When your Heart gets broken..
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You tink she dun listen to your woes. Have you listened to hers 1st? REALLY listened?Originally posted by blue_crimson_89:i love her because her smile is my motivation to live
i love her because the fragrance in her hair beckons me to move closer
i love her because she deserves nothing but the best
i love her because she dwells in the apartment called my heart
i love her because she is my one and only
i love her because she is the perfect one, the one who'll always be warm in my arms
love is everything that i need when i have her by my side.. i just feel this way about her.. when she erased me from all existence in her world as she did today, i felt empty, only to be filled up to the brim with tears of sorrow.. i really love her a lot.. i dun think she'll listen to my woes, for she feels she's the victim of this crime.. i say things like she hurt me only to tell her what went wrong.. she says it was a deliberate attempt to hurt her.. sigh.. what really is wrong here??
You are still in a denial stage, so its natural for you to ask many questions and wished time could be turned back and such.
Can I ask you 1 question though: Are you in JC or poly or ITE or taking 'O' levels? -
jc year 1.. i'm taking a levels next year..
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Then might I suggest you concentrate on that 1st? As of this period and given the pattern of how Singapore education works, your A lvls are of higher priority at the moment.Originally posted by blue_crimson_89:jc year 1.. i'm taking a levels next year..
Focus on this and take your stride in the rest. You have to be resoinsible for your life. Some more Christmas is around the corner! Woo hoo~~~!!!
Enjoy the holidays while you can because yor 2nd year is going to be pretty tough. Not only that, once you finished your As and enlist into NS, you are going into another phase of your life which you will learn more things. Then comes the life in University......
You will have to prepare and quite alot. -
can pretty much guess from the 2 numbers in ur nick...Originally posted by blue_crimson_89:jc year 1.. i'm taking a levels next year..
anyways, get some MORE CCA or sth, keep urself busy, u will 4get her in no time.
move on... ur life's story's not ended. -
You love her, but does she love you? Is there a mutual connection? Im afraid not. There is no chemistry any more. Girls are very particular about chemistry in this modern age, in fact all ages.Originally posted by blue_crimson_89:i love her because her smile is my motivation to live
i love her because the fragrance in her hair beckons me to move closer
i love her because she deserves nothing but the best
i love her because she dwells in the apartment called my heart
i love her because she is my one and only
i love her because she is the perfect one, the one who'll always be warm in my arms
love is everything that i need when i have her by my side.. i just feel this way about her.. when she erased me from all existence in her world as she did today, i felt empty, only to be filled up to the brim with tears of sorrow.. i really love her a lot.. i dun think she'll listen to my woes, for she feels she's the victim of this crime.. i say things like she hurt me only to tell her what went wrong.. she says it was a deliberate attempt to hurt her.. sigh.. what really is wrong here??
This relationship has ended. Episode closed.
Learn from this relationship. Just let go. Don't be like other stubborn threadstarters. It will come to no end. The more you seek, the less you shall receive. The more you apply pressure on her, the more she will run. Learn to face the truth and you shall become very strong.
doko -
When you have obediently placed your love on a meticulously crafted, jeweled pedestal and worshipped her like some forgotten goddess - it's no wonder why you have to keep up/increase the 'offering' or 'tributes' to placate her unpredictable tantrum in relationship, albeit her rewards for your effort may not necessarily means genuine love on her part.
In simple: you reminded me of an idol/fan relationship. You being the crazed fan, would even give her the moon if you could possibly get it, while she being the idol may appreciate the kind of special... personal attention you are showering her, but that doesn't mean that the idol sees the fan BEYOND that of a fan.
I hope you understand what this mean because if you have to keep catching up and running after with her, eventually, you will lose yourself to emotional fatigue. As long as your goddess is angered, your fear of losing her supersedes logics and other emotions. Your unhealthy devotion gave in to her every whim and this relationship becomes an obsession more than being love driven.
*** You may think that you love her very much, but looking from my angle, that's probably more narcissistic than you could possibly imagine. Like a crazed fan, you probably think that your affection worth the most cent and that the consideration of her love doesn't really matter as much as yours. CloUdiSm refers this as the Clytie complex.
You formed her safety net - she knows that she is free to do anything she desire, even if her loyalty becomes questionable because you are always 'beneath' her. You are NOT allowed to judge her because she is always angelic... even if the truth might suggest something else. Never have you walked beside her like a respectable boyfriend... always living as a lesser entity... alternating between a crazed fan and a zealous acolyte. This has taken place ever since she caught your eyes - it has begun from '...the coward who blends into the shadows like a chameleon...' as written in your earlier paragraph.
How long are you going to keep up with all these? You mentioned that your rebounded-relationship belongs to an unfortunate category of a love bred from hallucination and interestingly, what makes you think that the one you are so crazy over is indeed 'The One'? By claiming that you know... you know... doesn't make it a fact: Many came before you in this forum and make the same claim... ultimately, they shed the same tears.
With time, you will realise that you wouldn't be able catch up anymore and starting falling back... in which your relationship will degenerate further.
P.S: Given your age and mindset, I don't think you could understand much of this essence? I supposed you have wasted much of yourself (and money)... revolving your world around her presence, which ultimately gives you nothing but tormented pleasure? With the absence of wisdom, one can only hope to finish repaying their karmic debts before they find themselves moving on. Evil as I may sound, you probably need more cosmic lessons and suffering before you could 'grow'?
Cheers