My Final Memoir (Last Page)
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Today, i went to a wedding dinner. My brother in law's elder bro's wedding dinner.
WEll as usual...i'm not really into restaurant's food. Makes me feel like a 'Tam Jia'
But i went anyway, cos it's a new Tung Lok outlet, it's known to have almost first class chinese food served. Heavenly! The Imperial Restaurant situated at 7th storey of Nee Ann City Building.
My dad parked his car and we had a fun time looking out for the entrance. Till i found it....it was very familiar. Familiar venue...it seemed like i've been there before.
It was until when i got in...all those memories came rushing into my mind. the atmosphere, climate, people, her....
Thought it's a restaurant now...but those memories were real. In me. Only i know how much it meant to me.
The structure of the place didn't change much, except tat it has renovated into a Tung Lok restaurant. I still remember the Techno section....the pop section...and the place which i saw her. The very VIP table. Ha! So ironic....i thought to myself.
Those smile, Ohhhh....it's so heart wrenching.
It all became a memory. Breathless...i just couldn't believe it. Really....it didn't hurt, but those heartfelt memories just kept haunting me. Wonderful memories i wished i could put behind cause it hurts so much.
The place which i met a very special girl became a restuarant??!?!?
It didn't change in my heart.
It didn't change a single bit.
I was brought back to the night...that very special moment. It all became so real
And wish i could be there for the rest of my life.
Shall i continue dreaming
Shall i seek for an answer?
Is there a door which leads me to understand?
Should i stay on
Or should i open the door?
I wish i know the answer that leads to the next door.
Until i find you again....I wish you love, happiness and peace.
With Love,
Ben -
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I understand ah Ma....thank You v Muchie.
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i tink u dn understand..........Originally posted by M©+square: I understand ah Ma....thank You v Muchie. -
she sms-ed me just now to ask me if she was a gentle and kind girl when she was with me. All because the present guy told that she's not that gentle........
my reply was 'You are unique in your ways. That's all i have to say.'
The reply from her was 'Ya I'll learn to be more gentle...'
I don't know whether to Laff or to cry!!! Arrrgghhh
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Originally posted by M©+square:
she sms-ed me just now to ask me if she was a gentle and kind girl when she was with me. All because the present guy told that she's not that gentle........
my reply was 'You are unique in your ways. That's all i have to say.'
The reply from her was 'Ya I'll learn to be more gentle...'
[b]I don't know whether to Laff or to cry!!! Arrrgghhh [/b]
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There are so many ppl in this world.... and there is this someone out there for you.
If you have met this someone, that will be perfect....
It will be painful if you failed to meet this someone, worse is that if this someone is so near and yet you failed to meet.... (sound like turn left turn right)
At least you have some sweet memories to treasure... -
Don't understand ah?Originally posted by Devil1976: -
Hihi MC
Though things may not be going your way right now, do not despair. Have faith and in due time u'd meet that special someone who'd love you right
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Thank you my friend. I just feel that at this moment, i'm not ready to accept her going together with my good friend yet treat me just as normal.Originally posted by realitybites:Hihi MC
Though things may not be going your way right now, do not despair. Have faith and in due time u'd meet that special someone who'd love you right
I felt very lousy over the fact
And that i didn't have the space to breathe.
I hope to get her to leave me alone for awhile.
But it also seemed like she only have me to confide in other then that guy.
So i felt compelled to help her out.....
I think i need some time away from her before i can see her as a friend again.
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Dear friend
It's okay to take a breather as you are only human It must have been hard on you... I can comprehend what you are going thru as I have gone down that road before.
Bear in mind that utimately you'll still have to come to terms with this issue and move on and most importantly you have to understand that you are NOT obligated to hear her out esp. when what she has to say might cause you hurt.
You deserve better I'll be here if you need a listening ear okie -
Originally posted by realitybites:
Thanks very much. Appreciate alot.
Dear friend
It's okay to take a breather as you are only human It must have been hard on you... I can comprehend what you are going thru as I have gone down that road before.
Bear in mind that utimately you'll still have to come to terms with this issue and move on and most importantly you have to understand that you are [b]NOT obligated to hear her out esp. when what she has to say might cause you hurt.
You deserve better I'll be here if you need a listening ear okie
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Continue posting and encourage others okie? -
I understand... Think you're the one who don't understand...?Originally posted by M©+square:Don't understand ah? -
Maybe...Originally posted by Devil1976:I understand... Think you're the one who don't understand...?
Tell me more? -
It's OVER. As SIMPLE as that. Easily said for me, not easily accepted by you. You think much of it. She thinks little of it. (or perhaps not at all for this very moment...?)Originally posted by M©+square:Maybe...
Tell me more?
Just like why it's so easily said by me, but difficult to accept for you. I don't think and feel much of it. But you do. The pictures in your mind. The memories.
You and her probably thinks DIFFERENT of it. Don't you still understand?
It's NOT a complete LOVE. It's OVER.
PS. There're so much waiting to be done by you. Don't waste away your 'talent'. -
People normally might not know what it means... But today I think you probably would.... This is a 'dual' poem written by me.... You should be able to sense the 1st half of it....Originally posted by M©+square:Thank you my friend. I just feel that at this moment, i'm not ready to accept her going together with my good friend yet treat me just as normal.
I felt very lousy over the fact
And that i didn't have the space to breathe.
I hope to get her to leave me alone for awhile.
But it also seemed like she only have me to confide in other then that guy.
So i felt compelled to help her out.....
I think i need some time away from her before i can see her as a friend again.
