IÂ’ll leave the water running ,to hide the sound of my crying
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I'm crying and I don't know why
I'm shaking and I don't know why I'm angry and I don't know why I feel like there is so much going on, but I don't know what any of it is. I don't know what to do. I feel so sad or something, and part of me wants to pick things up and throw them, and another part of me wants to crawl into bed and just cry. But I hate crying. It gives me a headache and I feel like crap for the rest of the day. So, I'm trying to stop crying, which just makes my chest hurt ...
I don't want to feel this way. I don't want this feeling to be inside of me. I want to feel normal right now. I don't have anyone to talk to. I wish I had someone that I could talk to about this. I wish that an angel was there to listen to me and talk with me. I know i cant tell anyone,because i don't even know why myself..people will judge me and thinks that everything I say is fucked up and disordered and they won't know what to say to me. I don't blame anyone for that. They are just friends, not someone who really understands me. It's not their job to make me feel better..
I wish that I wasn't so emotion and bad tempered of everything.Im learning to be nice..im trying...very very hard..I wish that my heart didn't jump into my throat every time something bad comes up. Something like the feeling that everyone takes me for granted.. Something that i don't understand why myself.. I worry so much about who I am and how other people see me. And that's lame. Because I don't want to care what people think about me, and in a sense I don't. But in specific situations I really do. I wish that I could just be me.
IÂ’ll leave the water running ,to hide the sound of my crying...
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The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
True love is like ghosts, which everyone talks about but few have seen. -
How do you know if you are in love? That is an important question, and it has been asked as long as the sexes have interacted. But as you have probably figured out, there is no such thing as a love formula, nothing to tell you absolutely that you are in love, or that you are not.
People may not remember what you said or what you did, but they will always remember the way you made them feel!!! Right?? I really wish to hear about how you guys out there feel about love?Do tell me about your love in the past or your dream for the future or issues and problems you have with your loved one. thank u =) -
cannot define love in any ways... just like i ask u wat is trust?? u know what it is but u cant explain... but love and trust have something in common... u have a choice.... u choose to love or not to love... u choose to trust or not to trust....
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Frenz think Im silly.. others think I'm stupid.
Stupid to hold on to the love that never can come back,
hold on to someone not worthy of my love.
They think it's a pity,
for me.. unable to face reality.
I've waited for so long,
for the one day I long to come,
so that he would be back in my arms, once again..
I keep waiting..
And he did come back..but i was betrayed again..
for I do not want to deny my feelings.
He hurt me deeply ,
but once loved me deeply too.
God please play me out not
I wish i never have met him
And everything in my life will be complete -
Water is precious.... don waste waterOriginally posted by nienie:I'm crying and I don't know why I'm shaking and I don't know why I'm angry and I don't know why I feel like there is so much going on, but I don't know what any of it is. I don't know what to do. I feel so sad or something, and part of me wants to pick things up and throw them, and another part of me wants to crawl into bed and just cry. But I hate crying. It gives me a headache and I feel like crap for the rest of the day. So, I'm trying to stop crying, which just makes my chest hurt ...
I don't want to feel this way. I don't want this feeling to be inside of me. I want to feel normal right now. I don't have anyone to talk to. I wish I had someone that I could talk to about this. I wish that an angel was there to listen to me and talk with me. I know i cant tell anyone,because i don't even know why myself..people will judge me and thinks that everything I say is fucked up and disordered and they won't know what to say to me. I don't blame anyone for that. They are just friends, not someone who really understands me. It's not their job to make me feel better..
I wish that I wasn't so emotion and bad tempered of everything.Im learning to be nice..im trying...very very hard..I wish that my heart didn't jump into my throat every time something bad comes up. Something like the feeling that everyone takes me for granted.. Something that i don't understand why myself.. I worry so much about who I am and how other people see me. And that's lame. Because I don't want to care what people think about me, and in a sense I don't. But in specific situations I really do. I wish that I could just be me.
