Breaking out of the prison inside myself
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All had been asked since the day everything started. As time goes by the dungeon inside myself gets dark and scary. Fear strikes whenever scenes of her flips over the mind. Y am i so useless compared to her? People beside mi seen changes in me, askin whatz happening to mi. Depression has always always my friend, accompyin the daies of misery. No one loves to be distracted in work, life n everything one do. The question is how one remedy the problem. Sometimes answers r obvious right, but one still walks right into the diablous path. She's older than mi, much more stronger; i terms of intellutent, career, mind, handlin of stuff. Ok i admit i'm a man, so what if i'm a man? Jealously is forever present inside mankind, n can i ask whoever can sit n witness his loved one being so successful while himself still struggling for survival? Route down to the final destination is far too much than just reachin out your hand n grabbin it. i dunno .. confusion is always there, surrounding mi.....
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Agony Strikes when death advocates. Da distrust fer all kills myself carefully everydaie ..... -
Hold it there, Lord Agony! Life can't be that bad, surely. There was life before you saw her, and there will surely be life after her. I was in your situation for almost two years until someone taught me a trick. Everytime you feel that depression coming on sit quietly somewhere, close your eyes, breathe slowly, and DEEPLY, ten times, holding the air in your chest for a slow count of four, exhale and then be glad you are not a cripple, you are not so bad-looking, and then smile - yes, SMILE, and keep on smiling even if you feel silly. You will find that you will actually laugh after that...!
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In fact i'm laffin now basically *laffz. Wad a kewl trick to get one immune n start off laffin. Thkz mate fer this nice advice ya'd given. Nothing escapes from onself afterall, eventually one will get back to square one again. The obstacle inside mi is too strong to overcome, well ur a passerby from wad i read in yer post, but everyone experiences different stuff. It might sound n look da same but in fact it is not...
Greatly appreciated dat u made effort to reply my post *laffz. I log in to check if anyone knows wad da hell am i tryin to say n tot my post was exotic. Now i know i'm not illiterate afterall.
Shld fate returns n help us to be together is another thingie, initially fate lies in yer own hands on how one tries to subduce it. Yah ur correct, there is definately life before/when i met her n life still carries on. Mankind is like this, no one is totally satisfied, maybe that's the thing that i can never overcome thought. Knowing that i shld be carryin on with my work but scenes of her still flashes across unintentionally.
Escape is the thing that one always do, ain't it true *smiles
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read ur post since day one....
sorry for not contributing, too sick and tired of life and yes, running away from stuffs...
been running alot lately.....=) *sarcastic smile*
wanted to face those problems in the face, but somehow, i always manage to run away, to break free at the very last minute.....y? not so sure myself tooz, but i guess it's some sort of fear, fear of the outcome? fear of i dunno wat...............
i'm talking crap ain't i......just a tired passerby who happened to drag her feet tt way a ton across ur post......=)
anyway, main point here is, running away is basic instinct...............everyone tries to escape from one thing or another........=) -
I can't concloude on anything but in fact every human being dat i know r usin the word "escape" on themselves pretty often. It ain't a sin to escape when i know a prison always lies within oneself.
Accumulated problems n bad experiences in life changes ppl, from an extrovert to an introvert, from a guy next door to be a old man sittin on da rock chair deep in thoughts. I'm one of those initially.
I always believe dat alotta probs in every age group shld be the same, n many r able to forsee their own problems actually. They knew wadz actually goin on in their life, in fact a lot just can't seem to accept the solution, therefore the word escape comes handy to remedy all.
Life just sux n y r ppl keep toking abt it? *laffz at himself.
The keys r in yer hand to unlock the n walk outta da prison within yerself, but it ain't easy to do.
shld i unlock n walk out freely ? or rather "u" shld oso do dat *smiles
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Life have NEVER been easy now have it...?Originally posted by Lord Agony:I can't concloude on anything but in fact every human being dat i know r usin the word "escape" on themselves pretty often. It ain't a sin to escape when i know a prison always lies within oneself.
