My life..some part of it.
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Sigh..pls allow me to vent my feelings of my life here.
Life to me now is a struggle..My friends are mostly a bunch of hypocrites,they tend to talk behind my back and mock me at the slightest mistake I made.For example,the pronunciation of english words.I come from a chinese speaking family unlike most of my friends,however my chinese standard is like a primary 4 student,I gave up studyin chinese this year (sec 4) and took syllabus B chinese.Sometimes its hard to pronounce a certain english word and I tend to speak it "off tune",they will laff and say how stupid I am,scolding me mandarin bastard.Im really very sad at how they treated me..sometimes I had the urge to take the pens and pluge it into their throats!.argh..
Second thing is that I hate being around my family members..They do not respect my privacy at home and tried several times to peek at my hp sms,they do not knock the door when Im in my room.I feel that going out with them is a disgrace and I distant myself away from them when Im forced to go out on occassion like CNY other than that is me staying at home.!
Thirdly is my studies..It is in a total mess I would say,I don't even know HOW ON EARTH am I gona pass my english O level composition with so many grammars mistake.I know that Im weak in the grammar area n made many stupid mistakes in composition resulting in poor language marks.I brought books like Grammar for dummies but still,thers no improvement.=( Right now,Im starting to revise for my maths and geography but everytime after about 1/2 hour ,I heard a voice telling me "ther's always 2moro" and Ill pack my books and head straight to bed..haiz,I guess its 5 years of secondary sch life for me. =(
Girls to me is like a species from outside earth..Rarely I will talk to any girls except those that I already knew...I had a crush on my junior recently but found no courage to pursuit it.Everyday,Its just me stealing glances of her standing bside the pillar near canteen.
Im scare of speaking to girls as Im afraid of mispronouncing words..I think the pronoucing of words has become a barrier within me..
Maybe death is a better way out..Jus a few seconds of pain in exchange of eternal peace..no one will laff at me and I dun hv to open my mouth when im dead and i dun have to study too.. -
hmmm.. english har, i oso dunnoe how to study english one, but i noe more exposure will definitely do wonders. u lack self-confidence becuz u can't blend in, i used to get that too so they will naturally backstab u and crap. bt its okie, life still goes on. privacy issue, i dunnoe, i always kept my privacy well. as for gals, i appear indifferent to everyone.. my nature i guess, so dun of cuz aren't able to get a gf or anything. work on yr english, it is highly important, had a friend whose subjects were great but english washed down the drain, quite a pity really, ended up in ite.. somehow.
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The only way to improve your English is to read & listen to the news (Channel News Asia on tv or BBC on radio). Borrow books from sch. library, read Readers Digest, novels, magazines. This will help in your pronunciation. Check Oxford dictionary for the correct usage. As for revision- set a timetable & study for at least 1- 2 hrs. Take short breaks if u cannot concentrate for long. Have a quiet study place. Switch off your hp so u don't get distracted.
As for your relationship with your family, try & talk to them. Your parents may be concern about u that's why they want to know who u are messaging. Try not to get into BGR yet as it will affect your studies. Avoid those insincere friends & make new ones.
Hey! You must be determined to improve instead of moaning abt. it. Everyone faces stress in studies & work. Only if u perserve, will u make it. -
My friend... How old are you? Guess your life should be pretty much still a long way to go... Ending your life is never a solution to ending your problems.. In fact, it'll usually means MORE problems generated for others... And your 'problems'... It's not like they can't really be solved or deal with in certain ways? Just takes more determination and control of will... The 'journey' of life is long... And I guess you're just about getting started?Originally posted by bluey^blue~:Sigh..pls allow me to vent my feelings of my life here.
Life to me now is a struggle..My friends are mostly a bunch of hypocrites,they tend to talk behind my back and mock me at the slightest mistake I made.For example,the pronunciation of english words.I come from a chinese speaking family unlike most of my friends,however my chinese standard is like a primary 4 student,I gave up studyin chinese this year (sec 4) and took syllabus B chinese.Sometimes its hard to pronounce a certain english word and I tend to speak it "off tune",they will laff and say how stupid I am,scolding me mandarin bastard.Im really very sad at how they treated me..sometimes I had the urge to take the pens and pluge it into their throats!.argh..
