now i know that i posted a while back, saying join band lah, join mdc lah.
Well now i've been posted to one of the SIR contingents as a rifleman, and almost my entire company has gone to sispec or ocs.
the reason for this is i ticked no to command school - so you can feel free to criticise me for this, saying 'live with your choice lah'. fine. feel free to do so.
now that ive been posted to rifleman (which i have done my research on) seeing all my friends (yes all) go scs as INF LDR is making me very very depressed.
i feel that i have let my parents down, i feel that i have let my friends down by not being able to live up to either of their expectations.
is there any way in hell to revocate to sispec? i feel if not i may have to see a psychiatrist. my heart is beating like crazy and i am feeling very anxious and nervous, and i feel very depressed and starting to hear voices like 'why did you tick no' and 'you let your parents down'. my father was an officer and now i cant face him and tell him that i didnt manage to go to command school.
my medic friend tells me he sees a lot of people who try to down pes or chao keng once they get into their unit - and here i am faced with the same situation.
please help.. what are my options?
almost zero chance.
what do you think will happen if i report to mo in my unit and tell him everything i've told? will i be sent to imh?
You made your choice. You have to take responsibility for your own life and live with the consequences of the decisions that you make.
No, seriously. Ask yourself: who gave you those expectations? Did your friends and parents tell you that you must be a commander? Did they tell you that you will be any less of a man if you don't get stripes or bars?
Talk about your feelings with a commander you can trust. Go get it all off your chest.
However, as for changing your circumstances..... you can't do much.
You made your choice, and you have to be man enough to live with the consequences and to make the best of things.
No, seriously. Ask yourself: who gave you those expectations? Did your friends and parents tell you that you must be a commander? Did they tell you that you will be any less of a man if you don't get stripes or bars?
This is not far off the truth especially your last statement. Not all parents are as relaxed with their children as you think. The burden on my heart is immense.
while i think that your suggestin to talk to a commander (which would HAVE to be my bmtc commanders) is a useful one, i really do feel that talking to a psychiatrist or some specialist would be more helpful for me..
i really cannot face this shit. heart is beating like crazy and i can still hear voices..
if i genuinely can hear voices every few minutes, should i seek professional help or suck it up?
mr fudgester, with all due respect, are you an s1 officer/chief clerk and are you the one who edited the topic? can you explain the whole topic because it doesnt make sense. it would seem that you are implying the appeal process doesnt exist..
so why with all the expectations placed on you etc did you ticked no to command school?
u feel like killin yerself cuz u ticked the wrong box???hmmm....best u go see a head shrink n have yerself exempted from ns since u feel its a grave mistake on yer part.
that is a good question, and my answer sucks.
wanted to maximise chance of going saf band.
it is not a good answer.
ah fuck my life
i know i've ticked the wrong box, and it seems like a brick wall that no argument can penetrate. but i know i did my leadership during sit test as best as i could even though i told the officer i didnt want to go command school (because saf band was my dream) and i got silver for ippt, fail soc, marksman, did my iq test to the very best of my ability.
i guess i didnt expect to go rifleman..
and now i'm looking for a way out. the way out is laced with desperation now.. because this is the worst choice i have made in my life, and it SEEMS there is no way back to command school or revocation..
can someone tell me who's the one who keeps editing the topic..
what wrong with you, u better dont be a specs with this mentally in the first place....
just SAF la.
What's your educational qualifications?
Once you get posted to SIR be prepared to greet your friends from your schools SIR/SERGEANT (Assuming you were from poly or Jc).
Be prepared to be treated like another mere digit in the company.. Same as those bengs/uneducated fellows/drug addicts/former jailbird/ "Angkong Siao".
Good luck..
With replies like these I might as well go see a pdoc..
Since there doesn't seem to be any form of appeal process..
and isnt the saf band abit "unmanly" also as with the general perception of those people in it..
well you wanted to maximised your chances of entering the band, so use that as a reason to counteract against the command school expectations.
sorry, i can't rationalise this. i simply cannot face life in a rifleman unit without the help of my friends who are all in sispec.
despite what you all say, i will try my best to find a way to solve my problem.
if there is anyone who wants to help me find a way, please feel free.
once again i appreciate everything that you have said including your counter arguments and in general everyone telling me to suck it up in sir. thank you.
??????ya wanna goto a military band????have ya tried signin on with the military band????make yer dreams come true...skip the head doc..go to mindef and say u wanna sign up wiv the band and play drums n the saxaphone or something.
ya a musician....ya not military command and conquer type of person....
ok thats an interesting perspective, but band can sign on one meh?
Originally posted by Yyytra:sorry, i can't rationalise this. i simply cannot face life in a rifleman unit without the help of my friends who are all in sispec.
despite what you all say, i will try my best to find a way to solve my problem.
if there is anyone who wants to help me find a way, please feel free.
once again i appreciate everything that you have said including your counter arguments and in general everyone telling me to suck it up in sir. thank you.
Well i guess u ticked no it's becos u assumed u'll get into band and mdc for sure. Now got fark up, you are trying to escape. Btw even u tick the correct box what made u think that u sure goes to SISPEC or OCS for sure. Face it up like a man.......ask yourself why did u do during the test that let your PCs and OC decide that u did not even qualified for SISPEC and OCS or some other courses like medic, signaller etc etc in the 1st place...
yes...they have regulars in the band.....just ask mindef recruitment at cmpb
drama and dance and u get posted to perform overseas...canada,brunei ,usa,australia,thailand in one year mebbe all of em.
like that you call "fucked my life" ?
WAH LAU EH!!
GROW THE FUCK UP AND STOP BEING A STUPID IDIOTIC EMO LITTLE KUNIANG!!
sheesh!!
it's not like the fucking 2 years is going to be the rest of your stupid life...
and if you keep going on and on like that without waking the hell up, you're going to be miserable all your goddamned life and make everyone around you just as miserable...
you have a choice now.. grin and bear it, make the best of it or go emo and cry to yourself.. yourself coz it's your own life..
wimp...
thank you terminator hitman.
i think out of all the replies yours has been the most useful.
really appreciate your input. and i will try and see what i can do from here.
re: flamers esp the one above.
stfu. this isnt a flame session. you are examples of the typical singaporean. selfish. name calling. you arent helping anyone with your comments. what do you expect to gain?
is it better to mope about one's situation or be resourceful and try and improve it?
you answer that question yourself.
if ya wanna play in the band so much then go for it....make it yer dreams.u only have 1 life.
yes...go to cmpb recruitment office...hr officer will tell u their latest policies,openings ,lobang...etc etc.
in fact there was a girl officer i knew... she played the saxaphone like lisa simpson...but she joined the airforce as an officer prolly not music related.
i need to report to unit on monday.. how to go cmpb recuritmen office?