The thing is, I've decided to stop pursuing her as a romantic partner. I'd be going abroad for a few years and maybe I'm never even coming back to Singapore. Therefore, I doubt a LDR is going to be good for both of us.
On the other hand, I'm not the only suitor. I've another rival and it's terrible that I've to see him everyday. We're all classmates you see. Me, the girl and the other guy. Though he's been rejected many times, they both seem to be getting closer day by day.
In a way, it's good for her; She'd have someone else who is more able to spend time with her. However, it's devastating to know that I'm unable to be with her even though I love her so much.
We're still very good friends though we don't talk as much now. I try to avoid her because it really reminds me of all this shit but it's difficult. She gives me this bittersweet feeling when she's around me.
I really don't know how to deal with this. I'm bearing all the pain now because she hasn't the faintest idea about this. I'd like to keep it this way because I think some things are better left unknown for her. Furthermore, it's not a good time anyway when the prelims are around the corner.
If I really have to tell her, perhaps it'll be when I meet her in person for the last
time before I leave Singapore.
*Sigh* Why is life like this? Why is love like this? Why is it that something so beautiful can also bring so much pain?
[This message has been edited by Pooch (edited 14 July 2000).]
I can understand your options ... and i'm sure what you're doing is right ... Love ... is a strange subject .. even if you love her ... and she loves you back ... sometimes ... you 2 just can't be together... brace up ... you might find someone better in the future.
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The night is near and dawn is coming... I Lay awake on my bed thinking of you... I wonder ... when will we meet again ? When will we talk once more ? I Know my love to you is deep and true ... but i wonder how you feel for me ...
Aiyah
there are lots of other gals out there
why give up the whole forest cos of i tree
Heeheehee :p :p :p
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