I found something from my past...
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Can't sleep tonight due to some stupid important event tomorrow, therefore I'm just clicking away anyhow in my folders and I found something back from my sec sch years and it's quite funny when I think about it. I forgot when I typed this. probably when I was Sec 3 or 4. 2-3 years back already.
This one was when I was at a very low point of my sec sch life.
Incident involves:
1) F**king backstabbing friends
2) A girl I liked for 4 yrs of sec school
Ok, so this low point came along when:
1) I got to like this girl cause we share common interests plus we were treated like outcasts by our own separate group of friends lah cos of the common interest in the land of the rising sun (everyone was stars and stripes then)
2) I upgraded to a WinXP com late Sec 3, then this girl always shared her problems with me on MSN, told me a lot of stuff about her clique and how they constantly backstabbed her when she wasn't around.
3) End of Sec 3, my clique (a bunch of f**kers) were at my place when they found all the chatlogs with her while clicking through all my files in the PC, started a fake MSN account and added this girl as an anonymous member from her CCA, and constantly told her all the stuff about what her frens were saying. I initially thought "okay, great. let her know," till they started talking dirty to her, claiming their fake MSN persona "had a lesbian crush on her" and all sorts of nonsense lah.
4) Early Sec 4. she started to tell me about this person who added her on MSN and started talking nonsense to her. since she was chairman of her CCA (we're not in the same CCAs) she went to confront the entire CCA, and got really pissed when nobody owned up. then around March or so I decided f*** it I should tell her.
What did I get?
"F*** YOU!!!!!" when it wasn't even my fault.
I found out later that those f**kers had told all her friends about the fake MSN persona and said I was the one who created it.
You see now how hard it is to trust people? Well, maybe you all can have a laugh out of it the way I did when I dug it out
Here goes:I possessed a strong sense of justice.
This incident bugged me for a few months and affected my willingness to study for my O's. not because the girl shot at me with such fury, but because I had to sit in the same class all the way with the few f**king b*stards who studied exactly the same subjects as I did. worse still they were from the same CCA but I held highest post in the hierarchy, as opposed to them holding lower positions or not holding any post at all, so that didn't matter.
I was very ambitious.
I wanted to let you know the truth about your friends.
I faced risk after risk, danger after danger.
But what always healed my burning heart.
Was your smile, bright and cheerful.
I realised that we had alot in common.
I also realised that.
It was against my own principles to hide the facts from you.
I thought humans were born to forgive and forget.
I thought telling the truth would be better for you and me.
I cannot run away from the mistake that I had made.
I thought I could finally clear the shadows within my heart.
Now I realise that you cannot forgive me for what I have done.
I know what I do or say now does not mean much to you as it did before.
I have seen the ugly side of humans many times before.
But I believe you do not possess that ugly side.
I ask myself.
Why don't you forgive me?
I understand what I did was wrong.
What actually was meant to be my good intention.
Turned into a bad thing by accident.
I hope you will give me a chance to explain.
I can't stand each day as it passes.
You act as if nothing had happened.
I'm losing my humanity.
I'm losing faith in everything human.
Your smile is all I yearn for.
Probably those currently in sec school now can learn not to trust the people around them so easily? Don't let your own secrets out so easily. you won't know who to trust.
Aftermath:
I've had a brighter life after I left secondary school. though I dropped out of Poly few months back to pursue a course of my interest, during the past few months been challenging myself at high and low elements, at land and at sea, all in an attempt to discover my personal strengths and weaknesses. all these activities have taken my mind off a lot of bothersome stuff I experienced whilst in secondary school.
I still go back, volunteering my services in my CCA. I owe a lot to my CCA as my true best friends from secondary school were all from the same CCA (excluding the f**kers)
of course I've also moved on and found a better girl now.
Well, me and that girl I used to like are still very good friends now. she realised the truth sometime before O's began, though I think the incident affected her quite a bit, cos she's turning anti-social. well, I don't know what I can do as a friend la. except that I can wish her all the best in her social life.
for myself, I've found a group of very good friends who share the same interest as me.
Those f**kers are now studying in separate polys, but I hear they still meet up with each other and continue to mock me like they used to. well from where I come from the only weird people are them!! -
u seem to be happy, why is this in AA?
