for those who know me personally only

• StQwerty

  5 Dec 02, 05:24

  
  liam too...........same childhood but totally different from me later
  
  i know ur embarass or feel embarass, awkward reading this since i put me and a long blond hair white man together......u say is impossible to be alike since we r a large volume of water apart!
  
  so someof u feel embarass by my words....saying i'm exaggerating.......but never mind
  
  remember i couldnt play the guitar well, dont reallyt understand musicla scale...........so we r different!
  
  as for the nevermind song.....purely coincidental.......wrote lyrics first then i pickd out the title
  
  why is never and mind together since our local school teaches us to put a spae in between?
  
  don't sumthing jsut compelled me to nevermind together
  
  but the point, the meaning, the thoughts i'm conveying is the same.......whatever ur body size, don't matter..............whatever
  
  learned it fom somehwhere but definately not from nirvana
  
  gone thru his critcally acclaimed lyrics a while ago....not prior to it
  
  sounds like metal axle turning , revolving rapidly
  
  sounds like heavy vechicles running at high speed
  
  can't tell exactly!
  
  hey hoe did u guys discover that i'm like him? how did you know i'm like him,.........chracter, mentaliy wise? how?
  
  i dont know u know.......thought i'm th only one cna't speak well since my father is low education n i'm chinese........kurt is english american.shouldnt have any problem in speech at all!
  
  i got a shy friend before but he was not like that, not like ME.....
  
  struggle or unreadily to speak! a bit held back n restrained!
  
  reticence right?
  
  try to find a friend liek me........reticence,
  
  prefeably in singpore
  
  
• StQwerty

  5 Dec 02, 05:27

  after reading about the kurt cobin story,
  i got a bit frightened!
  
  i knew of this person when i was in secondary school, my malays friends knew and workshipped him
  
  heard about his death n his band and the swimming baby on the front but never heard his song before and never saw his lyrics before........i know u r not going to believe me sine u think i'm trying to act like him!
  
  i don't. why? bcos his already dead by the time i'm in 13 years old, i don't idonised dead person...
  
  so u suspected i'm coping his songs from the net, WRONG AGAIN! i never been to his website before bcos
  
  i dont' like indian names such as nirvana, so i never got attracted by their music, i got turned OFF by their nirvana
  
  but nirvana sounded like the axles of a bus rotating at furious speed onthe highway
  shifting of the gear........
  
  woom, woom, woom......i dont thinku 'll undertsand me but this is what 'knocks on my mind' everytime i mentioned the name
  
  very spiritual, very catchy ,, i 'm losing vocabulary, couldnt find any to describe!
  
  why was that i 'm frightened by his story?
  
  bcos it relatively close to my own past but i really doubt that we r similar!
  
  not exactly the same , i can pick out the differences...
  
  he got a better command of english or vocabulary than me maybe bcos he was american
  
  i'm a chinese!
  
  i learned the word empathy from his passage just now, just a moment ago.
  
  i do have a feeling of empathy for the ones that are close to me or worked with me for a certain duration in time.....
  
  i did got picked on by rich kid before...
  
  i hate HBD center in bukiet merah used to why?
  
  bcos this is the first empathy i got just for being there
  
  my mum dunno english, can't understand,
  
  the fucking malay receptionist lady or the woman in the desk , with the counter number whom explained to you every detail for purchasing the flat....spoke only english
  
  my mother asked for a chinese speaking instead to attend to her but the receptionist just ignored her and treated her a fool, like emptiness , althouht we were both sitted within her fuking sight!
  
  then my mother got a saviour or an helpful to man to help her, translated the details from english to chinese, the fuking malay lady recptionist ' s face turned instantly to friendly
  
  i learned my first empathy lesson there , how to tell exactly the facial expression of a particualr person whether he/she is detecting, disgusting, proud.......etc
  
  then slowly i got the ability to tell most of the time what ur thinking on ur mind when ur facing me
  
  ask my mum, she 'll know!
  
  i could tell the fustration or a taunting of a psychological doctor jsut like the one i ' had been to
  
  he tying to say i'm doing al this, faking all this to escape NS....
  
  and at the same time, he told us the next consultant won't be him, but another doctor frineds of his instead........why? bcos he told us he is going to england or whatever overseas and he is proud of his qualification n opportunity and pity my mother for having a faky son like ME........damn him, he dont' understand , what a fuking doctor?
  
