Originally posted by caramon:
MY gf of 6 years broke up wif me on the 25th May, saying she wanted to be alone. I was living in hell for 3 weeks before she agreed to patch up wif me on the 10th Apr. I was so happy I could jump and pluck the moon down for her if she asked.
But ALAS, she broke off wif me again on the 14th Apr, she even wrote down her feelings on a piece of paper. I'll take a few extracts from the letter:
- during these few days that we're together, I feel that I really can't bring myself to love you, there's no feeling towards you at all.
- I am not ready to settle down at 23, and you are not the guy now to consider settling down wif. You are no longer the guy I love.
- I'm still young and there's a long way ahead of me to walk. I can't bring myself to plan my future wif you.
- I wish that you'll stop sms me, call me or look me up. I need a peace of mind, a clear mind.
- I wanna say sorry for the past few days that I've given you flase hope, for holding on and thinking far with me.
We had an hour long talk last night, she sounded happy, relaxed, excited at the new found single-dom. Though she admitted she loved me alot alot, but it was the past, the feeling has faded. I almost cried out, but I told myself not to cry infront of her. She assured me and my uncle that there's no 3rd party. She just want to be alone. Why the sudden change? I don't understand.
She let our r/s of 6 years go so easily! I really love her very much and I really feel like it's end of world now. I want to die, but I can't. I haf no mood for anything now. No one has ever made me so miserable b4, the 3 weeks of tears I've shed are more than wat I've cried when I was still young. This fall is so great, I don't think I'll be able to get up. The scar is so deep, I won't accept another.
I don't her to be owned by other ppl, other guys. I want her to be mine alone only. I even joked to her that if ever she's married to another guy and she invites me to her wedding, I'll sing Eason Chan's Hun Li De Zhu Fu. I can't imagine other guys, holding her hand, kiss her cheeks, etc. I'll go MAD. I think I'll kill the guy, kill her then kill myself. I'm serious..
There's this girl I'm very close to all along, during the 3weeks, I confided in her most of the time. She had hinted that she'll be wif me if I asked. I feel she just wanted to help me forget her. All the more I can't accept her, I can't bear to let my ex go, I don't want to hurt this good friend of mine. I've become self protected, I'm afraid I'll be hurt a 2nd time.
She flew off to China this morning 10am for a week long holiday wif her sister. Women can be so heartless ya? After hurting someone she's loved so long, still can go enjoy...
Don't think that she is heartless. She may have consider things through very thoroughly before making this decision.