Lost and confuse
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Two days ago is the 1st time I saw her after such a long time. It was slightly around 2 years. I had text message her a few day ago asking whether she is free or not. To my surprise she reply yes. So excited, was I in meeting her. I got there an hour earlier just to wait. In my mind I keep on going over and over what I am going to say later.
Just before our meeting she text to say she will be late, but thats what I had expected from her. From all those past dates with her, I realized that she is always late, ha ha. But that is fine with me.
But I told her never mind just take her time and get here safety. When the appointed time came and went, I begin to worried, have anything bad happen to her. It was only when she text me saying where she will meet me , did my heart calm down, “she is alright!” I thought to myself. I rush to the new location and just as I turn around the corner, I lay my eyes on her. She still looks the same after so many years. She smiled, and I stammer, what happen to all my rehearse lines, nothing came out. She ask: “ How are you?” “Fine” was the only reply i could think of. We continued walking with no specific destination exchanging pleasantries all along the way. Along the way she ask whether I have had my lunch, I replied “No”. Cos I was waiting to have lunch with her, but I did not say that out. I was a bit disappointed when she told me she had hers. But in actual fact, so happy was I at seeing her, I didn't felt hungry at all.
So we found a place to have some ice-cream. To my pleasant surprise her taste is still the same as mine after all this years. We, had both decided to have the frosted malt chocolate. And so we sat and talk about old and current things, for the better part of the day. I apologized for not contacting her, for so many years. And when I ask whether she has a bf yet, how afraid was I, that she would say yes. When she reply no, I was so reliefed. Thoughts tumble throught my head. I had so much I wanted to say but the words just won't come out. I wanted to tell her how much I missed her, how I thought of her every morning when I wake, how whenever I felt lonely at night I would think of her, but no words came. I wanted so much to know what she is thinking at that point in time, is she feeling the same way as I am or I am just another friend to her.
Time passes, soon it was time for her to go, she is meeting another friend for movie, I know its a guy and deep in my heart I felt so sad I did not want to let her go. But there is nothing I can do, so I accompany her back to her car. Still unable to say what I wanted to say.
When we were at her car we began discussing about the route she has to take. My face was just beside her face as we look at the map. How I wanted at that moment to turn and hold her, but I held back. So we parted ways and all I can do is look at the rear of her car as she drives off..
I wander around for a while not knowing what to do, I contemplated going to where she is going just so I might have a chance of bumping into her again. But I did not do it, I just went back. Throughout the night I just sat there thinking of all the memories we have together. I text her again around 11 plus telling her how sorry I was for being so quiet. I just don't know when we will be able to meet again. I just miss her so much.
Sorry about my rantings here. Just wanted to tell someone else my thoughts and feeling. Just hope that she could by chance see this post. No, i do not think she frequent this forum. And I know its stupid that i am posting in a forum that she does not goes to, but thats the point i am doing it.
I am not looking for sympathy, just empathy...
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ok.
move on. -
ooh what was holding you back?
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My dear friend, 2 long years went by and people change; even if you were to get back together again - it wouldn't be the same. Let your memories serve as a reminder and lesson; why didn't it work out back then, learn and better yourself. I empathize with you, but still you've got to move on.
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thought it was fiction at first..
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It is really a nice story but every story also has an ending.
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First thing first. Sorry if i got all of you confuse. We were never together in the first place. Though i wanted us to be, but the times and situation back then...
We met about 5 years ago while clubbing. When I first laid my eyes on her I knew then that she is the ONE. But then at that point in time I was attached to someone else. However on and off since that day I have ask her out behind my then GF. I know I should not have done that but I don't wish to see anyone hurt. However in the end it seem to be a mistake cos I have end up hurting a lot more people.
I remember all the times we spent together the places we went to. Every single frame still remains in my mind till this day. I remember the first day I ask her out, she met with an accident which left a small scar on her forehead. I waited for her a long time then when I finally got through to her mobile that was when I knew she was admitted to a hospital. I rush down to the hospital looking for her. Looking back it was pretty dumb of me not to get any information of which ward she might be in. I just dash foolishly around asking around. Due to the fact that the reception there was not very good I could not call through to her. You could never imagine my relief when I saw her standing in front of me There are a lot more memorable events like when and where I first held her hand, there are too many of them for me to write it here.
I spent such a long time not contacting her, is because I hope that I would be able to forget her. Letting her have a happier life. I do not know how much of that is true, but I do know that through these two years. Never a day has gone by without me thinking of her.
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Wha story so nice .
Why dont make a movie ? LOL
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why didn't you go for it then?!
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so just get together and spend time n see how it goes lo.
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Is this a true story ?