  
• StQwerty

  5 Dec 02, 05:28

  i don't consult him for nothing, what a waste of money !
  
  maybe my sec malays frineds can sense me, sinc i'm abit anti-social
  
  but i have never , till nopw listen to nirvan before, heard of them, but dunno the story behind until afew day ago by ont he stait times by MR yeow....whoever
  
  so ur thinking anpother Mr YEOW workkinginth newspaper center could help me since we r both yeow even one of the photograhy got a Miss yeow if i'm not wrong! at th same page
  
  to console me since yeow can make so is my yeow, right?
  
  i swear i definately don't want to end up like kurt.....
  
  we got the same ,almost similar childhood but not exactly the same!
  
  hyperactive another word to describe me...........yeah
  
  i used to can't sleep at night, i'll ask my mum why i can't sleep!
  
  this is 12 years ago or even younger
  
  when was in pimary school, i always got a stomach ache so everytime i wouldput oilment on it
  
  but i really doubt i could be like him
  
  ------------------------------------------------
  
  why kurt chose courtney? bcos courtney is brave, bold, careless, carefree, do whatever.......althought she dont possessed any talent at all...kurt is the opposite why?
  
  kurt is very conscious of himslf , how ppl perceives him, how is himslef in the eye of the ppl who he came across..........bcos he could sensed the love hate of another ppl...
  
  so u see he choose to hide himself behind dark glasses......very insecure
  
  Me> i dont have dark glasses dont intend to have one but everytime i went out, i left my glasses at home, since i'm short-sighted, i can't see very well, can't see ur expression especailly when ur judging me, ur scrutinising me just like waeirng very dark glasses u saw on kurt....
  
  the passage on kurt really frightened me! still got a residue fear tingling on my spine as i wrote....
  
  almost the same character, same empathy though i dont understand how much empathies he got
  !
  
  for me close person, ver y close to me especially....i could sense
  
  he was genius, i don't think i am.........i'm just prossess empathy n hyperactive like him....... genius or talent, i don' know!
  
  if i'm genius, i would be in raffles instituiton or. somehing better........MR seong disbelief since he was abit jealous of everyone around him!
  
  swimming baby in clear blue, greenish water,,,,,,,,,that's all i know!
  
  why i love gun? police academy i had been to, james hetfield shooting hobby, tom array shooting can,
  
  never know cobin love guns too? but lucky i'm in singapore.........so ur thinking i'm boasting or trying to act ang moh...............ur worng again,,,,,,,,,,,i can empathise i'm, not kidding
  
  i dotn feel proud at all for being like kurt.........my father maybe..............damn him.............i want my own glory not kurt's
  
  we r not related in any sense.......i could even tell he won't like me or open himslelf to me if we met!
  
  almost the same but not exactly......close......jus close very close..
  
  GOD reproduced another kurt in singapore! ............fucke GOD
  
  i dont try to be anti-social but i really can't speak or find my words well!
  
  
• StQwerty

  5 Dec 02, 05:29

  almost the same but not exactly......close......jus close very close..
  
  GOD reproduced another kurt in singapore! ............fucke GOD
  
  i dont try to be anti-social but i really can't speak or find my words well!
  
  liam too...........same childhood but totally different from me later
  
  i know ur embarass or feel embarass, awkward reading this since i put me and a long blond hair white man together......u say is impossible to be alike since we r a large volume of water apart!
  
  so someof u feel embarass by my words....saying i'm exaggerating.......but never mind
  
  remember i couldnt play the guitar well, dont reallyt understand musicla scale...........so we r different!
  
  as for the nevermind song.....purely coincidental.......wrote lyrics first then i pickd out the title
  
  why is never and mind together since our local school teaches us to put a spae in between?
  