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don't know really, perhaps it's an agonizing point of my life. probably those kids who come in here could read and learn something from it.Originally posted by stellazio:u seem to be happy, why is this in AA? -
Can't sleep tonight due to some stupid important event tomorrow, therefore I'm just clicking away anyhow in my folders and I found something back from my sec sch years and it's quite funny when I think about it. I forgot when I typed this. probably when I was Sec 3 or 4. 2-3 years back already.
They cant accept you for who you are...Like nowadays mostly people are into Chinese Pop...Yea...So its like your interest are so Different from them...People its more of like they cant accept you for it... Haha...yea Somewhat same as mine... Leave your group of friends...Go search another with a Common Interest... Maybe things might turn out betta...Who knows you might even run into betta things... Cheers.
This one was when I was at a very low point of my sec sch life.
Incident involves:
1) F**king backstabbing friends
2) A girl I liked for 4 yrs of sec school
Ok, so this low point came along when:
1) I got to like this girl cause we share common interests plus we were treated like outcasts by our own separate group of friends lah cos of the common interest in the land of the rising sun (everyone was stars and stripes then)
2) I upgraded to a WinXP com late Sec 3, then this girl always shared her problems with me on MSN, told me a lot of stuff about her clique and how they constantly backstabbed her when she wasn't around.
3) End of Sec 3, my clique (a bunch of f**kers) were at my place when they found all the chatlogs with her while clicking through all my files in the PC, started a fake MSN account and added this girl as an anonymous member from her CCA, and constantly told her all the stuff about what her frens were saying. I initially thought "okay, great. let her know," till they started talking dirty to her, claiming their fake MSN persona "had a lesbian crush on her" and all sorts of nonsense lah.
4) Early Sec 4. she started to tell me about this person who added her on MSN and started talking nonsense to her. since she was chairman of her CCA (we're not in the same CCAs) she went to confront the entire CCA, and got really pissed when nobody owned up. then around March or so I decided f*** it I should tell her.
What did I get?
"F*** YOU!!!!!" when it wasn't even my fault.
I found out later that those f**kers had told all her friends about the fake MSN persona and said I was the one who created it.
You see now how hard it is to trust people? Well, maybe you all can have a laugh out of it the way I did when I dug it out
Here goes:
quote:
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I possessed a strong sense of justice.
I was very ambitious.
I wanted to let you know the truth about your friends.
I faced risk after risk, danger after danger.
But what always healed my burning heart.
Was your smile, bright and cheerful.
I realised that we had alot in common.
I also realised that.
It was against my own principles to hide the facts from you.
I thought humans were born to forgive and forget.
I thought telling the truth would be better for you and me.
I cannot run away from the mistake that I had made.
I thought I could finally clear the shadows within my heart.
Now I realise that you cannot forgive me for what I have done.
I know what I do or say now does not mean much to you as it did before.
I have seen the ugly side of humans many times before.
But I believe you do not possess that ugly side.
I ask myself.
Why don't you forgive me?
I understand what I did was wrong.
What actually was meant to be my good intention.
Turned into a bad thing by accident.
I hope you will give me a chance to explain.
I can't stand each day as it passes.
You act as if nothing had happened.
I'm losing my humanity.
I'm losing faith in everything human.
Your smile is all I yearn for.
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This incident bugged me for a few months and affected my willingness to study for my O's. not because the girl shot at me with such fury, but because I had to sit in the same class all the way with the few f**king b*stards who studied exactly the same subjects as I did. worse still they were from the same CCA but I held highest post in the hierarchy, as opposed to them holding lower positions or not holding any post at all, so that didn't matter.
Probably those currently in sec school now can learn not to trust the people around them so easily? Don't let your own secrets out so easily. you won't know who to trust.
Aftermath:
I've had a brighter life after I left secondary school. though I dropped out of Poly few months back to pursue a course of my interest, during the past few months been challenging myself at high and low elements, at land and at sea, all in an attempt to discover my personal strengths and weaknesses. all these activities have taken my mind off a lot of bothersome stuff I experienced whilst in secondary school.
I still go back, volunteering my services in my CCA. I owe a lot to my CCA as my true best friends from secondary school were all from the same CCA (excluding the f**kers)
of course I've also moved on and found a better girl now.
Well, me and that girl I used to like are still very good friends now. she realised the truth sometime before O's began, though I think the incident affected her quite a bit, cos she's turning anti-social. well, I don't know what I can do as a friend la. except that I can wish her all the best in her social life.
for myself, I've found a group of very good friends who share the same interest as me.
