. He lives in an underground cave with Usajii, a wise old rabbit, who loves to watch TV and drink astringent tea (in Japanese, "Usagi" = rabbit and "Oyaji" = older man). The name "Domo" was acquired during the second episode of his show in which a TV announcer said, "Domo Konnichiwa" (roughly translatable as "Hello indeed!"). Domo's favorite food is seasoned beef with potatoes and he has a strong dislike for apples (an unexplained mystery in his DNA). Domo is known to pass gas repeatedly when nervous or in a bad mood.
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