right livelihood
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do u know what u want to do when u were growing up ?
i think i wanted to do geography or science. be an archaeologist, be with the earth (nature), carve maps. count o'mashi in the english patient held my ideal profession. i never really am a people person. in fact i hate people. i don't grow up this way, but grew to dislike people because of hurt caused by my closest folks. if one day i can be by myself, i'll be so happy. at most just be with my gf... she draws, i by her side... how nice.
as i grow up, i end up doing the thing i hate. isn't life funny ? that's why nowadays i don't plan anymore. some ppl call me lazy n slacker but i heck care le. i gave my whole life to one cause but look where i m today. ppl can understand - good. they can't understand, i don't care.
i wish i had followed my first thoughts instead of editing them, listening to ppl telling me i SHOULD do this do that. fu*k family, friends n god. i used to be a spiritual person. on the day of the birth of the creator, i denounce my religion.
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so what do u do now?
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learn to accept reality......everything will be fine after that. No one is born equal
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It's YOUR life and YOUR choice.
So don't go around blaming people for your miserable life now. In fact, if you really want to be alone, etc etc, you can always do it NOW.
Please don't blame your family, friends or God or whatever for the mess you are in now. Because YOU are the one who made all these decisions, SO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR OWN CRAP.
People can influence/affect you and etc etc, but you need to understand that ultimately the one who made the decision is YOU.
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Just wait till ur gf hurts you.
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Originally posted by Bio-Hawk:
Just wait till ur gf hurts you.
spoken like a hawk ... moment of truth
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Try to adapt to society, not run away from it
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If there is a need to renounce , jettison this lah - the four evils - 1 parental voices ,2 religious voices, 3 political voices, 4 societal voices! There is no inner voice excepting the silence and communing with that space within and allowing things or life to emanate from there and within. Yes, is the seat of the heart , using the head is divisive, conflicting but the heart knows no laws, no rules, it is intuitive but dangerous cos one is going to be rejected, labelled but heck - one came here alone - one goes alone.
As long as it does not ENCROACH on another one can be anything or do anything!
Also - definitions of what ought to be or what should be or what was - eschew n flow and the ánswers'' might come to u!
PS - Everybody says listen to the heart - how to when the heart is eclipsed by the four ... and the conditioning