Learn manual one. Pass already can drive manual or auto. One stone kill two birds.

manual transmission also not that hard. Just relax on the clutch, feel the biting point, step accelarator gently, the car will be moving slowly, just like riding a bicycle.
If engine stall, never mind cause not your car. Lift handbrake handle, pressed clutch, move gear to neutral and start the engine again.......
After awhile, you will get the hang of it. And i believe that you dun even need to see the gearbox to see wat gear you're in.
Have some confidence on yourself

Cheers, you have my support.