The Sians' Online Diary~
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Dear diary
Upon reading other people's diary(i know its rude... but its in da damn thread!)posts... i wish to clarify one thing... Qoo is not da fly deity or in hokkien Haw Sin! Upon some research and observation by our Life Scientists and Rocket Scientists from NASA (Singapore Branch)... we have already determined the negative factor... because it is a very sensitive matter... the masses were not informed about it to prevent a crisis... now my own diary....
Like i said... my old fren asked me to be her bf... n im not ready yet... but we kept msging each other yesterday... is this rebounding? i think i need time to recover from all these... have to go for my physical fitness test at 4:30pm... totally no confidence in all the stations... especially chin up sit up and my 2.4... something which i could easily finish within 9mins in da past... now... i dunno... i feel like there is a 100ton weight on me... hope i can pass... although entering army earlier isnt all dat bad... i wouldnt want to miss the Sians Chalet for anything rite?! sigh... so help me God!
Stefan -
Dear DiaryOriginally posted by Stefanism:Dear diary
Upon reading other people's diary(i know its rude... but its in da damn thread!)posts... i wish to clarify one thing... Qoo is not da fly deity or in hokkien Haw Sin! Upon some research and observation by our Life Scientists and Rocket Scientists from NASA (Singapore Branch)... we have already determined the negative factor... because it is a very sensitive matter... the masses were not informed about it to prevent a crisis... now my own diary....
Like i said... my old fren asked me to be her bf... n im not ready yet... but we kept msging each other yesterday... is this rebounding? i think i need time to recover from all these... have to go for my physical fitness test at 4:30pm... totally no confidence in all the stations... especially chin up sit up and my 2.4... something which i could easily finish within 9mins in da past... now... i dunno... i feel like there is a 100ton weight on me... hope i can pass... although entering army earlier isnt all dat bad... i wouldnt want to miss the Sians Chalet for anything rite?! sigh... so help me God!
Stefan
Pls tell stefan to buck up for the Sians chalet's sake, brother mai think too much eh sai bo??
Regards
Estee~~~~
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Dear Diary........
Came back fr Sunset bay last wkn, now my skin so damn burning red and painful! Save me...............!
Had oso watch Matrix, a bit sad........
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u went SSB? how come did see u....Originally posted by BlueMe:Dear Diary........
Came back fr Sunset bay last wkn, now my skin so damn burning red and painful! Save me...............!
Had oso watch Matrix, a bit sad........ Not at interesting as i expected.
r u blue wave?
if yes can i get to know u better?
if no can i get to know u too?
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Dear diaryOriginally posted by Estee:Dear Diary
Pls tell stefan to buck up for the Sians chalet's sake, brother mai think too much eh sai bo??
Regards
Estee~~~~
now si bei stress going for my physical test now... wah mai faaaaaaaaail~ i wan to go chalet b4 go resort!!!
Stefan -
Dear Diary,
Sian.....no.....really sibei sian....there is no business....there is no work....and therefore there is no money. Nuff said. Besically I'm broke. And I hate to be broke. I seem to have lost my ability to live.
I'm also fustrated. My family is throwing everything at me. Everything seems to be my fault. No money, I know, I'm trying. No peace, hey, I'm not the one quarreling here. No time, you want me to solve the problem of money, so you got to give me time to look for business right? Big irony!
And I wonder why the hell do I have to be the peacemaker between my ex gf and her bf. One is calling me to tell me what a pest he is and the other is calling me(How the hell did he get my number in the first place?!) to tell me how miserable he is. I seriously wonder what the hell is going on in my life now that lead to shit like that.
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dear diary,Originally posted by Callan:Dear Diary,
Sian.....no.....really sibei sian....there is no business....there is no work....and therefore there is no money. Nuff said. Besically I'm broke. And I hate to be broke. I seem to have lost my ability to live.
I'm also fustrated. My family is throwing everything at me. Everything seems to be my fault. No money, I know, I'm trying. No peace, hey, I'm not the one quarreling here. No time, you want me to solve the problem of money, so you got to give me time to look for business right? Big irony!
And I wonder why the hell do I have to be the peacemaker between my ex gf and her bf. One is calling me to tell me what a pest he is and the other is calling me(How the hell did he get my number in the first place?!) to tell me how miserable he is. I seriously wonder what the hell is going on in my life now that lead to shit like that.
