For those who know my story, IÂ’ve come to a decision regarding our relationship.
IÂ’ve done all I could, but guess IÂ’ll always play second fiddle to her commitments & friendsÂ… & conÂ’t feeling inferior.
Actually, I kinda of envy herÂ… always seem to have endless queue of ppl waiting to meet her..
On the contrary, I can hardly find any company on most wkendÂ… most of my frees have their own lives, even my parents go out on a date together on satÂ… sometimes I feel so unwanted..
I can find company easily during sch time, but on sat or public hol, it seems everyone prefers to be with that someone specialÂ… always feels like someone bordering on the outskirts of lifeÂ…
I never felt much except for a subtle sense of loneliness. But after 2 relationships with someone so “busy”, I jus felt a need to re-look my life.
How do I keep myself more occupied meaningfully? My sat schedule is somethk like that:
morning go swimming alone; have lunch myself ( my parents go out), maybe wash car & pack up room, wash tv.. occasionally meet a fren for coffee..
Sometimes I do long for more human companionship, but rely dun know how to move on..