Accumulated problems n bad experiences in life changes ppl, from an extrovert to an introvert, from a guy next door to be a old man sittin on da rock chair deep in thoughts. I'm one of those initially.
I always believe dat alotta probs in every age group shld be the same, n many r able to forsee their own problems actually. They knew wadz actually goin on in their life, in fact a lot just can't seem to accept the solution, therefore the word escape comes handy to remedy all.
Life just sux n y r ppl keep toking abt it? *laffz at himself.
The keys r in yer hand to unlock the n walk outta da prison within yerself, but it ain't easy to do.
shld i unlock n walk out freely ? or rather "u" shld oso do dat *smiles
If it would be so easy, everybody in this world WON'T be given one for free.... Yes it's a gift.... An invaluable gift.... Some finds it a torment, while others find it a bliss.... Very often how ya find it is just where ya look inside the 'box'.... It's BIG, it's MESSY... It's filled with loads of junks... JUNKS... Unless you're able to make sense out of it.....
'Escape' is the word I used to use... I used to CHOOSE.... I emphasize on the word CHOOSE because I've being given a choice to do so.... But like you've mentioned... HUMANs very often choose that word... That's why I would rather consider myself a DEVIL for now.... 'Escape' it seems.... Is NEVER really a solution.... In fact, if you're thinking of shortening your life span... 'Escape' seems one of the best options.... It SIMPLY VOID OUT that portion of your life so that a certain part of your life went missing... IN RETURN, only to reappear so that you would have to face it again... And HENCE, 'doubling' (I don't use a calculator for this term, use your OWN estimation..) the original amount of time and effort needed to deal with the thing... And much VERY OFTEN.... It's especially TRUE with human emotions.... Go THINK about it.... Not to mention that your health could be very well be affected by it... Further 'reducing' your life span...?
Hmm... TOTALLY AGREE with that... Accumulated problems and experiences CHANGE a young chap to an OLD FOOL....
Now that's NOT a miracle... That's just ALL that's in his mind... If he just continue to sit back that way and believe that he's an 'old fool', he can ALWAYS be one... Now that's way too easy... Bet most people can do just that...?
Hehheh... EASIER said than DONE..? If life just SUZ like you say...? Then why are there still people laughing and smiling away so happily..? Hmm... Like I used to do when I was a human I guess..? Human tends to look at sad people and examples when they're SAD... And HAPPY people when they're HAPPY... Don't ask me why..?? I'm no longer a human to understand their strange behaviors..?
The 'keys' are in your hands..? SURE it ain't easy to do.... If you even know which door you wanna unlock in the 1st place..? You THINK, you DO..... Now... If you know what you wanna do and you know truly that it's 'right' to do so, then what's stopping you..? Your own mind..? A 'block' up there...? Now... How are we suppose to remove this 'block' from our mind...? I can simply tell you YOU CAN'T.... Don't be too disappointed.... Because there's simply no 'block' on your mind.... It's just all up there in your mind.... BECAUSE you CHOSE to believe that it exist.... That's why there can NEVER be a sloution.... For a problem which don't even exist in the 1st place.... Think over...? But NOT too much...
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ße COOL, NOT s¢rr¥.... -
majiam essay competition hor? letz chill out n drop everything *laffz. escape escape escape
*bows
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Agony Strikes when death advocates. Da distrust fer all kills myself carefully everydaie ..... -
I believe that something deep inside
That shows to me from time to time
As you fell down for love was such a crime
The more you care the more you fall
No need to worry, no need to turn away
'Cause it don't matters anyway, baby
I miss you in a heartbeat
I miss you right away
I miss you in a heartbeat
It ain't love if you give that away
When we touch I just loose my self control
A sad sensation I can't hide
To love is easy, it ain't easy to walk away
I keep the faith and there's a reason why
No need to worry, no need to turn away
'Cause it don't matters anyway, baby
I ain't make no promises, I've been true to you
'Cause I'll do about anything, so I won't lie, baby, for you.
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Agony Strikes when death advocates. Da distrust fer all kills myself carefully everydaie .....