For you.... Dead body... -
First time....... i read ur long post....makes sense....Originally posted by Devil1976:It's OVER. As SIMPLE as that. Easily said for me, not easily accepted by you. You think much of it. She thinks little of it. (or perhaps not at all for this very moment...?)
Just like why it's so easily said by me, but difficult to accept for you. I don't think and feel much of it. But you do. The pictures in your mind. The memories.
You and her probably thinks DIFFERENT of it. Don't you still understand?
It's NOT a complete LOVE. It's OVER.
PS. There're so much waiting to be done by you. Don't waste away your 'talent'. -
PS. There're so much waiting to be done by you. Don't waste away your 'talent'.
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Of all your advices...i thank you. You had sheath the area which i have escaped from...even though in the last post you did talk about accepting that it's over. I guess it's when we still keep in contact with one another which made everything seemed grey.
I've to get thru this. Yup. Thanks
But what took me by surprise was your statement in blue.(above)
It's very true that my life could encourage and help many other rather then willowing into pity-party and not see the opportunities i have to do the thing i like while i'm still young.
Anyway...i have got lots to do. Indeed...i should really focus this time.
Thanks for your poem, somewhat dark...but yes i understood the first part. At least with my own interpretation...
I really got to close this chapter liao. This last page have to end. And tonight will be the night. -
hey..u r too funny lahOriginally posted by Xiao Long Nu:First time....... i read ur long post....makes sense....
such sincere advice by Devil, spoiled almost immediately by ur words
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If I were to chose between sweet, hurting memories or nothing but the calm wave route - I would chose the first option.Originally posted by M©+square:Today, i went to a wedding dinner. My brother in law's elder bro's wedding dinner.
WEll as usual...i'm not really into restaurant's food. Makes me feel like a 'Tam Jia'
But i went anyway, cos it's a new Tung Lok outlet, it's known to have almost first class chinese food served. Heavenly! The Imperial Restaurant situated at 7th storey of Nee Ann City Building.
My dad parked his car and we had a fun time looking out for the entrance. Till i found it....it was very familiar. Familiar venue...it seemed like i've been there before.
It was until when i got in...all those memories came rushing into my mind. the atmosphere, climate, people, her....
Thought it's a restaurant now...but those memories were real. In me. Only i know how much it meant to me.
The structure of the place didn't change much, except tat it has renovated into a Tung Lok restaurant. I still remember the Techno section....the pop section...and the place which i saw her. The very VIP table. Ha! So ironic....i thought to myself.
Those smile, Ohhhh....it's so heart wrenching.
It all became a memory. Breathless...i just couldn't believe it. Really....it didn't hurt, but those heartfelt memories just kept haunting me. Wonderful memories i wished i could put behind cause it hurts so much.
The place which i met a very special girl became a restuarant??!?!?
It didn't change in my heart.
It didn't change a single bit.
I was brought back to the night...that very special moment. It all became so real
And wish i could be there for the rest of my life.
Shall i continue dreaming
Shall i seek for an answer?
Is there a door which leads me to understand?
Should i stay on
Or should i open the door?
I wish i know the answer that leads to the next door.
Until i find you again....I wish you love, happiness and peace.
With Love,
Ben
You may have lost something, but certainly you gain as well. Its a trade off.
Or you rather you gain nothing and lose nothing in the first place?
Cheers -
Originally posted by M©+square:
You can be 'bright', you'll see.
PS. There're so much waiting to be done by you. Don't waste away your 'talent'.
Of all your advices...i thank you. You had sheath the area which i have escaped from...even though in the last post you did talk about accepting that it's over. I guess it's when we still keep in contact with one another which made everything seemed grey.
I've to get thru this. Yup. Thanks
But what took me by surprise was your statement in blue.(above)
It's very true that my life could encourage and help many other rather then willowing into pity-party and not see the opportunities i have to do the thing i like while i'm still young.
Anyway...i have got lots to do. Indeed...i should really focus this time.
Thanks for your poem, somewhat dark...but yes i understood the first part. At least with my own interpretation... I really got to close this chapter liao. This last page have to end. And tonight will be the night.
[/b] So many more failures to come. This is JUST but another.
~all the best. -
Originally posted by Xiao Long Nu:First time....... i read ur long post....makes sense....
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sometimes maybe it's coz of many memories that makes u smile....but not the person...i aso duno wat i'm toking abt...juz noe tt i've choose wat i wan...i dun wana love someone....i'm gonna stay single???i duno...
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Be with me?Originally posted by curad:sometimes maybe it's coz of many memories that makes u smile....but not the person...i aso duno wat i'm toking abt...juz noe tt i've choose wat i wan...i dun wana love someone....i'm gonna stay single???i duno...
I chase you lor. -
Ok...
Credit. (Takes a deeeeep Breath)
A very big thank you to all those who have felt for me and have supported me in one way or another.
Some special people stayed on with me and some typed me special messages which i have never seen thru-out their post.
I felt that the comments by many are geniunely truthful.
Thanks to also those one liners also.
Yup. Thank YOU!
Lemme share a song with you guys before i close.
When i see you for the time
I thought i saw the light, that has came to my life.
You may think that all those were lies
But all of me is true
I really want to be with you
All my life
I wanna walk with you
And hope you'll say that too
I'm so in love with you
Here i am, alone i'm missing you
If life is without you, there's nothing i'd rather do
When I see you for the first time
I thought we'd just be friends
But we went more then that
Though we've been hurt by love before
But i want you to know
that i really treasure you
All my life
I really want to be with you
And hope you'll say that too
I'm so in love with you
I will take
An extra mile for you
Where you go i'll go too
Though seasons change
I'll stay the same
Thank You guys.
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