life for me is blank
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Sigh...i am 21yr ....love singing..n sports. Have a lot of bad experience in school. I am a normal tech student but can say gd in sports. Was a netballer once. In pri school. blur blur get into a netball team. But those netballer which also my classmate did not teach me anything abt netball. All think i am em3 low grade...n once.......got a chance to play ....... but play badly as i dont noe how to defence. N i was blame for the lost. In sec school told myself to earn myself a school team. N yes get into a school team training which the teacher will chooese ...er..12? people...well..in..some thing happen..i play in a shooter position n i aim it went in..aim n went in again.N my teacher was schock to see i can play in that position. N therefore she select me in school team.
BUT..next day my teacher told me there is enough shooter n therefore just kick me out just by saying tis....i feel sad.....n for the reason u guys can guess.....Therefore my attitude in people has change.....my life too...
N few days ago something happen to my mama. My Father was drunk n push my mama down the stair...though x ray nothing happen but u can imagine from the top of the stair n u just fall.down.
i cant help i feel useless all i can do is cry alone at nite n pray for my mama health n injury. N my family wan to move just let my dad alone in his own hse.
I feel useless as i dont have a stablejob wif no cpf ...n i cant realli help my sis in buying hse. she can buy herself but is too presure for her...
n all i was dreaming is..i hope i can be a singer...famous n can bring more money for family. though singer is hard to be. but at least is my interest.
if nt is to open a business selling food which my ma expert in. but i still wan to play play till 25 be4 i settle down. is it too late?
i dont have the mind to work i just feel life is nt enough for me...tons of things happen to me but nothing yet make me work even harder..what should i do.
N lastly thanks for reading my story until here though i have tons more to say. -
i feel sorry for your family.
All i can say is, wish your dream will come true and
All the best to you.
Lastly when you become a singapore idol don't forget about me!
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ehm...
BUT attitude= luck
dun give up no matter what happens
u could always start afresh
every tmr is a new beginning
i share my story with u..
i tot i had a wonderful family, with terrific income and life when i was young. i loved my parents especially my father.. used to play with my brother.. loved my brother too. when i was 7 yr old, my dad had an affair outside and had a child. we didnt know abt that...
he borrowed money from my mom, didnt wan to work and once he got his money, he disappeared. well, u can roughly guess where he spent his money with...my mom stopped working too cuz she was innocently waiting for my dad...
it lasted for 2 years and my mom's saving had dried up. my mom had no choice, she took up the food stall on her own and worked.. had been earning good money since. den my dad came back, went to her stall and asked for money freq. he would threaten eveery time when my mom wouldnt lend him. he was abusive, he beat up my mom. luckily my mom decided to divorce without any request rfom my dad.
my brother got retained during sec 1 bcuz he got bothered by the family matter.. but he wanted to start afresh and was hardworking... life turned out better, but one day my dad moved in without any invitation and stayed in my home for 2 years. it was terrible, he influenced my brother and told him all sorts of stories so to make him hate my mom.. he tried to influence me too, but in vain. since den my brother neva wanted to eat at home with us, neva tok to us and he did all sorts of bad stuffs.. he failed his N level.
finally my dad moved out becuz he has found another woman. tot life would become better, until my brother introduced his gf to our home. she stole my things and dirtied the whole place. at the same time, my mom got a new bf. i was forced to move out of my mom's room to sleep in the living room(i'm living in a 3 room flat), so that my mom could let her bf stay in her room. i was devastated at that time.. can u imagine how i felt at that time, when i was sleeping in the living room and my brother and mom stayed in the room with their loved ones..
i felt really left out. worst still, my inconsiderate neighbours played BASKETBALL outside my house. the noise was terrible, i could not studied at all... my result dropped dramatically.. since then i didnt want to study as hard as how i used to..
i quited from jc after my months in sch, and quickly enrolled into poly so that i would not be wasting my time.. and i chosed a course i sweared to myself b4 that i would neva choose. but i went in and i completed it with passion.
i have been sleeping in the living room for my whole poly life.. it was terrible. my friends would always ask me,'' u r a girl and why isnt ur brother letting u sleeping in the room?'' i dun noe how to reply them and my heart sinks whenever i heard this question popping out from my friends... had a happening life in poly but i do not wan to mention more orelse this story could not finish.. but fortunately, i have good and supportive gangs in my poly.. so life turned out better as days went by...
i did household chores when i was young, but my mom would neva appreciate. instead she wanted it more and more from me. she always treats my brother better... untill now.. wheni was young, i would alwys ask her,''why cant u ask brother to do household chores?''
she would always got angry and ans me,'' you are a girl and you supposed to do household, and he's a guy.'' it was lame and till now, i still think the same.
i want to get independent, and i'm moving towards it although my progress is slow..
i believe i could walk out of my shadows.. so could u.. rite?
dun be bothered by the way ppl treat u, be urself and do what u think is rite, one day ppl would appreciate u.
