Its not an old woman... its a fear of venturing into the unknown. You must have been through some trauma that contribute to this effect or maybe it is just your preception that is rooting you down.Originally posted by MooKu:I am still a teenager.
But I feel like there is an old woman inside me. I'm beginning to get tired of this world. Everyday, I see more of people's faults and weaknesses instead of their good points.
I am constantly wary of the people around me. I don't know who I can or should trust. So, I often keep my feelings to myself and hardly can find anyone to confide in. I'm afraid that the moment I open my heart to someone, I may be betrayed one day.
I fear of people plotting against me. I'm so paranoid that I believe that some people are in fact, plotting against me, and trying to make life hell for me... to the extent that I myself have begun to plot against those people as defence.
I fear to love because I am afraid of getting hurt.
Somebody help me...
-_-`~Originally posted by Yunhaier:(Prediction skills in testing - Are you a scorpio or a taurus?)
Try to get a SPECIALIST to help you... If not, you can write to me at [email protected] if you want to....Originally posted by MooKu:I am still a teenager.
But I feel like there is an old woman inside me. I'm beginning to get tired of this world. Everyday, I see more of people's faults and weaknesses instead of their good points.
I am constantly wary of the people around me. I don't know who I can or should trust. So, I often keep my feelings to myself and hardly can find anyone to confide in. I'm afraid that the moment I open my heart to someone, I may be betrayed one day.
I fear of people plotting against me. I'm so paranoid that I believe that some people are in fact, plotting against me, and trying to make life hell for me... to the extent that I myself have begun to plot against those people as defence.
I fear to love because I am afraid of getting hurt.
Somebody help me...
haha just like me in camp. Camp people especially some warrent officers damn lan jiao lang, nothing abit abit arrow u. hehe aiyah bear with it lah, if u r a girl, u're lucky enough not to go through this 2 years of real hell, if u're guy, then lan lan u will be trained...Originally posted by MooKu:I am still a teenager.
But I feel like there is an old woman inside me. I'm beginning to get tired of this world. Everyday, I see more of people's faults and weaknesses instead of their good points.
I am constantly wary of the people around me. I don't know who I can or should trust. So, I often keep my feelings to myself and hardly can find anyone to confide in. I'm afraid that the moment I open my heart to someone, I may be betrayed one day.
I fear of people plotting against me. I'm so paranoid that I believe that some people are in fact, plotting against me, and trying to make life hell for me... to the extent that I myself have begun to plot against those people as defence.
I fear to love because I am afraid of getting hurt.
Somebody help me...
I had 4 signs in my mind - Taurus, scorpio, Aquarius or Leo, but chose to post two of the fixed aspect signs.Originally posted by MooKu:Ah. Thank you very much, Yunhaier. What an analysis. It really helped me understand what is wrong with me.
I guess you are right... I should open myself up more and see instead of think.
All my problems are giving me so much stress I can't concentrate well on my work.
Sigh. I hope that by the time school reopens I'll change for the better
Hey, by the way, I'm Aquarius
you're not at the end of the queue. you can always cut queue. if you can't beat them, join them. i'm not corrupted, i dun define life, life doesn't define me. its just the way things are and how you should run them. nobody said this world you are born into is a perfect world. we can only make the best of it.Originally posted by MooKu:Actually... when I said that I feel like an old woman inside... I don't know why but I just feel tired of this world. [NOTE: this isn't a suicidal sign] I feel as if I've seen alot of the world... mostly the bad sides, the cruelty and selfishness of mankind.
I guess when you said that it's either that I had gone through some traumatic experience or it's simply my own perception, it's both.
And last night after reading your message, I thought hard about it. I realized that it is going to be extremely difficult for me to change the way I see things.
To me, the world is, well, only the fittest survive... It is hard for me to lower my caution towards people. I always feel very insecure. I remember when I was very very young, in Primary One only, I once brought this fanciful toy to school. I was playing with it during class. And then during recess, I saw a classmate with the same toy. I got suspicious and returned to class only to find my toy missing. At once, I realized that it had been stolen by my very own classmate. I panicked and cried. I tried to seek help from a prefect. When the prefect questioned the girl, the girl actually said that I was the one who stole her things and that the toy was her very own! I was totally shattered. I cried and cried and the prefect, instead of consoling me, told me rather fiercely to stop crying or else she would tell the principal about it.
And then some years later, in the same school, I was accused of stealing another classmate's wallet when it was found under my table. The teacher insisted that I admit to the crime or else my parents would have to be called to school. At that time, I didn't have much choice. I'm a person who doesn't like to bring trouble, so I admitted. Then I denied it again, because I thought it wasn't right. In the end my parents were called to school and eventually the misunderstanding was cleared up.
These are all scars that were left behind in my childhood. They will never be erased from my memory, or I do not know how to get over them.
I can hardly find anyone around me whom I trust. Alone, it is truly difficult for me to stand up again...
I don't remember being loved by my parents. I can hardly remember being loved by anyone even though it's not like my parents disliked me or ignored me. My friends, my best friends... have even drifted away from me after we went to different schools. It is difficult to find another because of my caution towards everyone around me...
You haven't seen much of the world... you only seen some negative side. Truthfully, if you have seen every single thing on Earth, you would have notice there are more positive aspect on Earth than negative ones.Originally posted by MooKu:Actually... when I said that I feel like an old woman inside... I don't know why but I just feel tired of this world. [NOTE: this isn't a suicidal sign] I feel as if I've seen alot of the world... mostly the bad sides, the cruelty and selfishness of mankind.
I guess when you said that it's either that I had gone through some traumatic experience or it's simply my own perception, it's both.
And last night after reading your message, I thought hard about it. I realized that it is going to be extremely difficult for me to change the way I see things.
To me, the world is, well, only the fittest survive... It is hard for me to lower my caution towards people. I always feel very insecure. I remember when I was very very young, in Primary One only, I once brought this fanciful toy to school. I was playing with it during class. And then during recess, I saw a classmate with the same toy. I got suspicious and returned to class only to find my toy missing. At once, I realized that it had been stolen by my very own classmate. I panicked and cried. I tried to seek help from a prefect. When the prefect questioned the girl, the girl actually said that I was the one who stole her things and that the toy was her very own! I was totally shattered. I cried and cried and the prefect, instead of consoling me, told me rather fiercely to stop crying or else she would tell the principal about it.
And then some years later, in the same school, I was accused of stealing another classmate's wallet when it was found under my table. The teacher insisted that I admit to the crime or else my parents would have to be called to school. At that time, I didn't have much choice. I'm a person who doesn't like to bring trouble, so I admitted. Then I denied it again, because I thought it wasn't right. In the end my parents were called to school and eventually the misunderstanding was cleared up.
These are all scars that were left behind in my childhood. They will never be erased from my memory, or I do not know how to get over them.
I can hardly find anyone around me whom I trust. Alone, it is truly difficult for me to stand up again...
I don't remember being loved by my parents. I can hardly remember being loved by anyone even though it's not like my parents disliked me or ignored me. My friends, my best friends... have even drifted away from me after we went to different schools. It is difficult to find another because of my caution towards everyone around me...
Me aquarius too, how come so diff.... But despite all those things which happened in my life. I still chose to trust.Originally posted by MooKu:Ah. Thank you very much, Yunhaier. What an analysis. It really helped me understand what is wrong with me.
I guess you are right... I should open myself up more and see instead of think.
All my problems are giving me so much stress I can't concentrate well on my work.
Sigh. I hope that by the time school reopens I'll change for the better
Hey, by the way, I'm Aquarius