stuck in perpetual crap mode wat shd i do
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i hav been feeling like crap perpetually...i almost forgot where it started..maybe it was my breakup in early june.mayb it was before that..n somehow shit just attracts more shit.or to put it more elegantly then misery loves company.
asshole broke my bank so i had 3 jobs while i study. cut away frm a rebound cos i din think it wld work out i din want to lie or be unfair to a reasonably nice person. felt cui. after that along the way came a lil care n comfort which turned out to be a furker that just want to get laid tried to convince me to go hotel after some wrestling in his ride n i jetted. felt horrible. cut myself in an accident while working 5 stitches doesnt harm me much but was hell lot of pain esp when u were alr feeling miserable. my phone got stolen sorta elaborate scam the fellow said he needed tuition for his bro met me n he tok cok for 40 mins before he ran away with my phone n left behind a bag w freakass knife wasted a few hrs at the police. wat the crap.
it's a week plus before exams now n i've got a major deadline next week.it was only 2 days ago i came home frm work at 4am.i told my mgr i aint gona work for now till i m done w my papers she tried to talk me out of it. been a long time since i got a good rest. i hav been sleeping a lot the last few weeks whenever i m not rushing deadlines i sleep but i can't seem to get enough rest i m always tired easily nowadays i feel so old.now i m really time pressed to do smt bout my studies w exams so near n i hadnt touched my text but i just cant study. i just feel so lost n trapped i m unmotivated to do anything. i do still meet my deadlines but my brain refuse to do anything more. n i still need to cry to sleep once every few days. i m in wat could be my final year if i dun do well this sem. i shdnt b whining here now then u wld say yes i know. i dunno how this gonna help practically but i hope letting stuff out of my system will relieve me of some load n give me better mental ease such that i can get started..what shd i do..i m just playing neopets now hahaha.crap. -
Meeting jerks and fcukers are inevitable in life, in my uni FIRST semester i meet 3 of them in my stats group. I do the project almost by myself.
I got 4 tests cramped in just 2 days and i also feel lethargic about studying even though my exam is next mon and thurs.
Well, just pressed on gal, and i believe u are not gullible to offer sex to guys who have no intention of a serious r/s as shown from ur post...
Life is tough but it can be meaningful....
People who being through hardship, will treasure more of what they have now... treat hardships as a test.... be it that u curse and swear about it.... always remember to press on for the sake of future
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dont get into a pattern of meeting jerks.
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girl ar.. why din u learn from ur lesson?
i think it would be better if u stop working now and concentrate fully on ur papers. -
i jus hope tht u dun meet those kind of guys anymore. rmb there are genuine good guys out there.
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God sake girl, stay away from men for now ya ?
You won't die without them.
Do your studies, get it over with.
And why are you working your shiat in yo pants ? Where the fcuk are your parents ? -
y did u say i din learn my lesson? i did. i din lose any money n i left the furker before things really happen i din want to get involved w him or even take the money he offered me. at least there's much better damage control. i was just hurt cos i tot he geninuely cared at first we hit off very well and he really gave me some comfort i din know furker turned out to be a furker. literally. at the end of the story i think he just wants to furk.Originally posted by browniebaobao:girl ar.. why din u learn from ur lesson?
i think it would be better if u stop working now and concentrate fully on ur papers.
btw i m not workin from today on till my papers r over save for tuition near my place that's still alrite..my main priority now is to gear myself for my exams so i gotta snap out of my semi-zombie mode finish up my design portfolio for next fri without getting too drawn into it that i dun study for the papers on the monday after cos in my mode now i just sort of doing assignments for the portfolio n sleeping it's like a task after task kind of thing nothin really gets in my head i havent started revision yet.. -
Are u in drug? Look, Dun mess around with your life ya, it aint going to pay u a single dime. Yo, sista, be good, just listen to some of these dudes and dudies advices here ya, just study and start to crawl back to norm ya.
My advicy for you sista is,
Remember the 4D, DO good, Do well, Do correctly and after that try to DO better in life, full stop. -
sorry. i tot u really went to the hotel with him.Originally posted by kuri:y did u say i din learn my lesson? i did. i din lose any money n i left the furker before things really happen i din want to get involved w him or even take the money he offered me. at least there's much better damage control. i was just hurt cos i tot he geninuely cared at first we hit off very well and he really gave me some comfort i din know furker turned out to be a furker. literally. at the end of the story i think he just wants to furk.
btw i m not workin from today on till my papers r over save for tuition near my place that's still alrite..my main priority now is to gear myself for my exams so i gotta snap out of my semi-zombie mode finish up my design portfolio for next fri without getting too drawn into it that i dun study for the papers on the monday after cos in my mode now i just sort of doing assignments for the portfolio n sleeping it's like a task after task kind of thing nothin really gets in my head i havent started revision yet..
im not any better than u.
gambatte~ study well. -
nothing is forever
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I wonder by living this kind of lifestyle, is this what you called happiness that is worth earning for ?Originally posted by kuri:i hav been feeling like crap perpetually...i almost forgot where it started..maybe it was my breakup in early june.mayb it was before that..n somehow shit just attracts more shit.or to put it more elegantly then misery loves company.
asshole broke my bank so i had 3 jobs while i study. cut away frm a rebound cos i din think it wld work out i din want to lie or be unfair to a reasonably nice person. felt cui. after that along the way came a lil care n comfort which turned out to be a furker that just want to get laid tried to convince me to go hotel after some wrestling in his ride n i jetted. felt horrible. cut myself in an accident while working 5 stitches doesnt harm me much but was hell lot of pain esp when u were alr feeling miserable. my phone got stolen sorta elaborate scam the fellow said he needed tuition for his bro met me n he tok cok for 40 mins before he ran away with my phone n left behind a bag w freakass knife wasted a few hrs at the police. wat the crap.
it's a week plus before exams now n i've got a major deadline next week.it was only 2 days ago i came home frm work at 4am.i told my mgr i aint gona work for now till i m done w my papers she tried to talk me out of it. been a long time since i got a good rest. i hav been sleeping a lot the last few weeks whenever i m not rushing deadlines i sleep but i can't seem to get enough rest i m always tired easily nowadays i feel so old.now i m really time pressed to do smt bout my studies w exams so near n i hadnt touched my text but i just cant study. i just feel so lost n trapped i m unmotivated to do anything. i do still meet my deadlines but my brain refuse to do anything more. n i still need to cry to sleep once every few days. i m in wat could be my final year if i dun do well this sem. i shdnt b whining here now then u wld say yes i know. i dunno how this gonna help practically but i hope letting stuff out of my system will relieve me of some load n give me better mental ease such that i can get started..what shd i do..i m just playing neopets now hahaha.crap.
Er why do u want to overwork yourself? Are u trying to run away from something. . Just guessing.
Please place priority in ur studies.. Think long term.
Sometime we lose and gain yah -
Go out with a close friend and have a good time i.e. shopping or have a nice binge of your favourite flavored ice creams and etc.
You need to take your mind away from all the unpleasant, mundane and stressful things for a day (at least). IMHO you are just stressed out.
As for that ass for brain jerk, you may want to report him to the police for sexual harrassment if he is ever coming back to bother you.
Take leave from work but don't just sleep at home ...go out and do something you really like and take your mind away from all these things.
Relax and be happy always.