Hi guys,
I am currently a NSF and I have the following problems, I do not know of the term, so please tolerate with me.
FOR THOSE WHO HAVE NEGATIVE COMMENTS, PLEASE DO NOT POST.
I think I am currently suffering from depression, I feel sad, anger and things. 2 of my family members is having medical issues, one has been diagnosed with tumor and the other kidney failure. I should be only feeling sad, I don't know why am I angry and is often kicking and jabbing in my bed to relieve my stress level. I do not feel like doing anything much, and is dropping tears in my bed for no apparent reason, it just drop. In addition, I have been hearing noises and voices over the past few days after seeing "something" in camp, I am in deep fear every night, causing me to lose sleep and have difficulty breathing, my heart bounces so fast that I'm scare it'll explode, sometimes, I couldn't control my trembling. Because of this, I had report myself to IMH as I had thought of sucide and after one night of observation, I was discharge, currently awaiting for SAF psychiatrist appointment.
Secondarily, I am so scared they would charge me, they would lock me up, people would think I'm crazy and I am really sensitive to words like "siao, crazy" right now. I am worried that I would really go crazy if this continues, and is also worried about my future records.
Can anyone tell me what they would do to me? Am I mad? Is my future ruined? Please do not discourage me and help me.
Hi seriously, we cant help you much but to tell you that you have done the right thing to seek help from IMH and your unit or the MO. Its easier said than done to tell you to relax and not think so much but that is what you need to do. It is not easy to have your loved ones suffering from sicknesses especially a long suffering one like tumours. But seek help and see what happens. As coming from me, when my father passed away, it was a terrible time for me too but the only thing that kept me going is the thought I need to be there for other people I love like my mum and sister. I cannot afford to break down.
Am I going crazy? Because I hear things at night, I feel like dying but because of my love ones like you said have prevented me from doing so, however, I will go crazy if I go back to the camp where I see things, I cannot face darkness like I used to be. I used to be a happy bird, but now I have no interest in my past activities. Due to my dad's encouragement, I went out for a friend's 20th birthday, I tried to forge a smile, but as it happens at night and it is at a park, i felt slight tremble and become worried, I told my girlfriend that I am not feeling well and I went home. Is trembling normal? Or am I dying? My BP is above 140 and my heart beat rate was 132 when measured at IMH, I have difficulty breathing recently. I cannot overcome my fear and my worries. HELP! What will they do to me?Is my future ruined!?
Seriously I dun know. Seek help and hear what the professionals have to say. Meanwhile relax, nothing has happened to you right? So your future is not runied. You are still around, very much alive, typing and participating in this forum. Just relax and wait what the pros have to say.
You are already on the track to recovery. Just go to your appointments and take your medicine. Pray, hope and don't worry.
I cannot afford staying outside, especially in camp. Just the thought of it is killing me. I don't know what to do. I do not dare to go back to the camp I saw the things, even though it just endorsing MC. I felt extreme trouble breathing and I fear I'll have asthma attacks and I cannot control my trembling. I went back once with the help of my dad/brother and girlfriend as the OC told to me and the MO is not there, I am going back tomorrow. I am DYING TOMORROW! T.T I don't want to go back. Is hearing voices normal? I hear music or screams or talks. I just hear some ah ma's sorrow calls. Its not my grandma, I thought it is, I ran out and my grandma is happily playing with the dog. How.. I am going crazy..
U are seeking help, means u are still mentally normal ... If u are truely a genuine case, the SAF would not charge u. I am not so sure about ur future records ...
I think u might just be over-stressing urself, over ur current problems, issues, be it in camp or out of camp, which might be the reason why u might be hearing things or what so ever. I am no psychiatrist. But u need to relax, stop thinking about it. It is no easy. Await for ur next specialist appointment, see how it goes.
U are not dying tomorrow... trust me. SAF Camp is a scary place, but it doesn't kill ... Most OCs are now para-counsellor trained, surely they would be more understanding or ur situation ...
Relax, and enjoy ... though life is unpredictable. But we need to make the best out of it, no matter the circumstances ...
Please seek medical advice immediately. Talk to your MO and give him a detailed account of your incidents.
I'd advise you to go and seek a psychiatrist's help asap too.
Dude, i know its tough, so many things happening at home and all that. Seek help, and don't lose control of yourself. Once you lose it, you never know when you regain your composure. So everytime you feel an anxiety attack happening, take a step back and breath slowly, and reason out to yourself, are you over reacting.
i think an alternate way could be to seek a psychologist instead of a psychiatrist. in my opinion, i don't really know if a psychiatrist helps because they adminster medicine to clients, clients may develop a reliance to the medicine in the long run instead of using more effective coping strategies.
hmmm, if you are superstitious, you may want to see a medium since you said you saw something? but i would recommend seeking a psychologist first.
hmmm, just my humble input. hope it helps. :)
Originally posted by lenore:i think an alternate way could be to seek a psychologist instead of a psychiatrist. in my opinion, i don't really know if a psychiatrist helps because they adminster medicine to clients, clients may develop a reliance to the medicine in the long run instead of using more effective coping strategies.
hmmm, if you are superstitious, you may want to see a medium since you said you saw something? but i would recommend seeking a psychologist first.
hmmm, just my humble input. hope it helps. :)
No disrespect, lenore. But I think it'd be wiser if he skips the medium and go seek professional help first.
TS, go get a referral to whatever psychologist/psychiatrist. I'm no expert in this field, but you sound like you're under immense stress. Either way, you may want to see your MO very soon before the problem escalate.
Don't worry unduly - if it's a problem, it has a solution.
Originally posted by Anno:Hi guys,
I am currently a NSF and I have the following problems, I do not know of the term, so please tolerate with me.