LIFE SUCKS!
pls tell callan that life has got its ups and downs. what he's experiencing now could be one of the downest moments in his life.
pls tell him that it's ok to complain here and there, to vent ur frustration to u, to punch the wall or to cry out loud. but do let him no that that's not all he shud do.
problems need to be solved. problems wont be solved on its own. i'm sure he knows a few solutions to each of his problem, but he could be indecisive or reluctant to execute them.
he has been a few ppl's counsellor, giving advices to those who need solutions. i'm sure he knows what to do.
pls also remind him that, as a friend, if it is within my ability, i will try my best to help him if he needs any.
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dear diary,Originally posted by Callan:Dear Diary,
Sian.....no.....really sibei sian....there is no business....there is no work....and therefore there is no money. Nuff said. Besically I'm broke. And I hate to be broke. I seem to have lost my ability to live.
I'm also fustrated. My family is throwing everything at me. Everything seems to be my fault. No money, I know, I'm trying. No peace, hey, I'm not the one quarreling here. No time, you want me to solve the problem of money, so you got to give me time to look for business right? Big irony!
And I wonder why the hell do I have to be the peacemaker between my ex gf and her bf. One is calling me to tell me what a pest he is and the other is calling me(How the hell did he get my number in the first place?!) to tell me how miserable he is. I seriously wonder what the hell is going on in my life now that lead to shit like that.
LIFE SUCKS!
i cant agree more to what wee has suggested.
no doubt it is not an easy task for the person himself to take a rational view that such difficulties are lessons to make callan a better man, there is no room to avoid but to face the problems himself.
however, everyone has a boundary of responsibilities. the opportunity to learn and practice how to solve problems is always a good thing. on the other hand, one has to know when to let go.
the world doesn't revolve around one but otherwise.
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dear diary,
everything kan pua chim....
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Dear Callan
You may just blew your problems, your troubles and your life away; maybe your imagination is too great for your ambition and everything came crashing down thus not working the path which you foresee. The truth hurts, but life still have to go on.
I myself had my life turn nightmare in just overnight in a place where my closes person is no one but myself, and I can tell you is far more worst of what you're expirencing right now. Nevertheless I'm glad I survive the challenge and maybe in life going beyond something you can't reach or seem, is pushing your challenge to it's limit and you will never know when is the end.
Learn to stand up to your problems, don't go look for problems; look for roots of solutions. Everyone's path is laid well before himself, is you who make the choices to walk.
Regards
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Dear Diary
I'm gonna repeat myself again, life's getting boring~~~
Regards
Estee~~~~ -
Dear diary
freaking tired... my IPPT up da truck again... haiz... dis time i do 3 n only to realise i need to do 5 to pass... so wad da F***K!? now my whole f***king body is aching man i need a good massage... missed my first dae at work... anticipating a major tekaning when my parents get home... todae si bei nua... si bei sian... n si bei hungry... but in any case pls let Callan know dat im always free to look water for him if he wans...
Stefan -
Dear Diary,
Last night I reaffirmed a believe in my life. It's about pride. I have always believe that pride is only useful in your life when you really need it. Pride by far has never been much use except towards one's ego. In one's life, one should never take pride too highly, cause the price to pay for such pirority is normally too much. A long time ago, I met a few like that, and they lost a lot of chances in life because of such pride. One was my counselle, I'm glad I managed to make her realise that with a simple sentence.
"If you are unable to let your own pride down to love someone, you will never love that someone enough. Because in the end, it only shows how much more you love yourself than you will ever love him."
Though she realise it, it was too late for her. This is one part of her life that she has to live with regret. She even once told me that if ever given the chance again, she would choose to put down her pride and embrace him into her life.
Hindsight is the irony that we always have in our life, and last night I once again realise that it is always happening around me. A major contradiction in life, that we grab on to things that are worth nothing at all in our life only to regret later. With this, I vow never to make this misunderstanding on pride ever in my life, it might be the thing that cause my downfall. -
dear diary
i am falling asleep while editing database and getting frustrated attending to 2 phones here jialat liao must rush to the other phone
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Dear Diary,
Todae is memorable day..been long since i scolded sum1..a so called fren so harshy..till she cried...call mi rash or wad..bt i dun feel happy to be accused...