Second thing is that I hate being around my family members..They do not respect my privacy at home and tried several times to peek at my hp sms,they do not knock the door when Im in my room.I feel that going out with them is a disgrace and I distant myself away from them when Im forced to go out on occassion like CNY other than that is me staying at home.!
Thirdly is my studies..It is in a total mess I would say,I don't even know HOW ON EARTH am I gona pass my english O level composition with so many grammars mistake.I know that Im weak in the grammar area n made many stupid mistakes in composition resulting in poor language marks.I brought books like Grammar for dummies but still,thers no improvement.=( Right now,Im starting to revise for my maths and geography but everytime after about 1/2 hour ,I heard a voice telling me "ther's always 2moro" and Ill pack my books and head straight to bed..haiz,I guess its 5 years of secondary sch life for me. =(
Girls to me is like a species from outside earth..Rarely I will talk to any girls except those that I already knew...I had a crush on my junior recently but found no courage to pursuit it.Everyday,Its just me stealing glances of her standing bside the pillar near canteen.
Im scare of speaking to girls as Im afraid of mispronouncing words..I think the pronoucing of words has become a barrier within me..
Maybe death is a better way out..Jus a few seconds of pain in exchange of eternal peace..no one will laff at me and I dun hv to open my mouth when im dead and i dun have to study too..
As much as I can agree that there're hypocrites around in our life.. I can ALMOST ASSURE you that NOT all of the people are 'hypocrites'... And most of them are not to the extremes... You'll just have to learn to pick your friends... Learn to fail in picking the right ones... Learn to be hurt... Live that like it or not, you'll still have to live in a world where some of the people may not suit your taste...
About your English... Listen to more English radio station programmes.. Catch TV... News... Whatever... If you feel that you're really that BAD... START from the BASICS... English is VERY MUCH about FOUNDATIONS... Start from Primary 1 & 2 grammars if you have to... The worst is not when you don't know.. But only when you choose not to learn and know when you know that you needs to....
Privacy at home... I can't guarantee you anything... I reckon that you should be still at a certain vulnerable age? Even my parents used to do that to me... Heck, I just couldn't be much bothered...
As soon as they realise that you don't really ahve much for them to 'intrude'... They'll just slowly move away.. More of concern for your development now I should guess? Ya... just part of growing up...
GIRLS..? Haha... All I can say is... When it's TIME, they'll come... I USED to be the type which girls in the class won't even bother to take a 2nd look or place a discussion on..? (except when I constantly fail my test and exams.. ) And NOW? Still the SAME lah.... <
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All in all, I would tell you just to take things lightly lah... I can ALMOST ASSURE you that you should be facing GREATER CHALLENGES in LIFE in the future to come....
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Hi there,Originally posted by bluey^blue~:Sigh..pls allow me to vent my feelings of my life here.
Life to me now is a struggle..My friends are mostly a bunch of hypocrites,they tend to talk behind my back and mock me at the slightest mistake I made.For example,the pronunciation of english words.I come from a chinese speaking family unlike most of my friends,however my chinese standard is like a primary 4 student,I gave up studyin chinese this year (sec 4) and took syllabus B chinese.Sometimes its hard to pronounce a certain english word and I tend to speak it "off tune",they will laff and say how stupid I am,scolding me mandarin bastard.Im really very sad at how they treated me..sometimes I had the urge to take the pens and pluge it into their throats!.argh..
Second thing is that I hate being around my family members..They do not respect my privacy at home and tried several times to peek at my hp sms,they do not knock the door when Im in my room.I feel that going out with them is a disgrace and I distant myself away from them when Im forced to go out on occassion like CNY other than that is me staying at home.!
