Patience... Tenacity... Perseverance...
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Haiz... these days i've been getting less and less patient. i get work out easily; i blew things up whenever there's a certain kind of pressures taking place; and i feel restless and then lethargic after not getting enuff sleep due to my duties in camp..
ever since the start of NDP preparations, i've became a partially changed person with less tolerance. i know that this has affected rainee quite a bit and she has to take a number of of my nonsense. but then, i realised that no matter how hard i try to loose this bad part of me, it just won't do.. i prayed to God for guidance and strength but then the road has been quite hard for me.
i dun want to be the kind of man that is growing towards MCP-ness. neither do i want to become someone who loses temper easily when faced with slight pressures.. i really am lost now.
and i just want to use this space here to express all my feelings right now. deep down i feel really convicted that shouldn't be like this. but then, i'm still unsure of how to get started. -
Its ok to break under pressure... at least you are letting some of it out and not keeping it bottled up inside.. well as long as you are aware that you might hurting rainee or others with your outbursts then I guess thats forgivable..
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i feel bad though.. and everytime i sort of wanna vent my anger maybe could be due to my work pressures, my personal life, or even in the games we're currently playing... i just feel really terrible after the whole thing and even if rainee doesn't say anything, i felt sad. and part of me wanted to do something about it but just don't know how...
if it's for any other girls, they would have dumped me manz. i'm quite lost now. -
before i return to camp after recovering from my illness April this year, i was happy, humorous and full of life. i dun want to lose that. but then i begin to see that part of it is missing in me now ever since i go back to my unit.
i just dun want this to affect me so much which would affect my r/s with rainee as well..
she may be tolerating... but everyone's got a limit. -
I understand that you are under a lot of pressure, I am under a lot of pressure too, so maybe I haven't been spending too much time with you...sorry if you feel neglected or anything like dat hun...
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dear, thx.. i just need some mutual support. and let's support each other during these times of pressures..
i believe it will stretches our limits and strengthen us in the near future. -
there are up and down.....why take things so seriously...take a step back, relax, take a look at thing from another angle. You wont know what you have missed out until you lost it.
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it's just NS.. u'll b fine after it..
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Can understand. NS pressure and stress is that stifling. Everyday when you are in camp, you don't know what kind of arrows you will get. Sometimes, some things are not what you can control and you become a scapegoat for it.
After some time, a good day meant you passed the day without any troubles. There's no happiness, only avoiding unhappiness.
At least now the service is 2 years(or 1 year 10 months).
Try keep thinking of your ORD date. When it's time to clear leave or even better, have to pass your duties to someone else, you'll feel really free and released. -
hey emperor, cheer up ok?? learn to appreciate a new day, appreciate rainee jie more... learn to be grateful for wad you have.. and then maybe you wun feel so bad... and whatever it is, you'll always have this bunch of nice, reliable listening ears at SB heaven.
rainee jie... good luck... -
I learn a new saying yesterday:
"Im not chauvinist, Im elite"
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oh yeah..to emperor... u just need R&R.
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wats R n R?Originally posted by alexkusu:oh yeah..to emperor... u just need R&R. -
Rest & RelaxOriginally posted by rainee:wats R n R? -
give yourself some time off...it takes time
just b less angry and not to be harsh on yourself...
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Luckily he is going to ORD soon...around 3 more months then no more this kinda life for him le
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sweetie will be very happy to get the stuff I am going to send him tomorrow...awww~!
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rainee jie always says things to make me feel like having a guy to love also...Originally posted by rainee:sweetie will be very happy to get the stuff I am going to send him tomorrow...awww~! -
hehe...Originally posted by starblue:rainee jie always says things to make me feel like having a guy to love also...
it is actually a great thing to be able to love and dote on someone...
mebbe just my maternal instinct -
Your significant other better take note of this.Originally posted by rainee:hehe...
it is actually a great thing to be able to love and dote on someone...
mebbe just my maternal instinct
The nagging is about to begin. -
Originally posted by rainee:hehe...
it is actually a great thing to be able to love and dote on someone...
mebbe just my maternal instinct see?? rainee jie always makes me feel like doing the same thing... dun liddat lah... i still want to be blissfully single for a while more... scally later i become those sad people in AA wor.. -
Yes la yes laOriginally posted by charlize:Your significant other better take note of this.
The nagging is about to begin.
you can read my mind so well
you must be me -
no risk, no gainOriginally posted by starblue: see?? rainee jie always makes me feel like doing the same thing... dun liddat lah... i still want to be blissfully single for a while more... scally later i become those sad people in AA wor..
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Spare a thought for singles..use the pm functionOriginally posted by rainee:sweetie will be very happy to get the stuff I am going to send him tomorrow...awww~! 
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It's fun talking to your own clone, yeah?Originally posted by rainee:Yes la yes la
you can read my mind so well
you must be me