  don't sumthing jsut compelled me to nevermind together
  
  but the point, the meaning, the thoughts i'm conveying is the same.......whatever ur body size, don't matter..............whatever
  
  learned it fom somehwhere but definately not from nirvana
  
  gone thru his critcally acclaimed lyrics a while ago....not prior to it
  
  sounds like metal axle turning , revolving rapidly
  
  sounds like heavy vechicles running at high speed
  
  can't tell exactly!
  
  hey hoe did u guys discover that i'm like him? how did you know i'm like him,.........chracter, mentaliy wise? how?
  
  i dont know u know.......thought i'm th only one cna't speak well since my father is low education n i'm chinese........kurt is english american.shouldnt have any problem in speech at all!
  
  i got a shy friend before but he was not like that, not like ME.....
  
  struggle or unreadily to speak! a bit held back n restrained!
  
  reticence right?
• StQwerty

  5 Dec 02, 05:49

  simply..............i'm like, i can put myself in ur shoe, looka thing from ur perspective, feel how ur feeling....
  
  eg.
  
  ur judging me now, i could put myslef in ur pespectively right instantly.......well most of the time ok?
  
  and feel how ur judging me!
  
  so i experienced many pespectives among the ppl i met..
  and the perspective frightened me into silence
  
  all inside me.........so is like there' a numerous characters in one single me.
  
  i'm not acting like kurt or whoever but i'm like that even way befoe nirvana was formed n came into limelight........way before and i can say i'm not a genius......i dropped out of school, don't have a decent result before
  
  but i must confess ....i truly good in techincal during sec school ONLY
  
  i dont have to study hard to understand the subject.. just a quick glance i could went for exam and scored As
  
  genius are supposed to be in RafflesI right?
  
• StQwerty

  5 Dec 02, 06:05

  u said genius.......i'm shy to admit
  
  but prodigious seem to be a better word to describe me
  
  but am i?
  
  chidl prodigous....looked like i stumbleb upon a word to describe me but i swear i can't see the future but i could sense ur feeling
  
  especailly fustrated ones but i know fustrationi s easy to sense
  
  ME reticence?.........definately true
  
  at home? im' fluent n quick-witted like hell...........outside or insecure not familliar area .....i'm soft-spoken to the extent of incoherent, inaudible
  
  funny? i'm not acting.....this is real/////////////////i hate my disablilty
  
  what a brought down!
  
  somebody bring me down? nobody but this reticence
  
  his my enemy.....or maybe i'm too proud so sub-consciously, a guilt or conscience was developed and it's release during insecure time
  
  when im' secure..........i'm proud
  
  when i'm insecure..........i'm reticence
  
  could it be cure?
• StQwerty

  5 Dec 02, 11:15

  hyperactive or hyperactivity
  
  once i broke my restrains in the joints, loosen up the muscles, feeling the ultimate lightness in whatever i did, i'll be faster than hell
  
  NS guy wearing that army singlet riding th bicycle along 83, yep ur consider 'fast' to among ppl, normal ppl like you
  
  but pls dont ride that fast on a pavement where u could get an old person injured.
  
  think beforeu act
  
  fast to most ppl but disappointing to say, i could beat you easily on the same bicycle without my insecure interferring.
  
  NS taught you to work with ppl!
  
  even though if i had been thru, my hyperactivity stilll can't be supressed!
  
  thoughts just shifted very fast in my mind, just like the pages of a book flipping rapidly under a gust
  
  one moment i got a interest, the next moment the interest is GONE
  
  at school i'm not hyperactiv physically but hyperactiv in th thoughts since we r made to sit still for 5 hours
  
  always on the go, but i sense fear faster than anybody else, cause me to withdraw................be anti-social
  
  got frighten easily since i'm most sensitive.......hyper-sensitive!
  
  best n most suitable vocation.........................a rock star...........they are hyperactive right?
  
  the need for emasculation.......weaken the 'little devil' in me!
  
  emasculate my emulation
  
  hyperactivity ir-fatal right?
  
  one moment i'm seemed to have passion in me , the next moment, the passion is lost.
  
  otherwise i could show you my innovation
  
  chinese consider it to be DEMONIC possession....since this person can't sit still, spoke excessively since his mind is working, is emulating rapidly...........faster than hell
  
  drink holy water, drink charmed water, drink incense burning
  
  psychological prescribe drugs to calm or appease this ever- activ child in an hyperactive person...
  
  i''m not clever, sad to say, but i could use my hyperactiveness to good usage
  
  Wu bai lacks sumthing in him, sumthing that most american rock star possessed.......hyperactivity
  
  tawianese bands is weak although they r called energy
  
  ------lack hyperactivity
  
  is never good enough, is never good enough
  
  supercharged
  
  u dont understand me
  oh well, whatever, nevermind----quoted and the best to describe my feelings, my thoughts
  
  i found a freind recently but his dead!
  
  it common for a chinese to be hyperactivity but white man?
  