Or ur just typing a compo to improve your english .
Sounds a bit fake to me .
More like a movie story line
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give it the benefit of doubt. you never know wat is going ard in this world these days
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If she is the one and she isn't attached, i don't see what is stopping you to try ?
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Karma88 I know it sounds like the movie. But the fact is i wish, this is really a movie, and i am just in the audience. Then at least i would know how things might turn out and i wouldn't be hurt.
^c^ Yeah thats what i have been thinking to myself too. Funny isn't it. How time will let you see more clearly looking back.
rish07 how i wish thing could be as simple as that, the problem is even if i wanted to she might not be willing.
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sometimes i just feel that humans think of too many problems le. i mean just ask her out to spend time lo. wat is so difficult abt that? wat isthe worst thing that could happen? that she say she not free only then next time lo.
it's just simple as that. why think of so many problems when u never even get to ask her yet. i'm suggesting you spend time with her n takes things slow. no need to think abt so many other things first lo
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Originally posted by rlsh07:
sometimes i just feel that humans think of too many problems le. i mean just ask her out to spend time lo. wat is so difficult abt that? wat isthe worst thing that could happen? that she say she not free only then next time lo.
it's just simple as that. why think of so many problems when u never even get to ask her yet. i'm suggesting you spend time with her n takes things slow. no need to think abt so many other things first lo
U know why humans think so much not ?Cause if like he ask her out and kina reject pai sae wat .
Correct ?
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Karma88 FYI i have finish schooling a long time ago give or take 7/8 years. Seriously i dun believe i have the need to type compo anymore. Just the incessant reports for my boss. But whether you believe me or not is up to you. If you think that this a story den i sincerely hope you like it.
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Originally posted by Karma88:
U know why humans think so much not ?Cause if like he ask her out and kina reject pai sae wat .
Correct ?
wat is so pai seh abt that? you rather a person who do not dare to ask then in the end regret what should have been done and what should not have been done. good things never come cheap. if you think that the girl is really the one, then you have to put in effort and time. think abt it urself then
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Originally posted by Sslhpy:
Karma88 FYI i have finish schooling a long time ago give or take 7/8 years. Seriously i dun believe i have the need to type compo anymore. Just the incessant reports for my boss. But whether you believe me or not is up to you. If you think that this a story den i sincerely hope you like it.
Chill man
I believe your story now . Is just that some post in AA is really fake .
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Originally posted by rlsh07:
wat is so pai seh abt that? you rather a person who do not dare to ask then in the end regret what should have been done and what should not have been done. good things never come cheap. if you think that the girl is really the one, then you have to put in effort and time. think abt it urself then
Hmm.. but there always the mian zi ( face ) factor wat .Ok lets say u see this hot ger on the street . And u think she`s the one u would like to spend with the rest of your life . Will you go up to her and get number just liek that ? or would u rather save ur own face and not ask then regret it later ?
I think most guys in sg would not do such daring thing .
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rish07 actually i have send her a text message last night. Asking whether she would be free next week. Guess what her reply was?
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Originally posted by Karma88:
Hmm.. but there always the mian zi ( face ) factor wat .Ok lets say u see this hot ger on the street . And u think she`s the one u would like to spend with the rest of your life . Will you go up to her and get number just liek that ? or would u rather save ur own face and not ask then regret it later ?
I think most guys in sg would not do such daring thing .
but in this case is different, the TS already knoe the person. furthermore is friends with the gal already. i mean if a girl is really worth the effort and time, then do you want yourself to have regrets or just put down ur pride for one sec?
so what was her reply mr TS?
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Originally posted by rlsh07:
but in this case is different, the TS already knoe the person. furthermore is friends with the gal already. i mean if a girl is really worth the effort and time, then do you want yourself to have regrets or just put down ur pride for one sec?
so what was her reply mr TS?
True True .Anyway i also want to know wat was her reply .
i guess it`s a "i`m free"
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Originally posted by Sslhpy:
Karma88 FYI i have finish schooling a long time ago give or take 7/8 years. Seriously i dun believe i have the need to type compo anymore. Just the incessant reports for my boss. But whether you believe me or not is up to you. If you think that this a story den i sincerely hope you like it.
You write very well, gives the reader anticipation in what is going to happen next. You put feelings in your words dude. Grab some courage and call her out for more activities like movies, shopping, sports, or exhibitions. And when the feeling is right, make your feelings known.
After 2 yrs of MIA and you suddenly confess to her would freak her out haha...unless she feels the same way too.
Good luck!
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Hmm....When did i became Mr TS?
Sadly her answer was no.
To be exact her reply to me goes like this. "Can't got appointment Le. Maybe some other times K?"