your chemical balance of your body are slightly off. Its made worse by your lack of sleep. And you have too much free time.Originally posted by DrTech:Even though I know if I told my mom now, she'd probably forgive me since it was so long ago. But I just can't forgive myself for the things I did. Just somehow, I can't live with the guilt. I know these aren't exactly very serious offenses, but... it's affecting me really bad.
I can't get proper sleep lately, ocassionally crying myself to sleep. I don't know why it's affecting me so badly now... I really wish I could let it go... but...
I ever stepped on a C.o.c.kroach accidentally and I Still feel guilty till now..Originally posted by pipipopo:Has anyone ever stepped on an ant or kicked a cat on the streets in their past or right at this moment? The pain the victims felt is far more immense than what has been mentioned.
Move on.
too much estrogen?Originally posted by DrTech:I understand... feeling better already. Dunno why I thought of those stuffs in the first place...
It's time to let go. Last time I also killed 2 people and robbed another dozen or so people before. I was depressed for while, sure, like who wouldn't? But after some time, you kind of move on to other things. Now, after so long, I don't even think about it anymoreOriginally posted by DrTech:I'll keep this as short as possible.
Lately, I was reminded of stuffs I did like 8-10 years ago when I was younger. Stuffs that made me feel guilty. One of it was actually stealing $50 from my mom's purse. I felt guilty then, but I didn't dare to voice it out. I was really upset because we weren't exactly well-to-do and $50 actually meant alot to the family. Now, I can't forgive myself for doing that. I don't know how to face it.
It then began snowballing, with all the bad memories I tossed aside all coming back. Another was the fact I made my babysitter's life a living hell. Not literally, but there were times when I made her really upset. She passed away long ago and now I wish I could tell her how sorry I was.
Even though I know if I told my mom now, she'd probably forgive me since it was so long ago. But I just can't forgive myself for the things I did. Just somehow, I can't live with the guilt. I know these aren't exactly very serious offenses, but... it's affecting me really bad.
I can't get proper sleep lately, ocassionally crying myself to sleep. I don't know why it's affecting me so badly now... I really wish I could let it go... but...
Originally posted by kecang_puteh:It's time to let go. Last time I also killed 2 people and robbed another dozen or so people before. I was depressed for while, sure, like who wouldn't? But after some time, you kind of move on to other things. Now, after so long, I don't even think about it anymore
Yeah, I do find it a lil trivial... but somehow, I wasn't able to face it. Now, i'm feeling better after talking to some people. Guess it was a really random phase...Originally posted by pwnz0r:Man, all those things that you did kinda pales to the 'regrets' or 'mistakes' I did with my life. Important thing is just to move on. I do agree from time to time, such thoughts come back to 'haunt' me, but this is a game everyone plays with themselves on the what-if's. It already has passed, so just move on.