Choked. ...........
Sometimes I get that feeling.
I have sooo much to say.... BUT, I do not want to have a verbal diarrhoea and release everything onto/into this post so I am going to pick, carefully, and ration the stuff I'm gonna say. Please excuse all the nonsense you are about to read. (Ok, some of it)
A good friend of mine called me this morning (when I was still deep in my sleep) crying so bitterly on my cellhpone. Apparently, he just quarrel with his girlfriend. He's the commitment-phobic type. Sigh. He was so hurt. After putting in so much effort in the relationship, it just simply went down the drain. I feel so bad and this make me ponder once again upon myselfÂ…sighÂ…..
HMMM Â….I thought to myself. *the dating gameÂ…the commitmentÂ…..the love Â…Â…the painÂ….-Its tough. So, I've devised a few golden rules to abide by :-
Ah Cind 10 Golden Rules1. Never fall in love
-can be done
2. Never trust that person
-or let your guard down at anytime
3. Never give (up) too much of yourself
-Or you'll end up very hurt
4. Never make future plans
-cos none of it will materialise
5. Do not be swayed by sweeping statements
-They sound nice but most of it is just not true
6. Always protect yourself first
-DEFENSE, DEFENSE, DEFENSE
7. Do not be so honest/upfront with your feelings (to the commitment-phobe)
-in fact to all !
8. Always look forward to a healthy and hearty Friendship towards opposite sex
- tough but its important!!
9. Never, NeverÂ…..Never jump into a relationship just cos I am lonely!!
- nahÂ….my friends are too huge and wide in circles and nation wide 
10. If all else failed!!
- Evacuate the countryÂ…Â…
Or Â…Â…..Commit suicide 
Well, that about sums up my take on relationships. The constant feeling of wanting and emptiness in the relationship for devoted pairsÂ….
Pathetic is the word I use....
And to add salt to the wounds I've already received and the number of bad things I've heard, I got wind that some my recent (I think) actions have been misrepresented and misinterpreted. It's so funny how people see what they wanna see. I guess right now,
nothing and nobody matters to me except for the few that know for a fact that
I care about them and
I am simply a nice person to get along withÂ…...
Everything else is empty and care-less to meÂ…..Just Remember,
everything is dispensible. Including me.
Sigh. There have been some other not very nice things that have transpired lately but I shall not dwell on them.
Life's too short to stay miserable right.Talk about being an optimist.
Mich always tells me, "You cannot change what has happened but you can ALWAYS control the way you react to it."
I have so much to learn.Thank you Bloggie.....