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No matter how bad life gets always remember that there are pple out there who are much worst off than u.At least in S'pore we still get 3 meals a day.
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no matter hw dark the situation is... there is always a ray of hope...
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Thanks for sharing your stories , the two of u.
Hope your life gets better -
thank uOriginally posted by boariggy:Thanks for sharing your stories , the two of u.
Hope your life gets better -
i believe no one will be so sway all their life.. the first half of ur life may be tough.. but i believe lady luck will be shining on u for the later half.. u will get a good job or become a singer den will meet a nice guy who will take good care of u for e rest of ur life and u 2 will live happily ever after..
~fairy tale ending~ -
if nt is to open a business selling food which my ma expert in. but i still wan to play play till 25 be4 i settle down. is it too late?
It depends on situations, some people feels its late at the age of like 18, they already planned for future and prepared to work already, some people still playing at 30 years old.
But if you feel that money is insufficient, what choice do you have?i dont have the mind to work i just feel life is nt enough for me...tons of things happen to me but nothing yet make me work even harder..what should i do.
Several possibilities why you are unable to push yourself, there is nothing right or wrong in here.
1. You already comforted yourself deep inside, although you retained the displeasure outside. So you lost the core motivation.
2. Sub conciously, you never blamed yourself but others for your fate. So you think, since it is not my fault, why should I work so hard?
3. You feel unappreciated and short changed, especially if all your peers all like able to play all their lives. You ask, why should I work, why can't I play, like others do.
Motivations are deprived from the word motive, which implies an emotion or desire to do something. The source of motivation is always emotional, but does not confined to what is good or bad. And this emotion must be strong, and persistent, not a 5 second charged of battery. Only than, a desire can be created with goals, plans, etc.
If you want to work hard, than think of something emotionally strong and persistent in your life, that can push you, than think nothing else. No playing, no distractions of any form. For your case, that is the main distraction. -
Originally posted by funniegal:
BUT..next day my teacher told me there is enough shooter n therefore just kick me out just by saying tis....i feel sad.....n for the reason u guys can guess.....Therefore my attitude in people has change.....my life too...
N few days ago something happen to my mama. My Father was drunk n push my mama down the stair...though x ray nothing happen but u can imagine from the top of the stair n u just fall.down.
i cant help i feel useless all i can do is cry alone at nite n pray for my mama health n injury. N my family wan to move just let my dad alone in his own hse.
Is he always like this? See if your mum can file for maintenance from him through the family court? Is your mum working? Who own the house? If can, fight for the house... Or at least a share of it....
n all i was dreaming is..i hope i can be a singer...famous n can bring more money for family. though singer is hard to be. but at least is my interest.
Though not totally impossible, it's advisable for you to be more
practical for now..
if nt is to open a business selling food which my ma expert in. but i still wan to play play till 25 be4 i settle down. is it too late?
Is your mum working? Can ask her to start somewhere along there? Don't really have to start her own business to begin with?
i dont have the mind to work i just feel life is nt enough for me...tons of things happen to me but nothing yet make me work even harder..what should i do.
Work. It's not like you have a choice? If you need to, PLAN for your life. Put up some GOALs. -
1) Quit dreaming of being a singer. Wont get u very far. too far fetch at this moment at least.
2) Dun use ur current situation as an excuse for not trying / concentrating on other more impt issues.
3) Ur sis can go buy her own flat/house. If no money, juz stay at home! Why must buy new house?!
4) U've got nothing to prove to anyone. Quit being angry at the world and improve ur personal attitude. it will go a long way..
Truth hurts
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dun pressure urself too much. as the saying goes, chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi. jus take things a step at a time, dun think negative n b positive. wat will come will come.
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Don't let your problems overwhelm u. Make an effort to get a job or take up a course to upgrade. Drop those unattainable dreams & be realistic. Don't wallow in self pity. A lot of unfortunate/ unprivileged people are able to turn their lives around if they have the determination.