Originally posted by brian:
she likes me... she treat me so well, always seeking my attention and stuffs..
she used to be my girlfriend, she hurt me badly, she asked me for a chance
now when i'm falling for her...
she becomes so cold... always not free... don't want to meet... give her presents not even a word of thank you... no contact for months...
waiting for her reply for valentine's day dinner, its been weeks.. not even a call.. even if she agrees.. i'm still wondering whether its because she has nothing better to do that day or she's going because of me...
why? i'm not a pest... i don't bug her everyday... and now i feel like i'm being thrown aside like an unwanted toy when my feelings are already with her...
Originally posted by brian:
having the urge to call her but i'm always giving myself excuses.
she's busy, watching tv perhaps.. or rather i am afraid to get hurt.
hearing it dials, hoping for a warm familar voice.. no.. no one picks up.
feeling awful, negative thoughts, my heart aches as i wonder even more.
why am i doing all these. why should i feel this way. i got myself questioning over and over again. where is the love? give up, let go and move on. it is time to get off the bus and wait . another one that brings you to your destination.
regret. its always regret. so afraid that i may regret because i fallen for her the second time around. a third is possible. am i foolish? i am. just hanging on.. hoping she will be there to rescue me again. giving me the attention and love i seek.
how i wish love was simple. tender loving sweetness always. dream on.. love is just like coffee.. sweet or bitter? add more water if its too sweet.. more suger if its too bitter.. till its just nice, how much water and suger have you added? can you remember? a bigger cup affects... a bigger teaspoon affects...
how amazing love is.
All i can say is just let go...