Those f**kers are now studying in separate polys, but I hear they still meet up with each other and continue to mock me like they used to. well from where I come from the only weird people are them!!
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Yeah you know I always found it funny how some people like to claim to be like Westerners, claiming to be very open-minded and somewhat sociable, but then immediately shun people who don't follow their likes and tastes. Funny how the world works ain't it?
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Yeah you know I always found it funny how some people like to claim to be like Westerners, claiming to be very open-minded and somewhat sociable, but then immediately shun people who don't follow their likes and tastes. Funny how the world works ain't it?
Yar Hor...Maybe Those People he tried to Mix with cant even accept him for Himself Lor..So thats why everyone is outcasting him lor..So sad... -
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Originally posted by hobochua:
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I even worst then u .... Igot to know a girl only in less than a week then my 2 idiot friend come to my house and use m friendster which I have forgoteen to logout & my phone to call & msg saying which how to download pic to friendster n research for ice cream. Crazy fellows, now the girl get pissed off n can't even be friend. This 2 bastards now enjoying life in HK leaving me to bear all consquences. But it good as I ganged up my whole club to punish them for treating us a meal which run up to a few k....
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What is Wrong with Thinking Differently and asking people to mind their own business ?
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some people live with the idea that the world rotates around them.
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Is it me, or is it that we all do the stupidest things during sec school? I myself don't really have fond memories of my sec school years(although partly, I myself am to blame). When I got back my O-Level result, I was damn happy, because I could go JC, and knowing that most of the people I don't like are going Poly, I immediately put a JC as my 1st choice. I won't say its my best 2 years of my life, but I definitely enjoyed it more than my sec school days.
True, the backstabbing, the competitive nature of school are still there, but at least the people i know in JC are definitely much more mature. I think its pointless to look back anymore at the "worst years of my life". We all have moved on, and no longer keep in touch. I think that's more impt than remembering the stupid things we once did to each other. -
Secondary school is the best
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last time i buey song my cca so i kope everything from the fund before i left. until now they still dunnoe how much was in the fund in the first place, much less dat i took anything.
who ask em never bother about their accounts, all gimme gao dim. messed up everything to the point of almost being incompetent. ppl juz join for the free cca point only.
my point is, ppl dun backstab u for nothing one, there must be a reason why they buay song you in the past to find you such a convenient target for sabo-ing. -
Hmm...
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To teach us a life lesson so that next time we dunnid to create a thread in AA about getting backstabbedOriginally posted by stellazio:u seem to be happy, why is this in AA? -
last time i buey song my cca so i kope everything from the fund before i left. until now they still dunnoe how much was in the fund in the first place, much less dat i took anything.
Since you say till like that...So when they backstab you back... how would you feel ? Not being able to accept it...Or can accept it ?
who ask em never bother about their accounts, all gimme gao dim. messed up everything to the point of almost being incompetent. ppl juz join for the free cca point only.
my point is, ppl dun backstab u for nothing one, there must be a reason why they buay song you in the past to find you such a convenient target for sabo-ing. -
everyone has a past
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sad, but i have to admit i have my share of faults and eccentricity.Originally posted by Seth35:Since you say till like that...So when they backstab you back... how would you feel ? Not being able to accept it...Or can accept it ? -
everyone has a past
But what if you had not done anything wrong during the past ? -
for the color one i dun quite muh agree cos there will be some people who be so bor liao to that extent...it's not like in the past where things r so simple such as people...now there r more thousands n millions of variety of people out there...just my few penny thoughtOriginally posted by Ito_^:last time i buey song my cca so i kope everything from the fund before i left. until now they still dunnoe how much was in the fund in the first place, much less dat i took anything.
who ask em never bother about their accounts, all gimme gao dim. messed up everything to the point of almost being incompetent. ppl juz join for the free cca point only.
my point is, ppl dun backstab u for nothing one, there must be a reason why they buay song you in the past to find you such a convenient target for sabo-ing. -
u are too late man..
anyway let the past b the past -
some people live with the idea that the world rotates around them.
Yes...Isolation is the Better Choice... -
u asshole!!
if u dun let ur friends know or use ur computer, these things will not happen, dun blame the faults on ur friends...
1 big asshole and liar!
u just make a mess out of the girl's life...
but ur friends also in the wrong....
poor gal...
big asshole!
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i thought u mentioned this b4