Its delusional that u adopt such a stance - its nothing to with the race - its what is inside u, wake up pal, u seem to justifying all that u experience like others are responsible for what u feel. when it does not work u apportion blame and cast aspersions and whine!
It understandable - its part of growing up - however, just be aware that if these state(s) of mind persists in you - man, its going to be misery.