my story... the illusion of the mind
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I still dread loneliness... but now i'm learning to be more independent...
in a way, my problem indirectly makes me stronger... but i still yearn for someone that i can relate to and really bond with very well...
Please don't be mistaken, I'm not feeling depressed but just feeling loss... gone are those dae where i'm so carefree, mind filled with boundless energy and free of limitation... until i met some setbacks in life... life is never the same after there... it's like a turning point in life... and u can't help staying in that whirlpool of emotion... there sadness, regret, anger ..... and silently praying that time will heals everything... but some sadness linger on and u have to tell urself that u have to let things go... time move on with or without u...
I swim alone, gym alone but i'm starting to enjoy these activities in solitude...it's not such a bad thing... though i have friends who i took my lunch with in sch... i still find myself hard to open up... it's a problem faced by everybody right? Everybody take times to learn to open up... to let go off certain unhappiness in their past and find their peace of mind...
i'm feeling loss now.. but i know it's temporary.... -
hey...cheer up man...u are not alone...
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noone is truely alone, juz dat we need ppl whom we can relate and share our hearts with. i wish i have someone like dat too.
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I knowOriginally posted by *Lord Kang*:hey...cheer up man...u are not alone... 
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I used to be a friendless person but once i started to change my attitude and starting to put down my ego and reflect things on myself.. i started to have friends as the time go by....
From my transition of a sad, anger and full of contempt person to a person who is peace-loving and happy person... i attract friends now ...
sometime when u r too low, u don't attract the kind of friends that u want cos u are not portraying ur full potential.... -
oh well, dats life i guess. we all muz jia you~
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Originally posted by Jazzytunez:
I still dread loneliness... but now i'm learning to be more independent...
in a way,[b] my problem indirectly makes me stronger... but i still yearn for someone that i can relate to and really bond with very well...
Please don't be mistaken, I'm not feeling depressed but just feeling loss... gone are those dae where i'm so carefree, mind filled with boundless energy and free of limitation... until i met some setbacks in life... life is never the same after there... it's like a turning point in life... and u can't help staying in that whirlpool of emotion... there sadness, regret, anger ..... and silently praying that time will heals everything... but some sadness linger on and u have to tell urself that u have to let things go... time move on with or without u...
I swim alone, gym alone but i'm starting to enjoy these activities in solitude...it's not such a bad thing... though i have friends who i took my lunch with in sch... i still find myself hard to open up... it's a problem faced by everybody right? Everybody take times to learn to open up... to let go off certain unhappiness in their past and find their peace of mind...
i'm feeling loss now.. but i know it's temporary....
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Remember the times when we were young... we would spin ourselves quickly, round and round until we are too daze and stopped - just to see the world spinning with visual distortion?
You have already passed the spinning stage - now your vision is clearing and your mind tried to discern which position you are at currently.
You are not lost - you are adjusting emotionally. It will take time.
/me slap a pat
Cheers -
Originally posted by Jazzytunez:
I still dread loneliness... but now i'm learning to be more independent...
in a way,[b] my problem indirectly makes me stronger... but i still yearn for someone that i can relate to and really bond with very well...
Please don't be mistaken, I'm not feeling depressed but just feeling loss... gone are those dae where i'm so carefree, mind filled with boundless energy and free of limitation... until i met some setbacks in life... life is never the same after there... it's like a turning point in life... and u can't help staying in that whirlpool of emotion... there sadness, regret, anger ..... and silently praying that time will heals everything... but some sadness linger on and u have to tell urself that u have to let things go... time move on with or without u...
I swim alone, gym alone but i'm starting to enjoy these activities in solitude...it's not such a bad thing... though i have friends who i took my lunch with in sch... i still find myself hard to open up... it's a problem faced by everybody right? Everybody take times to learn to open up... to let go off certain unhappiness in their past and find their peace of mind...
i'm feeling loss now.. but i know it's temporary....
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Hey... you're not alone. Ever since i started my poly life, i adopted the same lifestyle as you. Not that i wanted it, i was forced into solitude and doing things by myself. A good thing out of it was that i've learnt to be more independent, though not really 100% yet. At least a step forward is taken in this direction. At times, i still hesitant to go out alone, but if i am outside already, i will just "jalan-jalan" alone. Else, i must have a place in mind then i will go out alone. Haha, fear of being seen as a loner? Maybe lor. After all, first impression always counts. But, i slowly and trying to peel away the thick layers of pride. Well, life is short yar?
I am a person who likes to chill out with people(if possible like-minded) who are fun, spontaneous and considerate. People who like to talk out issues, not just superficial crapping and making a fool out of themselves, who dont everything just heck care and considerate by making the effort to be punctual and not take others for granted. Such are some of the qualities i look for in a friend or friends. Unfortunately, few i have met. Alot of you might be thinking that i should not ask so much with me not being a perfect being. But personally i feel these are not very difficult. I do not request that friend to be rich or influential, just have simple common sense and sensitivity to people around them. I dare to say that i do take conscious effort in displaying the qualities above, such as dressing right for the occassion(some frens who just cant be bothered to dress right, often you going out with them feeling funny),being punctual for meetings/outings, following them to get stuff when they ask me, but the reverse always happens towards me.
I have tried to compromise alot in terms of being more easy going and accomodating( trying to take interest in what they do), but it was never a two way thing. Also, had frens always using each other for selfish ambitions. Finally, had enough of it, decided to do my own thing. However, sometimes i do wish for company to share and pursue like-minded interests(eg:soccer,music..etc). Oh well, i have seen quite a fair number of people out there who are pretty superficial in treating relationships, thus i rather not search for company, and let it by God's will? Hehe.
All i wanted to say is that you are not alone, and there are probably many others out there like us. Heh. Well, heading to the army soon. Another chapter, another phase.
cheers -
being alone does not equate being lonely. there is nothing wrong in being alone. just as it is not wrong to be an introvert.Originally posted by Insightist:At times, i still hesitant to go out alone, but if i am outside already, i will just "jalan-jalan" alone. Else, i must have a place in mind then i will go out alone. Haha, fear of being seen as a loner? Maybe lor. After all, first impression always counts. But, i slowly and trying to peel away the thick layers of pride. Well, life is short yar?
cheers
why bother to about what other people think? like you say, life is short; why waste your precious time on superficial people and friendships?
life is meant to be enjoyed; however you like it.