IÂ’ll leave the water running ,to hide the sound of my crying... -
Wah liew.....b less practical...more compassionate can anot ?Originally posted by thhong22:Water is precious.... don waste water
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Originally posted by pipi & poot-poot:Wah liew.....b less practical...more compassionate can anot ?
being practical is wrong meh? -
Its not wrong 2 b practical.....but u cud b choosin a bad time 2 b practical....keke...Originally posted by thhong22: being practical is wrong meh?
nienie's startin anew yea ?
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nienie, dun worry. cry ur heart out. cry out loud. everything's gonna be fine. ur family is wif u. dun worry.
losing a guy is not losing the world unless he means the world to u.
losing him dun give u the rite to destroy urself. be firm n let him noe dat u r living better wif out him
easier said den done? i tot so too....
but do try.
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i guess i'm in the same boat as u...Originally posted by nienie:Frenz think Im silly.. others think I'm stupid.
Stupid to hold on to the love that never can come back,
hold on to someone not worthy of my love.
They think it's a pity,
for me.. unable to face reality.
I've waited for so long,
for the one day I long to come,
so that he would be back in my arms, once again..
I keep waiting..
And he did come back..but i was betrayed again..
for I do not want to deny my feelings.
He hurt me deeply ,
but once loved me deeply too.
God please play me out not
I wish i never have met him
And everything in my life will be complete
everyone thinks i'm stupid too...
becoz i refused to give up on a reln where my only gain from it was abuse and being looked down on...
becoz i hold on to things that are so uncertain and may not turn out well in the future...
BUT...
don't wish that u have nver met..instead..take it as a memory..learn from it and be a stronger person. life's just like that...often we are hurt, things don't go well, but good things will often come out suddenly. cry it all out, though it causes a headache, but after the headache clear, u'll definitely feel much better -
time will heel
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Originally posted by nienie:I'm crying and I don't know why I'm shaking and I don't know why I'm angry and I don't know why I feel like there is so much going on, but I don't know what any of it is. I don't know what to do. I feel so sad or something, and part of me wants to pick things up and throw them, and another part of me wants to crawl into bed and just cry. But I hate crying. It gives me a headache and I feel like crap for the rest of the day. So, I'm trying to stop crying, which just makes my chest hurt ...
I don't want to feel this way. I don't want this feeling to be inside of me. I want to feel normal right now. I don't have anyone to talk to. I wish I had someone that I could talk to about this. I wish that an angel was there to listen to me and talk with me. I know i cant tell anyone,because i don't even know why myself..people will judge me and thinks that everything I say is fucked up and disordered and they won't know what to say to me. I don't blame anyone for that. They are just friends, not someone who really understands me. It's not their job to make me feel better..
I wish that I wasn't so emotion and bad tempered of everything.Im learning to be nice..im trying...very very hard..I wish that my heart didn't jump into my throat every time something bad comes up. Something like the feeling that everyone takes me for granted.. Something that i don't understand why myself.. I worry so much about who I am and how other people see me. And that's lame. Because I don't want to care what people think about me, and in a sense I don't. But in specific situations I really do. I wish that I could just be me.
IÂ’ll leave the water running ,to hide the sound of my crying... i'm very serious. you seem to be suffering from severe depression. your friends can't help much with that. you need to tell a doctor all your problems who will refer you to a counseller and maybe a psychiatrist. you may also need some medication. this will take weeks or months to get over. do it now. are you sleeping and eating well? has your performance at school or work been affected? take very good care ok? -
Originally posted by Ah Ma:time will heel
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ger.... things are getting worse for mi... i juz dont want to hold on any longer... will be ending everything when i've got the chance... i had to admit, i regret as much as u do and we know when love had faded, it've faded...
at least we both know that we stil can decide for our own life for this once, right?
when we have to make a choice, we know what we want (not need)... we know what it will take and we know what we wil lose and what that will cost...
accept the implications of choosing... accept the fact that what we do will bring "something", and whatever that "something" is, we will be comfortable with it... It means you are the only one responsible and accountable for what happens....
reply mi and updates.... -
Its not wrong 2 b practical.....but u cud b choosin a bad time 2 b practical....keke...
nienie's startin anew yea ?