  Chaos of disorder
  circles of displeasure
  unhappy childhood
  similar childhood, well almosthyperactive or hyperactivity
  
  once i broke my restrains in the joints, loosen up the muscles, feeling the ultimate lightness in whatever i did, i'll be faster than hell
  
  NS guy wearing that army singlet riding th bicycle along 83, yep ur consider 'fast' to among ppl, normal ppl like you
  
  but pls dont ride that fast on a pavement where u could get an old person injured.
  
  think beforeu act
  
  fast to most ppl but disappointing to say, i could beat you easily on the same bicycle without my insecure interferring.
  
  NS taught you to work with ppl!
  
  even though if i had been thru, my hyperactivity stilll can't be supressed!
  
  thoughts just shifted very fast in my mind, just like the pages of a book flipping rapidly under a gust
  
  one moment i got a interest, the next moment the interest is GONE
  
  at school i'm not hyperactiv physically but hyperactiv in th thoughts since we r made to sit still for 5 hours
  
  always on the go, but i sense fear faster than anybody else, cause me to withdraw................be anti-social
  
  got frighten easily since i'm most sensitive.......hyper-sensitive!
  
  best n most suitable vocation.........................a rock star...........they are hyperactive right?
  
  the need for emasculation.......weaken the 'little devil' in me!
  
  emasculate my emulation
  
  hyperactivity ir-fatal right?
  
  one moment i'm seemed to have passion in me , the next moment, the passion is lost.
  
  otherwise i could show you my innovation
  
  chinese consider it to be DEMONIC possession....since this person can't sit still, spoke excessively since his mind is working, is emulating rapidly...........faster than hell
  
  drink holy water, drink charmed water, drink incense burning
  
  psychological prescribe drugs to calm or appease this ever- activ child in an hyperactive person...
  
  i''m not clever, sad to say, but i could use my hyperactiveness to good usage
  
  Wu bai lacks sumthing in him, sumthing that most american rock star possessed.......hyperactivity
  
  tawianese bands is weak although they r called energy
  
  ------lack hyperactivity
  
  is never good enough, is never good enough
  
  supercharged
  
  u dont understand me
  oh well, whatever, nevermind----quoted and the best to describe my feelings, my thoughts
  
  i found a freind recently but his dead!
  
  it common for a chinese to be hyperactivity but white man?
  
  Chaos of disorder
  circles of displeasure
  unhappy childhood
  similar childhood, well almost
• StQwerty

  5 Dec 02, 12:23

  wherever i go, there a need for me to getaway, a need for me to hide
  studio apartment show off, i can't adapt my life
  
  i hated luxuries, inferior complex caught on me
  
  i grew up in trash, so shall it be
  
  can't understand why?
  
  fahter is like hungry snake swallowing every egg
  
  wish i got a gun to blast his head off in an ache
  
  ur right after all! should have went for NS!
  
  plenty of ways fo a suicide that is never right
  annhilate the child in me, the evil urges in me.
  
  hated my life that is caught in a knife,
  
  can't understand why u can't understand why?
  
  why am i here? bos i don't like life in my eyes
  
  nevermind is purely coincidental, can u understand why?
  
  hyperactive-----stop moving
  hypersensitive----stop thinking
  
  the devil in me is driving me against the wall
  gotta release it so i dont get prison wall
• StQwerty

  6 Dec 02, 04:22

  i hate attention u see, but luckily it's behind the computer
  
  i dont hate the society but i hate the way i'm brought up,
  ashamed of my past,
  
  there's a need for me to prove n show but once i got it, i resent the attention generated
  
  ashamed of the myself in a posh surrounding,
  
  my fahter is jealous of me, he hated me, he wanted to make me like him
  
  think my sec school teacher knew about that! so she gave me attention purposely but i can't accept!
  
