Originally posted by clarinet:
Sometime I wonder how high is the chance of me getting into any local poly. I'm someone who feels that I'm born into the wrong body. ie a female traps inside a male body. I hate the fact that I'm a guy and feels very uncomfortable been a guy. B4 NS, i keep long hair, not those untidy hair, I always tie them up with a scarchin. I do wear female T-shirt, those more toward unisex type one.
I know I can simply lie to the poly and get into a course but by doing so, it do me no good. I din do well in secondary school, drop out of jc, drop out of poly becasue, my inner soul is in conflict. The school expect me to behave like a guy, present myself like a guy, I can't and I fail badly.Unless I'm allow to be who I am, I can't do well.
What should I do

Your soul conflicts with your current life lesson - your freewill chose security; you choses your soul's energy.
Taken from
here, which I wrote about the long part on Lesbian - this applies to you as well.
I am sure there are heavy affliction link with karma within your astrological birth chart, especially Moon and Venus in probably Pisces or Scorpio.
It's not about being normal or what.
It's about accepting current life lesson as what you are born into and
learn to be one - a guy. Your afflictions and south node will probably pull you nearer to your soul's energy; you need spiritual enlightenment if you wish to understand why is such thing happen and everything. (Usually psychological counselling can only do so much)
Cheers