yo! don't think so lowly of yourself & only see the worse part of your growth, in everything we go through, there's always gain & loss in different ways so you muz have evolved into a much better person in some ways which may not be visible to u through recent experiences... even if there isn't much good change or even change at all, you're still more enriched by your experiences today than yesterday.. experiences which u can share.....Originally posted by men_@_arms:Plus my character/personality has become even more degraded and introverted/inferior, i fear when we meet i won't muster any words outta my mouth..
Looks like you are having a confusing time of your time... I think what you are experiencing now is more like puppy love to me.. Why not you just don't think of anything else.. but just frens.. nothing else..Originally posted by men_@_arms:last wk been asked out by a girl i LIKE i think. I mean when i think about her, i feel errrr, mushy? WarM? Errr all that WEAKLING stuff. But more logically, coz she's graceful, full O faith yet not over-zealous, sweet voice, great mixed-features, VERY open and a good listener, a friend i like basically.
Yet i don't really know her, and i regret that, we hardly see each other, just on and off, she'll let me know about some fun activity and i likewise do the same with her.
But i don't think i like her that much coz i don't feel CRAZY or nuts over her. Its not a sexual thing either coz i dun think about that sort o thing much. Its a kind of on or off attraction i guess, and its not even a deep or intense attraction, because i don't feel it strongly for her or anyone yet. But even though i like her only a bit, i feel nervous when i'm gonna meet her.
Anywayz, i post-poned, said i was busy, asked her to call this weekend. But as the weekend comes, i am feeling more anxious.. like i dun want her to call, while i do. I wanna see her, yet i can't bear for her to see me. Because i feel i am not like at my best appearance.. i have been wasted by months of stressful school, i have studied till i look like a freakin zombie demon from outer space complete with eyerings and acne. Plus. She aint seen me for months, and twould be a turn off me thinks.. Plus my character/personality has become even more degraded and introverted/inferior, i fear when we meet i won't muster any words outta my mouth..
Yet if i don't give a damn about her, i theoretically wouldn't give a damn about how i look..or what i am like right? So that means i must give a damn about her, or maybe not? Dunno.
I need an outsider's perspective, appreciate any views or 10 cents worth from u guys
n girls.
Originally posted by men_@_arms:last wk been asked out by a girl i LIKE i think. I mean when i think about her, i feel errrr, mushy? WarM? Errr all that WEAKLING stuff. But more logically, coz she's graceful, full O faith yet not over-zealous, sweet voice, great mixed-features, VERY open and a good listener, a friend i like basically.
Yet i don't really know her, and i regret that, we hardly see each other, just on and off, she'll let me know about some fun activity and i likewise do the same with her.
But i don't think i like her that much coz i don't feel CRAZY or nuts over her. Its not a sexual thing either coz i dun think about that sort o thing much. Its a kind of on or off attraction i guess, and its not even a deep or intense attraction, because i don't feel it strongly for her or anyone yet. But even though i like her only a bit, i feel nervous when i'm gonna meet her.
Anywayz, i post-poned, said i was busy, asked her to call this weekend. But as the weekend comes, i am feeling more anxious.. like i dun want her to call, while i do. I wanna see her, yet i can't bear for her to see me. Because i feel i am not like at my best appearance.. i have been wasted by months of stressful school, i have studied till i look like a freakin zombie demon from outer space complete with eyerings and acne. Plus. She aint seen me for months, and twould be a turn off me thinks.. Plus my character/personality has become even more degraded and introverted/inferior, i fear when we meet i won't muster any words outta my mouth..
Yet if i don't give a damn about her, i theoretically wouldn't give a damn about how i look..or what i am like right? So that means i must give a damn about her, or maybe not? Dunno.
I need an outsider's perspective, appreciate any views or 10 cents worth from u guys
n girls.
Originally posted by men_@_arms:VERY open and a good listener, a friend i like basically.