  life suck being me
  walking contradiction that's me
  who can help me?
  
  kurt, heard of him before
  but dunnno what was he like?
  until now,
  straits time told me everything
  feeling of bittersweet overwhelmed me
  
  history teacher is speaking to me,
  hinting me,
  but i dunno why she did, that to me
  
  hate the society, gotta make do with it
  sinc eu got no money but
  i dont hate the society, i hate my past
  that refused to pass thru my mind
  hate my father that refused to die
  
  why is kurt a genius?
  i dont understand bcos i'm not a genius
• StQwerty

  6 Dec 02, 05:54

  my father hated us, find us to be a burden when we r babies, how both of my parents wished we could go and die, self-destroy so they won't have to carry this burden
  
  but we don't die, GOD protected both of us....why?
  
  bcos nobody forced my fahter n mother to conceive us n bring us to this world
  
  if i could turn back time, just like my parents used to wish
  
  i rather not be born into this world or i would be better off adopted!
  
  there is always a solution to ur problems
  
  i coud be adopted to lessen their burden so we won't fuking got the hate, resentment from them as i was growing up
  
  GOD shall damn them to HELL, especailly my fahter
  
  he is godless but not exactly!
  
  i could be adopted and i won't ended up this way
  
  now i knew why i'm always requesting for a change of family but i know this can't be done!
  
  GOD SHALL DAMN MY FAHTER, he was a sinner by the light,
  he hated his own child, he tried to shrink responsiblity after he shot.
  
  a fuking message to him.........."since u like screwing and discharge without a considerate , without a response a fahter should have, GOD SHALL MAKE HIm understand his folly , his grave mistake that can't be revoke, can'tbe condone........he is a sinner
  
  he is a sinner
  he is a sinner
  he is a sinner
  he is a sinner
  he is a sinner
  he is a sinner
  a sunken sinner
  
  he hated us,don't never follow in my fahter footstep
  
  nuture ur child the way a HUMAN should,
  never screw up, never got too emotional,
  
  remember, adoption is always a solution
  never shrinked responsiblities a parent should possess
  
  i always like a girl from a better family than me, better social stratas them me........
  but i never got a chance to meet or impress any
  
  'm not a genius, i'm a genius, i'm not a genie in a bottle
  
  i can't wish for...........i hate my life
  
  i got a freind but his dead........this is depressing
  
  never a girl will waste a life on me just to make me happy
  
  my mother was...
  
  i know the best
  
  i'm ashamed of mine past, my fahter 's puff
  
  slightest attention will make me run for cover n hide in a safe place
  bcos i knew attention will cause trouble, nothing but trouble
  
  my fahter used to give me immense attention, immense trouble
  
  i hate him
  
  mine is not a common, widespread, slight relation problem
  
  mine is an extremely fuked-up, full of hatred, end of the world relation
  
  i could be adopted
• StQwerty

  6 Dec 02, 06:40

  my fahter just keep on making mistakes n mistakes
  
  mistakes after mistakes
  
  somebody shoulda bashed him up , make he fuking realise his fuking mistakes,
  somebody shoulda had pull off his hair, make him bloody wake up
  
  mistakes after mistakes
  mistakes after mistakes
  mistakes after mistakes
  mistakes after mistakesmistakes after mistakes
  mistakes after mistakesmistakes after mistakesmistakes after mistakes
  
  this is driving me crazy.........
  
  a third child on the way but an abortion concept intercepted it, stopping the iminent tragedy
  
  mistakes after mistakes
  mistakes after mistakes
  mistakes after mistakes
  
  he just don't fuking realise
  don't fuking care,
  a child spoilt by his parents, fuking confucius brain confused ur brain
  
  i hate confucius
  woman can't complain, my mother was in pain
  
  thiss wahat happens if ur fahter is a bloody dreamer
  
  GODDAME HIM
  u can made mistakes in business, in school work,
  
  but never made mistake in fertility, in nurturing ur fucked
  
  i got an imaginary friend too..........his name was NANA
  staying in a cardboard now
  another one staying on my bed
  
  this past few years, embarassing to pronounce
  
  i'm talking to in a park just now
  
  why do i ended like this?
  