Realised tiz big conspiracy ting going on in my class..around my classmates..my frens..worst still my group members...y are all tiz tings happening wen we r graduating...better dun let mi noe whu is behind all thiz...bt reliable sources say its sum1 close to mi..highly possible my group members..hate it hate it..puiz puiz
PS: hope tml i win more in mahjong cuz i v angry todae..tomolo a better day -
dear diary,
i went to bed as late as usual yesterday night, but for some reasons, i felt exceptionally tired when i woke up this morning.
even with such fatigue, the workload at office was filling enough to keep me awake throughout.
when i was rushing for my class, i thought there is an hour of journey for me to catch some sleep but to no avail.
and for the entire day, i chose to doze off for like half an hour in class when it most required my attention and concentration.
tired enough, but again, i couldnt find myself asleep on my journey back home.
with that, i suspect a new disease has mutated in me to display such abnormal behaviour.: selective insomnia.
the folks are at illusionz for the third time in the past one month and it is a pity that i have to miss out on all the actions. fortunately, my trusty mp3 player was with me all day long as a substantial substitute to the party music that i have to be absented from.
tmrw is wednesday and that means 3 more days to sentosa!
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Dear diary
nothing to post.... juz wanna tell dagester dat sat is indeed coming... but dun too high hope if not i stress ah! still unsuccessful in asking my classmates to come down... n nobody is encouraging me... maybe nobody knows my class im da only guy around?
Stefan -
dear diary,Originally posted by Stefanism:Dear diary
nothing to post.... juz wanna tell dagester dat sat is indeed coming... but dun too high hope if not i stress ah! still unsuccessful in asking my classmates to come down... n nobody is encouraging me... maybe nobody knows my class im da only guy around?
Stefan
please let stefster knows that i have faith he will do a good job this sat, as long as he can wake up in time.
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Dear Diary
Love
~Whale~ -
Dear Diary
Ohyao gozaimas, it has been a period since I seek in to take a peek. Haven't been a good girl lately!
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Dear Diary,
Sun is coming out in now.... going to be bery hot
i wanna camp liao..
buai~
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Dear Diary
had dinner at bugis with the guys yesterday b4 they head for illusion~~ then i proceeded to westmall to find my secondary school buddies for La Kopi session~~ had a great chat with them~~ hehe~~
looking forward to the weekend man~~ friday evening faster come~~
Regards
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Dear diary
really din want to wake up dis morning... missed da 2nd dae of work... my whole body is still aching... counting down da daes to PTP and trying to come up with a timetable fo train for my LAST fitness test... maybe i should go for jogging dis Sat Soccer on Sundae... sposed to meet a fren now... but... abit too sian to meet her... but also cannot dun meet her... ppl from work rush down from woodlands juz to meet me... but i want to play CM4!!!!
Stefan -
Dear diary,
Well, did not get drunk last night at illusion. Fulfilled my promise to my friend. Has been wasting alcohol for the past month, and I drink like a cow(at least to myself I do). Thus it makes me wonder if I really am drunk when I'm drunk or do I just want to be drunk myself. The months have not been good, but I'm slowly gathering strenght to move on. At least I dare say I tried to enjoy myself last night. It is quite a herculean task really, looking at the amount of problems at the back of my mind. I only reached home at 5:00a.m. Not that I stayed at illusion that late but because I have to make sure everyone in my cab gets home safely after supper. Was very tired after that. I met a old friend last night at illusion after not seeing him for like a year. He has changed quite a bit. When he used to be the nicest guy around(not that he is not now), at that time, all the girls will be around him and he is every gals dream best guy friend. Now he has kinda change to have given up hope on nice guys winning in life. When I told him about the recent happenings in my life, he said he saw his shadow in me. And that the root to all my problems is basically being too nice, and having too much morals. I was quite astounded by what he said. He even told me that he came to realise that a gal's best guy friend is actually just like a boyfriend to her minus the sex. He shared that he used to spent time, money, effort and everything on these gals, but because he was nice, he got nothing in return, and would normally be cast aside when a boyfriend comes into the picture. He dun deny that he did like some of these gals that he was nice to, but the problem here is that since he is so nice, they dun even feel the need to recipocrate anything. Thinking about what he said, I do realise that my situation is very like what his was, but the big question hanging on my head is if I would soon give up like he did and be as disappointed with the woman around me like he is now or I will just continue to be what I am now for the rest of my life. I seriously do wonder on this point. -
Dear Diary,
physically tired now... having a test on Aircraft Maintenance Practice tomorrow... the books for every subject seems to be getting thicker. hahahahah~
Now i will just nua at home and watch time pass me by
bye bye