Thirdly is my studies..It is in a total mess I would say,I don't even know HOW ON EARTH am I gona pass my english O level composition with so many grammars mistake.I know that Im weak in the grammar area n made many stupid mistakes in composition resulting in poor language marks.I brought books like Grammar for dummies but still,thers no improvement.=( Right now,Im starting to revise for my maths and geography but everytime after about 1/2 hour ,I heard a voice telling me "ther's always 2moro" and Ill pack my books and head straight to bed..haiz,I guess its 5 years of secondary sch life for me. =(
Girls to me is like a species from outside earth..Rarely I will talk to any girls except those that I already knew...I had a crush on my junior recently but found no courage to pursuit it.Everyday,Its just me stealing glances of her standing bside the pillar near canteen.
Im scare of speaking to girls as Im afraid of mispronouncing words..I think the pronoucing of words has become a barrier within me..
Maybe death is a better way out..Jus a few seconds of pain in exchange of eternal peace..no one will laff at me and I dun hv to open my mouth when im dead and i dun have to study too..
It's rather sad when your friends laugh at you for some silly mistake you made.. you feel embrassed.. and sometimes even feel frustrated.. cos they always like that.. well.. not all the friends are like this.. maybe you can try talking to the others?? like the girls in your clasS?? they might be able to help you... DUn scare about speaking and approaching them.. you can talk to them in mandarin.. not neccessary english.. if you really feel lousy when speaking in that language..
For your family.. i think you should have a talk with them.. you are old enough to have your own privacy.. Sit own with them.. and talk to them.. tell them how you feel.. and see what can be done.. afterall they are still your family.. maybe they are jus too concern or over-protective over you??
Language is the only one that cannot be learn like mathematics.. science..n humanities... You have to always use very frequently.. Like speaking writing and talking.. The DUmmy guide dun help at all.. one way to improve is that.. you listen to news (eng & chn), read books.. Novels.. or newspaper.. read dictionary..
Grammer.. you have to practice writing.. no neccessary must be essay.. one short paragraph.. then maybe you can ask your teacher for help to see where are your mistakes.. Since i guess.. your friends wont help you.. Everyday you do this.. i'm sure you improve in no time.. but you must put in effort.. dun always think that.. there's always tmr tmr tmr and tmr.. like that u'll die in nO TIME too! You see.. you are always afraid of this and that.. dun dare to speak up cos ppl will laugh.. But if you dun keep on trying and practising.. it will be worst! Let them laugh all they wan.. one day you gonna show them how fluent you can be..
You are lacking confidence.. and feeling so insecure.. well.. i guess.. now its better for you to concentrate on your studies first.. pass this Os.. girls will come now and then.. when you have the confidence and build up the courage.. you will find yourself.. talking to them.. and mixing with girls too.. They are human.. they wont eat you up.. jus treat them like your "buddy".. You still got a long way.. dun worry pal.. this is not the end of the world..
Dun think so negative.. think positive.. the more positive you think.. you wont feel that bad.. if you keep thinking negative negative.. everyday you wake up.. you always feel like sh|t.. like everything is so meaningless to you.. Death issit the solution for everything.. so what if you die? Ppl always think that death can change everything.. you think it will??
Stay happy.. Everything can work out.. or maybe you can find someone here to help you out in your grammer.. write something.. one or 2 paragraphs.. then we can help you to correct your mistakes.. if you are scared pl to see.. then PM anyone who you think can help you.. If your friends cant help.. the next best person to find.. is your teacher.. they will do their best to help you.. Tell yourself.. no matter wat you have to pass this exams.. not neccessary must have good gradres.. but at least get a pass.. that will be alright...
SOmetimes.. don't pin hopes too high.. if not if you fall from there.. it's gonna hurt you alot.. this applies to everything.. anything..
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hi~! erm dont mind me giving some useless advices.. haha.. hmm.. what i think for language is that you should speak more often to improve it.. do more.. =X for girls, i also need help too.. =( I am very shy towards them.. and for the friends thingy, i think you can try changing your behaviour or your attitude? Maybe some of your actions irritate them or whatever.. (no offense tho)
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Originally posted by bluey^blue~:Sigh..pls allow me to vent my feelings of my life here.