  my fahter used to hate ME , a burden that brought him down
  
  he treated my mum as his mum
  
  his wife as his mum
  
  jealous bcos i snatched his 'mum' away, ever since i came into life
  
  he don't understand, never bloody understand.
  never bloody woke up, never bloody fit in as a parents
  
  totally screwed up his fahter duties
  
  say fah------ter NOT father!
  
  guys out there , youngsters getting ready for marriage
  
  fuking get this into ur fuking brain
  
  don't ever shrink ur father responsiblities
  dont' ever desecrate the father that is supposed to be
  
  think before u get emotional
  think before u...
  
  fahter is a sinner,
  my mum is a helper of a sin
  
  my mum is weak, fahter is badass
  
  im' going to be harder than hell,
  try fighting me, i'll take u down
• StQwerty

  6 Dec 02, 07:07

  Mr d don't try to lie
  
  i knew u got adopted by grandma
  
  so ur spared the sight of ur mum
  
  i'm different, i lived with them
  
  to all ur surprise, i'm almost the same as kurt,
  i don' act i don' mimick, never knew him until now
  
  in singpore, my parent generation, do have a lot of mistakes done
  
  death?
  gathering my guts to do it, to end everythng that 's is wrong, never should have born,........a mistake
  
  
• StQwerty

  6 Dec 02, 07:39

  how do you try to be antisocial?
  
  u can't.
  
  but it jsut came to be
  
  lazy to open my mouth , tired to face ppl
  
  Mr d, u got a grandma to adopt you
  u r spared the sight of ur mother
  
  i knew, u can't lie
  
  i'm different, i'm feeling their hate all along
  
  shouldnt have been born at all, a mistake
  
  a product of misconception
  
  gathering guts to end everything, try to accumulate all my depression to end evrything that's wong,shouldnt have been born
  
  
• StQwerty

  6 Dec 02, 12:44

  but in the process, if we r working together, a clash is resulted
  
  i try to justify myself, u too do the same,
  so who gets justify?
  
  most of the time, those determine or desperate for a own justice overdid it most of the time, they r selfish! SELFISH....
  
  i rather forfeit my life despite of all the luxuries in the world
  
  DOOMsday coming , how much i wish for that.........is for the good of eveyone on this earth
  
  ur customer, in order to get justify.......u work had to justify urself in this evil, 'trample on each other world'
  
  just to justify to urself,
  
  but in the process, somebody is feeling unjustice, unfair
  
  e.g the service line, serving customer
  
  u feel fair n square bcos u worked hard to attain that
  
  but somebody got an unjustice in the process
  
  i hate the society , not bcos of the infrastructures, not bcos of the HDB flats......etc
  
  but the way human trample on each other to get up to feel justice, simply
  the way the society is made
  
  i'm angry , how about you?
  
  so when is the last time ur angry bcos of an injustice?
  
  so when will be the next anger? very soon i guess
  
  or maybe u could say i lacked an ambition, a desire to change resulting me falling into this pit of suffering
  
  so i make sure everyone knows i'm GOOD, the best but this could make ppl hate me
  
  u can't draw the face of GOD bcos nobdy knows where to start?
  
  but it alwasy easy to draw a demonic face, face from hell
  
  e.g the human face, an over-ambition human face.............adolf hitler
  
  if ur without ambition u ended up working in a supremarket
  
  ir ur ambition, u find ur self in a poweful, high authority, high earner position
  
  most of time, u became more n more ambition
  
  so it better not to be successful too early in ur life
  
  bcos u might get caught by the ambitious whirlwind later on
  
  creating turmoil n destruction everywhere, conquering without a love, without a mercy
  
  so who is me? another kurt?
• StQwerty

  6 Dec 02, 12:46

  in order to justify urself, make urself feel fair n square, feel justified,
  and u r determine to do that, to attain that,
  
