[I found this poem of mine in my archives.Enjoy it
]
The Encik's Tale
The dog's naked whine
really pisses me off
and the neighbour's parakeet
a God of Noise.
He commands the attention
as an encik talks to his men.
Even the concrete's pores are showing
as I gazed worriedly at the grey surface.
I look upon my aged father,
squalid with age,
yet a face ruddy.
“San-sao's grandson is back!"
The heavy clump of authority
unopened as of yet.
He looks at me, smiles
ever so shyly.
Will he kill a quail in Brunei?His mother always asked me.
Sometimes I wonder
what is life.
Because I am alive,
yet I feel dead.
Mark and Linda,
they always say they
too busy
lah.
I still go down to Yishun
for my stout.
And the stupid 4-D,
nao hiah, boh yiah!
Will they burn enough moneuy
when I die?
I like the paper handphone
makes me feel like a boss.
I once was a boss
you know?
They call me encik,
sergeant major.
The boys shook when I inspected
their bunk.
Peed.
So gu-niang.
And like a fan
I blew in their fresh faces;
the smoke of a thousand exercises
and more to come.
They really quaked
in their spit-shined boots
and when they sang like
the distant cousin of the parakeet.
Oh such irony.
They don'ch know I'm actually
scared of wild boars.
Thats why I hide in the Land Rover.
With Mr Scholar, the OC,
his pants also drenched
with fear.
So I saw Kaoshiung, all the mei-meis
and all the fun a guy
could have.
And I saw my old friend
die
because his tank exploded.
Boom!Fark!
I saw a lot of pain,
a lot of wasted young lives.
Father and mother
raise them up plump
and they die a skinny man
not even with children.
Now, I think my turn has come
for a man like me,
feared by all.
But I fear loneliness,
my kakis are gone.
There's only the grey walls
and that nao hiah chiao!
And I still look at my father
leader to many
but father to too few.
Loyal soldiers
without loyal kin.
Life is but one parade.
We must keluar baris
one fine day.
*Encik: A term for a senior warrant officer, like a Regimental Sergeant Major
*Nao hiah, boh yiah: Loosely translated to "B*oody hell, I lost"
*Mei-meis: colloquial term used by soldiers for Taiwanese babes.
*Nao hiah chiao: Literally translated to “goddamn f*cking bird”
*Keluar baris : A drill command in Malay that means “Fall out!”