trying to start anew... but its damm hard!! -
nienie, dun worry. cry ur heart out. cry out loud. everything's gonna be fine. ur family is wif u. dun worry.
losing a guy is not losing the world unless he means the world to u.
losing him dun give u the rite to destroy urself. be firm n let him noe dat u r living better wif out him
easier said den done? i tot so too....
but do try.
i know... but some times it can be real hard... haiz... after crying for so much, it dosent help either... going crazy... is there other way for me to try?? -
guess i'm in the same boat as u...
everyone thinks i'm stupid too...
becoz i refused to give up on a reln where my only gain from it was abuse and being looked down on...
becoz i hold on to things that are so uncertain and may not turn out well in the future...
BUT...
don't wish that u have nver met..instead..take it as a memory..learn from it and be a stronger person. life's just like that...often we are hurt, things don't go well, but good things will often come out suddenly. cry it all out, though it causes a headache, but after the headache clear, u'll definitely feel much better
oh really... so sad to hear that... i'm sure u r suffering too... i know i'm stupid but wat can i do??? i do wish we had nv met... thankz anyway... hope u can feel better too... lifes still goes on...
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time will heel
i wish too... thankz...
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Picking up d pieces is startin anew....
Budden....i consider leavin everydin bhind, takes sheer determination 2 b free from it all as well.....
So no hurry for anydin....
Whole world's there for u 2 pick it up where u left off......so take ur time now -
i'm very serious. you seem to be suffering from severe depression. your friends can't help much with that. you need to tell a doctor all your problems who will refer you to a counseller and maybe a psychiatrist. you may also need some medication. this will take weeks or months to get over. do it now. are you sleeping and eating well? has your performance at school or work been affected? take very good care ok?
well my family n friends said so too... do i really have to see a doctor?? haiz... i cannot slp recently... cannot eat much either... currently not working n not slping... seems to be wasting my time away... haiz...
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ger.... things are getting worse for mi... i juz dont want to hold on any longer... will be ending everything when i've got the chance... i had to admit, i regret as much as u do and we know when love had faded, it've faded...
at least we both know that we stil can decide for our own life for this once, right?
when we have to make a choice, we know what we want (not need)... we know what it will take and we know what we wil lose and what that will cost...
accept the implications of choosing... accept the fact that what we do will bring "something", and whatever that "something" is, we will be comfortable with it... It means you are the only one responsible and accountable for what happens....
reply mi and updates....
well ger, me no going well too... haiz... things getting worst... anyway i had move hse le... n currently no internet at hm... so wun be online... when u see this msg gif me a cal k... then we update each other again... i jus can say that i think everythings is gonna be over real soon... i cannot take it anymore... haiz... he actually cal other gers to go to his hse last night... haiz... going crazy... god pls help!!!!!!!! -
Wah lau... ger ah, like dat u also can tahan... dont let him take u for granted lah... what right does he have to bring gers back to his house?? what is he trying to prove?? even if they didnt do anything, even if u trust him enough, that still doesnt gives him the right to bring ger to his house!!!
make up ur mind and life for urself... be grateful that now u can stil decide for ur own life... dont be his shadow... everyone changes everyday... i dont believe in waiting anymore... we have to be firm when we have to....k??
take care.... anything u beta give mi a call.. i'll update u again... -
at least there`s someone that cares for youOriginally posted by carpe diem jur:Wah lau... ger ah, like dat u also can tahan... dont let him take u for granted lah... what right does he have to bring gers back to his house?? what is he trying to prove?? even if they didnt do anything, even if u trust him enough, that still doesnt gives him the right to bring ger to his house!!!
make up ur mind and life for urself... be grateful that now u can stil decide for ur own life... dont be his shadow... everyone changes everyday... i dont believe in waiting anymore... we have to be firm when we have to....k??
take care.... anything u beta give mi a call.. i'll update u again...
if you had not realised,
just writhing all your sorrows here had already made u felt better in any sense
but seriously,
u could haf gotten more answers to your situation if you had posted it in Aunt Agony.
Since there`s already help for you
i`ll wish you all tyhe best in your way to recovery
nevertheless, always learn to love yourself too