Sigh....We have similarity AaLviNn........Originally posted by AaLviNn:I dunno how long I will take to let go.. actually my heart doesn't want to let go. Seemed like my heart has closed its doors, and only 1 person has the key... I'm so used to her calling me a few times a day, just to check if each other's ok.. so I'll feel like sh.it a few times a day as well.. this feeling comes and goes.
This love, was so true, and so deep. sigh. Wonder how is she now. \=
i don't want to get into another r/s so soon, cos i know i'll just be treating her as a substitute, and it won't be easy to replace her with someone else i will truly love again.Originally posted by tOoTy`gEr:haiz.. i`ve broke up with my ex.. during tT time, i`ve another bf. but i juz couldn`t 4get my ex..no matter wad i`m doing, where i am, he`s alwaes in my mind.. therefore, i`m veri sorry to my bf. one mth after our breakup with my ex, he asked mi out.. n i went. it was like a seminar held n after tT we juz took a stroll.
he xpressed his feelings 4 mi n initial a patch.. i can`t.. although i wanted veri much.. so im in a dilema for a few wks.
one day, my bf ask 4 a breakup.. i wasn`t shock. coz i noe tT i`ve neglect him too much.. too much.. e onli word i can say is "sorry". not long after tT, i patch with my ex. i gave him n myself a chance.. but who noes...... 1+mth after patching, he broke up wif mi. i was crying like hell..
i thot tis will b e end of us.. he dun love mi at all.. wad i could do everydae was nothing but cry... when we were together, he did not treat mi well. haiz.. so i kept tinking y he wanted a patch in e 1st place..
he asked 4 a patch again.. n tis time, i took alot of determination to agree.. coz im veri scare tT he'll broke up wif mi again. till now.. we`ve been together for 9mthz.
hmm.. although i don`t quite understand ur situation.. gd luck to u.take care.

And you tooOriginally posted by AaLviNn:Sighhhhhhhhh... u take care dudette
yup..i know what you mean..there's a very real danger in loving someone too much..once you lose her..there goes your life..but you need to assess your chances under such circumstances..if you deem them remote..better don't dwell in it..right now, she's the only girl you've ever known..your troubles can only be solved after someone else occupies that vacancy.Originally posted by AaLviNn:i don't want to get into another r/s so soon, cos i know i'll just be treating her as a substitute, and it won't be easy to replace her with someone else i will truly love again.
from what i think, she's enjoying each n everyday since the breakup. enjoying her time in sch, time with her new bf.. thinking of it sometimes makes me envious, but there's nothing i can do to stop thinking. the thoughts just come.
for almost 2 weeks already, i have problem sleeping. its like not sleeping at all. throughout the night my dreams of her never ends, and when i wake up, facing the reality again, its very difficult. my brain doesn't even want to rest, and i'm very worn out mentally. so helpless...
i dun even noe wad she's doing, is she alrite... just can't stop worrying. and this worrying in the day causes my dreams to appear in the night, so basically she is on my mind 24hrs a day. i am very tired, very very tired. its like my life is slowly fading away. i don't think i can take this torture for much longer.
i prefer saying that we wouldn't like to swallow the phlem right after we've spit right? its disguisting.......Originally posted by AaLviNn:the hui tou cao is still a very nice patch of cao..
Originally posted by dreamer81$:i prefer saying that we wouldn't like to swallow the phlem right after we've spit right? its disguisting.......