udon has final exams starting monday
but udon cant concentrate when studying

i read something for 5 minutes (plus minus a bit) and then my mind will start wandering...and i will have to go do something else...
i cant FORCE myself to sit down and concentrate otherwise mi will hab panic attacks

actually ive been like this since...a long long time ago...but im very lucky...in a sense. (but thats another story)
aiyah...anyways, how how how???????????
and recently a lot of things to deal with...

but...exams!! arghhhh~
(dont tell mi to get off sgf, its what i do when i cant concentrate and study so that i wont go crazy. dont tell me take deep breaths, go exercise, eat healthy, sleep enough. i know that. doesnt and wont work. oh. school counsellor also cmi. udon has no money to see better ones. and talking to my parents....ahahahhahahahahhahahahah...they will say im making it up or something along those lines. tried before. actually, they said that when i mentioned i think im feeling a bit stressed.)
if i was failing miserably, my parents would probably think something is wrong. but my grades are still ok. ok. not good enough. so the only thing i get from my parents is that 'im lazy lazy lazy'

i hate exam periods....
ok. rant over.