hi there honggggg, long time no hear from u..
Hmm.. I understand what you are going through. having no friends to go out means being bored in ur case I suppose.. But ever tried going something else on ur own?? maybe just do things that u wanted to do all this while, but never had the chance becoz of ur studies and other commitments. Well, u said that u r the reserved type.. so does it mean that things like decorating a photo album or, piecing a puzzle amuse you?? These are things that will take time and effort. and will make u proud of wat u haf done. For instance, decorating a photo album for ur frens, stating how the friendship with this fren or that. I mean even if it's just some small neo prints they are worth the effort, becoz most importantly, they are the ones whom u consider as good pals before. Moreover, u can also do some social work to help past time if u need.
And one more thing.. I dun think u are anti social. and u dun haf a low self esteem. U think u r antisocial becoz u dun have much friends. But hey no manz.. that's not wat u call antisocial. U have posted things here on this forum. U have helped pple here on this forum. that does not make u one. it's just becoz like wat [SSF]Legion said. u just can't get along with all the pple ard u only. That wun make u antisocial. U select ur frens carefully, u consider the character of ur frens. that's being good. that means u think before u move.. that's the correct way in life rather than just accepting all the pple ard u and learn the wrong things.
And u dun haf a low self-esteem too. I'm sure of that.. it's just that u r bored at the moment and u get hindered by it, or maybe there are some other things that u r troubled with that makes u feel this way. If I were to put u together wif ur the two good friends I think u will be all well alive.. well... it's just who u r wif and where u r. For instance, if u studies are not that good, and I were to put u in a top school. U will feel terrible too. but is that u? no manz. U have ur sthenghs to be proud of. this is u. something no other pple can take over, or resemble u. Maybe just that u have not discovered. and if u have found out wat they are and use more of it, u will have more self-confidence. that's how u build ur self esteem.. relax u are a fine young girl.. u are not inferior from any one of us overall. We are all the same. just that we are better in a different way...
Smilez...

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