  e.g-------------------------------------------classroom or school scenario
  
  u i'll work hard to justify that ur a good teacher by forcing hard upon the students, making them obey , submissive like a dog, just like a dog, bend them to ur will................all for the pupose of justifying urself, proving urself to the HOD or principal that u can do it, you ''ll be a good teacher, the best teacher of all, u got the best students who got the best academical results on hands............just to be the best, teacher, to justify that ur brilliant in ur teachings, ur a brilliant man,
  
  but did you ever know the students u taught are human, flesh n blood just like you, who will also make sure that they r justified, just like you, u tried to make them submissive but so u 'll be justified but they too wanted to justify themselves, just like you
  
  teacher or students.....................all the same, all of us r human, have the feeling the desire, the determination to justify ourselves, in oreder to enjoy life..
  
• StQwerty

  6 Dec 02, 12:54

  u try to be perfect although
  
  to be a perfect teacher, to have classroom full of perfect student, perfect academical result. to showw that ur a perfect educator
  
  u pushed n forced by force without a mercy, without a patience for
  
  the slower ones, the problem students
  
  but in th process, u generate alot of hate among the students
  
  they hate the way u try to be perfect bcos since ur not dealing with
  non-living things but human instead although we got a common language
  
  can you make a cockcroach obey ur words, ur command?
  NO?
  
  ur force urself hard to be perfect but u created more imperfection
  more revolts, more rebellious students
  
  
• StQwerty

  6 Dec 02, 20:15

  Kurt cobain musically talented, motherÂ’s side
  
  Me? Carpentary talented, motherÂ’s side
  
  So this is the variation bet both of us right? Not really
  
  A guitar is made of wood
  
  A guitar stands for good carpentary in order to get a good sound, a precision , skill- demanding only a GOOD CARPENTER CAN PROVIDEÂ….
  
  AND IÂ’M ONE GOOD CARPENTER IF I GOT A CHANCE TO PRACTICE IN SINGAPORE.
  
  Handmade martin guitar cost you a bomb!
  
  Carpentary deals with wood working and IÂ’m good in that bcos my motherÂ’s side are all carpenters
  
  See the relation?
  
  Guitar manufacturer like martin hand made guitar are probably good musician as well as good carpenters
  
  Kurt cobain divorced family
  
  If my mother is firm in her decision when I was 5 years old, there will probably be a divorce in my family
  
  There was even once a decision to make me follow my father, sister with my mother
  
  So spoke my mum.. u (ME) gotta follow my dad.
  
  My dad dunno anything about menstruation, so how on earth is he going to take good care of my sister?
  Definitely this gotta be the solution if a divorce prevailed.
  
  Kurt followed his father too after the divorced
  
  He got a sister too
  
  He hated his dad bcos he dad paid more attention to his step son, sport than kurt.
  
  I hated my father bcos he paid more attention to his fish in his brothers house than me
  
  So similar right almost to the point of frightening
  
  Cannot seemed to get my grammer correct maybe bcos im a chinese
  
  There is no grammer in chinese
  
  Kurt---------grammer misadventure-------quoted from his black book biography
  
  Hated the way IÂ’m brought up
  
  Kurt too
  
  I got punched by a spoilt bred in primary school bcos I blocked his way
  
  Kurt divorced family, prominent
  
  Mine was divorced in the heart, not prominent but definitely existing
  
  There is no guitar manufacturer in singapore
  
  Kurt a musician using guitar
  
  IÂ’m could probably be a guitar maker
  
  Heard of a plastic guitar before?
  
  An good acoustic guitar is purely depended on the construction, woodworking, carpentary skill of a brilliant carpenter
  
  If only I got a chance to practice in singapore, IÂ’ll become a best carpenter of all
  
  But, computer reign nowadays
  
  Damn the IBM, DAMN MR GATES
  
  i must remember im' using their property now
  IÂ’m an extinct species living in a sophisticated society
  
  
• StQwerty

  6 Dec 02, 20:22

  he dont feel safe at all travelling in a limousine
  he hated luxuries
  insecure or inferior complex
  
  me? i dont feel secure n safe the first time i went to tpoly
  i felt out of place
  
  i shun places like takashimaya
  i hate to spend excessively
  
  computer is a need in todays society right?
  
  not a luxury