Life to me now is a struggle..My friends are mostly a bunch of hypocrites,they tend to talk behind my back and mock me at the slightest mistake I made.For example,the pronunciation of english words.I come from a chinese speaking family unlike most of my friends,however my chinese standard is like a primary 4 student,I gave up studyin chinese this year (sec 4) and took syllabus B chinese.Sometimes its hard to pronounce a certain english word and I tend to speak it "off tune",they will laff and say how stupid I am,scolding me mandarin bastard.Im really very sad at how they treated me..sometimes I had the urge to take the pens and pluge it into their throats!.argh..
Ai ya... Please don think tis way... Every one is special in their own ways... Most people r very hyprociates de... Jus don tak wat they say to heart lor... All of us R humans... We all have our fault... N i belive bad mouthin others is one of our top fault!
English pronucation is really quite diff lor... Mayb u should practise speakin in front of the mirror? I also have bad pronucation... Sometimes kena laugh by my friends so, and they help me correct my mistake... Jus laugh it off ur pronocuation... 4 me, it has benn kinda of a joke whenever i pronouce wrongly! Jus laugh it off, tak it easy... But remember ur mistakes, n try to change lor...
Second thing is that I hate being around my family members..They do not respect my privacy at home and tried several times to peek at my hp sms,they do not knock the door when Im in my room.I feel that going out with them is a disgrace and I distant myself away from them when Im forced to go out on occassion like CNY other than that is me staying at home.! My family also lik tat de... They jus come into my room without knockin the door so... Mayb to prevent it, u lock the door? Or mayb u should let them know polietly tat u would lik them to knock the door first before comin in? And most imptly, u urself should also practise wat u preach... Most family i think don have the habit of of knockin the door i think... I have been thru wat u goin thru now... U 16 rite? Around tis age, is lik u r feelin grown up... Thus all tis feelin of rebellious... At tis stage of mine, i also avoided goin out wif my parents, and started talkin back at them... Don worry, it will pass...
Time is precious. And once is gone, u can nev get it back... U nev know wat is goin to happen the next min... N... Spend watever time n cherish every moment u spend wif ur family coz they r the most impt people in ur life...
Thirdly is my studies..It is in a total mess I would say,I don't even know HOW ON EARTH am I gona pass my english O level composition with so many grammars mistake.I know that Im weak in the grammar area n made many stupid mistakes in composition resulting in poor language marks.I brought books like Grammar for dummies but still,thers no improvement.=( Right now,Im starting to revise for my maths and geography but everytime after about 1/2 hour ,I heard a voice telling me "ther's always 2moro" and Ill pack my books and head straight to bed..haiz,I guess its 5 years of secondary sch life for me. =( I am also in the 5yr course... U should try the 10yr series... They r not bad... Eng ah... Mayb u write more compo, n ask ur teacher to guide u n mark it for u? I m sure they will glady do it for u... My compo i ways need to revise it many times... Rewrite it a few times before it can be handed in... The most impt thing is tat u mus have plenty of stories in ur head... Eg, think of many senario... Then if come a topic tat is similar... U already have a story in mind... Always plan first. Ur intro, the middle n the conclu... I suggest u work more on narrative essay... It's easier than agurementative...
Geography depends alot on ur memory work lor... Jus work hard n try to remember as much as u can... U see the exam format, they tend to be quite standard de... Eg, River - the formation of delta, floodplain... Forest - Deforestation, differences btw equatorial rain forest, etc... U got to learn spot the pop question from the topics lor... Think the format is asn 4Q out of 12...
Maths... Remember the formula... By heart... Pracitse as much as possible... Score on ur paper one as it is easier... Paper 1 do as careful as possible...
Girls to me is like a species from outside earth..Rarely I will talk to any girls except those that I already knew...I had a crush on my junior recently but found no courage to pursuit it.Everyday,Its just me stealing glances of her standing bside the pillar near canteen.
Im scare of speaking to girls as Im afraid of mispronouncing words..I think the pronoucing of words has become a barrier within me...
Maybe death is a better way out..Jus a few seconds of pain in exchange of eternal peace..no one will laff at me and I dun hv to open my mouth when im dead and i dun have to study too.. Life is precious... Have u tot of wat u have yet to achieve?
U studied for so long already... Don u wish to see some achievement from it?
U haven't complete ur studies, u haven't work, u haven't marry, have children, grandchildren...
Won't u be missin out on a lot?