Originally posted by Steph1125:
Hi all,
I'm being troubled by something. ah, just wanna say i thought since i know i can't say it to my friends.
anyway, it all happens two years ago, when i was still with my EX.. a lot happen.. like happy, sad, excitement, all those.. i guess it's just from my point of view.
But, after that , on her very birthday, i did something very very very terrible. and that's to hit her all just coz of my own things. sometimes i would rather her not to come into my life and disturb.
what i meant is like, i like to have my own freedom and if i really ask for a help, does it hurt to teach me in a good way rather than feeling like "be-song"
i don't know, i know i'm the worst of all boys right now, and that's i hit her, yes, in fact punch her, but wait! .. no bleeding is done, just on her hand.
that's the end of 1st part.
the 2nd part comes in and that is... after we break up, i found out that i still loved her, want to patch things up. yet she's attached with someone else..i felt sad, cried everyday.
And recently, she just got attached to my friend.. i just don't know the way out or solution to deal with it. i felt like "awkward" .. i've known my friend for quite sometime, but not that close .. yet after he got attached with her, he told me that he like her after the day we broke up..
i felt my world , or myself is falling apart.. all torn apart. Trust, friendship, love , everything.. i just felt so completely helpless.. really hopeless..
yes, i'm being such a wimp .. but hey, i'm also a human with emotions and feelings. and no, i'm not asking for pity in here.. i just wanna shared my thoughts with you people out there if who planned to listen.
Ch33rz
Dear Steph1125,
Realised something that you dont? she moved on and yet you are still stuck in the current situation.. couldn't let go.. It was such a wrong move or rather improper of you to jus hit her becos of such reasons..
If you really wan to have your own privacy and you think that she is intruding.. you can jolly-well jus tell her you need your own space.. Hate guys to violents to solve their relationship problems.. You think using violent can solve?? You hurt her deep.. Not becos of the pain.. is becos of the punch that slash thru her heart..
She can moved on so quickly simply becos at that point of time when you hit her.. i bet she's already too stun.. to shocked.. too heartbreaking.. she lost her trust in you.. she fear.. she leave for good.. Now that you know she has a relationship.. give her your best blessings.. And you jus have to move on.. and learn from the past.. If this never happen.. You never know how much hurt you have done to her.. and to this relationship.. it still goin on if you didn't hit her that once!
But then again... Everyone do make mistakes.. Jus make sure you learn your lesson deep and hard.. get on with your life.. Cheer up..
Cheers..