FOR THOSE WHO HAVE NEGATIVE COMMENTS, PLEASE DO NOT POST.
I think I am currently suffering from depression, I feel sad, anger and things. 2 of my family members is having medical issues, one has been diagnosed with tumor and the other kidney failure. I should be only feeling sad, I don't know why am I angry and is often kicking and jabbing in my bed to relieve my stress level. I do not feel like doing anything much, and is dropping tears in my bed for no apparent reason, it just drop. In addition, I have been hearing noises and voices over the past few days after seeing "something" in camp, I am in deep fear every night, causing me to lose sleep and have difficulty breathing, my heart bounces so fast that I'm scare it'll explode, sometimes, I couldn't control my trembling. Because of this, I had report myself to IMH as I had thought of sucide and after one night of observation, I was discharge, currently awaiting for SAF psychiatrist appointment.
Secondarily, I am so scared they would charge me, they would lock me up, people would think I'm crazy and I am really sensitive to words like "siao, crazy" right now. I am worried that I would really go crazy if this continues, and is also worried about my future records.
Can anyone tell me what they would do to me? Am I mad? Is my future ruined? Please do not discourage me and help me.
Be strong. Seek professional help. Take care.
Okay, first things first. Anno, you've asked a number of times if your future is ruined. Your immediate problem is the present, not the future. I'm pointing this out because your concerns for the future may lead you to rejecting treatment options that can help you now. So far you've done well to seek treatment, so keep it up and be open to the treatment that the professionals offer you.
Given the symptoms, my gut feel is that a psychiatrist would be of more help than a psychologist. Clinical work is not my field (I'm an organisational psychologist), but the hearing of voices and anxiety responses may be better addressed by psychiatric intervention, at least in the short term. If a psychological approach is required, psychiatrists can take care of basic counselling and refer your case to the appropriate psychologist is necessary.
At present, the bottom line is that you're on the right track in seeking treatment. As with any other referral system, your appointmentment may take a bit of time to arrange, but make sure you hang in there and get the help that you need.
Hi Anno,
From what you have stated in your post, it seems they are 2 main problems:
1) Hearing voices (auditory hallucination) is a symptom of some serious underlaying mental ailment & you must immediately seek help from the professional who should a psychiatrist rather than a psychologist.
2) Depression - likely to be reactive depression rather than endogenous depression possibly due to "2 of my family members is (are) having medical issues". Reactive depression is not as serious as endogenous depression but taken together with your auditory hallucination, the more so that you must seek expect psychiatric help.
The expects, each in his/her own fields, will be able to give you professional, relevant, systematic & effective therapeutic management & you will definitely have very high chances of a complete recovery.
Life always has its highs & lows, ups & downs & so in the meantime try to think positively & I wish you all the best.
Today I went back to the camp to endorse my MC, I was having difficulty breathing and when speaking to the MO about "seeing things" has made my body tremble. He immediately endorse my MC, however, I had forgotten to bring my psychiatrist appointment letter, so I have to go back again. This really stressed me out. I am very glad to see no negative comments and thanks for the encouragement. In present, I am very fearful that I would be like my grandma who had the same type of illness like "hearing things" none of my family members believe it or rather, we don't know its a mental illness, eventually, it escalated to "bonkers' situation"
In the appointment letter, it stated depression and doesn't state anything like anxiety attacks.
I think my depression is because of my family issues and my trembling and stuffs like hearing is because I'm scared.
1) Anyone knows what will the SAF psychiatrist do?
2) I fear of going crazy
3) My family members are worried, increasing my stress level. (real stressful)
4) My headaches are in 3-4 out of 10, however, its a whole day issue.
If IMH can 't help much, try Hypnotherapy. It may cost a little (S$200 per session, require 4-6 sessions usually) but it works! I dare to said it because my son happen to have the same issues like yours and Hypnotherapy work better for him. IMH usually will just give medication + talk therapy and Dr. Alex Su is the only dotor that I will said is good. The rest.......believe you been have a seesion or two with them, you should know better.
IMH treated my case as genuine, however, what will the SAF think of this? In the end, I don't know how they can help me and what will they do to me. They will charge me? They will ignore me? I don't know. I am worried and fearful each day. I think in SAF, I would jump or go crazy sooner or later.
1) Sleep sitting
2) Depression
3) Fear + scared.
4) Difficulty breathing when in camp and trembling uncontrollably when talking about that.
Tell them all this = I am mad (if they believe) charge me (if they don't believe.)
Relax, don't think or do anything funny. There are many others like yourself, and they have not been charged because they didn't do anything wrong. You have not done anything wrong, so stop worrying about getting charged.
Originally posted by Anno:IMH treated my case as genuine, however, what will the SAF think of this? In the end, I don't know how they can help me and what will they do to me. They will charge me? They will ignore me? I don't know. I am worried and fearful each day. I think in SAF, I would jump or go crazy sooner or later.
1) Sleep sitting
2) Depression
3) Fear + scared.
4) Difficulty breathing when in camp and trembling uncontrollably when talking about that.
Tell them all this = I am mad (if they believe) charge me (if they don't believe.)
got memo/letter from IMH = to give camp MO = u r safe = treated real case = 'P' tagged noted in medical file in medical centre
In the letter, IMH only stated depression and not about other things, if I add in that I am hearing things, what will happen? I did told IMH that I saw things and is very scared.
T.T The NS man who died yesterday is 50% possibility from my camp. HOW!? I don't dare to go back..
There is 50% possibility ... It is either Yes or NO. He was in Lim Chu Kang Camp ... Are u from that camp? Even if so, one death does not lead to another in peacetime training.
IT IS! Camp 1.. I don't dare to go back more.. T.T
I guess dying is the best way out. I've been talking and thinking of best methods to die. since they can't solve my problems =) Good luck to all of you.