i can't decide what my feelings are for you
to: __
I'm sure you'll forget.
but it doesn't matter. one more time out of every other makes no difference to me.
i want to die
a cold afternoon, in a cafe down somewhere
your smile caught my eye
and i was in love again
in the 18th summer of my life
haiz..., dont know why yesterday the mrt train so crowded. pack me like the sardine. then hor all the office ladies from raffles place really know how to choose.
the ban gala beside me they dont want to squeeze, die die also want to squeeze at me. in the end hor, my left, right, in front and back also girls.
the girl behind me also really too much, she use her neh neh to bang my back, nabel, i think my back ish the blue black already.
then after the mrt i took the fedder bus hor also very the pack, sigh. then one lady want to get down the bus. i move to one side already and give her a lot of space to move pass me already. then hor, she still use one of her arm and neh neh to bang my back again.
haiz, yesterday i ish really the 倒霉. i think after work i gonna go see chinese sensei to rub my the blue black on my back liao.
pay so low and no bonus some more still have to waste money see chinese sensei.
So many things I never understood before, I understand now. It has been an extremely painful and heartbreaking process and at times, I even thought that I've reached the end of my path. Thank you for the close friends who threw a lifeline to me. Thank you for all other friends who came to me at my darkest moments too, if only for a while, it was all very comforting. I think the storm has passed, and I have never been in darkness for this long and felt this desolate before but thank you that I know now that I am not alone, and I have never been alone.
It's winter now, and the trees, though barren, have exposed their beautiful, artistic bare form. Just like that drive up to Kinglake made us all stunned by how the totally burnt out charcoal-like tree trunks can actually sprout fresh green shoots, precious and very miraculous signs of life, you have shown me that I can now look back and put to rest the firestorm I had been weathering all these months and that tomorrow marks a new chapter in my life.
Tomorrow when the sun rises, I shall wake up to a new day. It's time to start building again. Sometimes I feel like crying when I realise that I'm back to Square One but remind me that my hard work had not been in vain and this is but a temporary setback. Out of the ashes, I will arise. I always have. I am strong enough...
I came clean with my feelings
I've no regret
but this won't change the result
its a third deja vu
You are the best, nobody else is.
My
To Aunt,
I wanted to say it, but I didnt. Because it really will be slapping you in the face if I do.
When you suggested that it was us kids wrong doings that chased off our father. You forgot to remember that we were only 13, 12 & 8 year old kids at that time.
And that mummy, from a total housewife, have to look for a job in a hurry to feed us kids where Papa cut the family off at least a year before we chased him off.
And oh......something else. Where were you, when you tried to 'reconcile' husband and wife, but have nothing to do with us kids?
And for that matter. You only find your 1st love and got married in your sixties.........what exactly did you think you were experienced enough to 'try to reconcile a husband and wife'?
To Papa,
You really forgotten my 13 year old words to you.
So here I repeat for you.
"You think you are being heartless throwing a housewife and kids into the pits. Well.....we are your children, you dont think genectics will not make us even more heartless?"
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On another note. At least what you cannot finish. I did. Make it so that my earlier words can be finished off with a nice big bang.
I miss you so much.
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to Miss Mellow,
i don't deserve to be with you.
you shouldn't have gotten involve in my life.
your're hurtin' while i'm havin' fun.
to: the ladies (you know who you are)
We had had good times, but we never bid each other a proper good bye.
Take care and hope you all are still having a rocking good time! ;-)
to her:
you've just thrown a 20kW light bulb into my life. i've never been happier.
To sis,
its okay now. I think I am settled back to how your old self should be treated.
I thank you for your hospitality & I thank you for your generousity.
Thank you for keeping me and showing me around USA which I do not deserve.
Time have come that I no longer should use you as a support pillar.
To: my IT Dept
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to a someone, you dont have to apologise,there wasnt any fault to start with.if someone were to apologise,it would be me,for being so irritating these days and thinking too much.apparently your answer is no,and i still view it as a yes,thanks to my blurred vision and loss of mind.ah well.no point forcing you to think the way i think.
Originally posted by av98m:To: my IT Dept
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To : ....
I am sorry. I tried. And I failed.
And I dont really wanna try again.
Please let it be.
To: xxxxxxx

Up yours,
Fudgie.
Oh, and to yyyyy......
........WHERE IS MY MONEY?!?!?! 
to clarice,
hi clarice.....
love, theme
To my bed & pillow,
How I miss the 2 of you ![]()
I can't wait for work to end so that I can lie on both of you again
Love,
Pinky
To: xxxxx.....
ANSWER THE ##%$*# PHONE, YOU #$%%# LAZYBUMS!!!!!!!!!!! 
Just to let you know R**f**ld,
Lis was asking about you just now. She believes you are dead.
I told her no. I've seen you recently and you definitely arent dead.
But if you are, then good for you. At least you are now in a better place, with prettier angels or dominatrixes.....at the very least.