i guess i have been having this since i was young..maybe one little incident which i can recall, when i was 8,where i was playing with my cousin,our granmas house was atop a hill,when i accidentally push him down from atop the hill..he was paralysed and need a wheelchair for nearly 4 years,broken legs for 2 more years..now hes okay but now hes been a fat guy upon medication..i think since this incident ive bcome a nervous and panicky person..maybe its some kind of trauma,it made me such a coward..
