i hate myself..
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i hate myself for being a failure in everything i do.. in relationship or at work.. things dun seems to go smoothly when i was 14..
i started playing truant in school.. then after i graduated from sec sch went on to ite after 3 months dun wan to study wan to go work n drop out of sch.. looked for so long n finally got a job.. i'm happy but it didn't last long.. it didn't last for even a month.. then secon job also didn't last for a month.. i duno wat happened to mi.. now i feel like finding a job again.. but so afraid that i will quit shorter then 1 month again.. i feel like taking some courses that i like but i dun have the courage to do that.. (i duno y i dun have courage.. i feel so weird now..)
for relationship i have been quarreling with my bf since this year.. i said sorry to him everytime the quarrels end n he say he didn't blame mi cos he know how i feel lately.. he didn't blame mi but i blame everything on myself.. i feel that i'm so selfish that i onli think of myself n not him.. i realli feel like ending this relationship but i canot bear to do so.. i rate myself as a useless person.. simple things also dun have the courage to do.. now i reali feel like dying..
since sec sch whenever my parents force mi to go to sch i would take any pills that i find at home.. panadols, flu pills wateva i can find.. then after taking all the pills i will feel very drowsy then fall into a deep sleep.. then the next time i wake up i feel better.. but now is whenever i'm stressed i would immediately think of taking the pills again.. i noe it will damage my liver but sometimes i jus dun bother.. if i dun take pills i would go sentosa alone n look at the sea.. after that i feel better but not as good as taking pills.. last time i used to cut myself.. i'm so confused to wat i wan to do now.. my mind is blank.. is there anything worng with mi?
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dont worry be happy.
this sat go chiong want or not? devil/momo/china black..? u choose! -
i dun chiong..Originally posted by kingofbeholder:dont worry be happy.
this sat go chiong want or not? devil/momo/china black..? u choose!
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Originally posted by kingofbeholder:dont worry be happy.
this sat go chiong want or not? devil/momo/china black..? u choose!
Its only temporary.. -
wat u mean temporary?Originally posted by stellazio:
Its only temporary.. -
u need to release your stressness.Originally posted by BaBy_JaP_WaWa:i dun chiong..
dance till you drop and you be fine next day.
post in this forum dont help you much. -
if every week chiong one(or few) time, mean "everlasting"Originally posted by stellazio:
Its only temporary.. -
think u better find a course to do, so your life is more normalised, and also next time you can find a proper job.
what about beautician course, or hairdressing, or secretariat course although you might need some quailfications to do a secretariat course.
it is quite normal to feel lost at this age. hope you'll find your way soon. best of luck.
oh, maybe a design course, you draw very well so must be a very creative person
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go kill yourself
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must have determination in what ever you do.
set goals for yourself and achieved it by doing it
tml will be a better day -
job-hopping is common nowadays,take your time to choose.Courses are just to upgrade oneself,take ur time to choose the rite 1.As for ur bgr,don't end it so quickly,think of the gd times and u got to know,some ppl out there like me 1 2 have a bgr also have difficulty,so do treasure it.Dying is a coward way to escape from reality and a selfish way to make ur living ones cry for u painfully.Stop taking those pills for ur own health,if not for ur bf sake.U know he'll be worried if he noes tis.U say last time u used to cut myself,its already LAST TIME.So jus 4get the unhapi times.Start everything anew.There isn't anything wrong with u,u r jus pressurising urself for wanting urself to be betta.tCOriginally posted by BaBy_JaP_WaWa:i hate myself for being a failure in everything i do.. in relationship or at work.. things dun seems to go smoothly when i was 14..
i started playing truant in school.. then after i graduated from sec sch went on to ite after 3 months dun wan to study wan to go work n drop out of sch.. looked for so long n finally got a job.. i'm happy but it didn't last long.. it didn't last for even a month.. then secon job also didn't last for a month.. i duno wat happened to mi.. now i feel like finding a job again.. but so afraid that i will quit shorter then 1 month again.. i feel like taking some courses that i like but i dun have the courage to do that.. (i duno y i dun have courage.. i feel so weird now..)
for relationship i have been quarreling with my bf since this year.. i said sorry to him everytime the quarrels end n he say he didn't blame mi cos he know how i feel lately.. he didn't blame mi but i blame everything on myself.. i feel that i'm so selfish that i onli think of myself n not him.. i realli feel like ending this relationship but i canot bear to do so.. i rate myself as a useless person.. simple things also dun have the courage to do.. now i reali feel like dying..
since sec sch whenever my parents force mi to go to sch i would take any pills that i find at home.. panadols, flu pills wateva i can find.. then after taking all the pills i will feel very drowsy then fall into a deep sleep.. then the next time i wake up i feel better.. but now is whenever i'm stressed i would immediately think of taking the pills again.. i noe it will damage my liver but sometimes i jus dun bother.. if i dun take pills i would go sentosa alone n look at the sea.. after that i feel better but not as good as taking pills.. last time i used to cut myself.. i'm so confused to wat i wan to do now.. my mind is blank.. is there anything worng with mi? -
Originally posted by crazy monkey:go kill yourself
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set a goal to yourself, every weekend must chiong must spend money.
then you push urself to work hard to earn that money. uncle me 28year old already still chiong 2 time per month.
bo bian , who call me dont have family burden -
*pats* just wanna let u know that despite all that have happened, u r NOT a failure.. some people just lack the calibre in some aspects...for eg. ur studies.. bud im sure if u continue to discover urself more...you'll eventually find a job/an interest that u like to do. what u just lack now is moral n emotional support... which im sure ur bf will be there to give u..
lackly, please drop the idea of taking pills ya (even though it makes u sleepy?) coz its really very harmful n you'll never know what may happen. =) take good care and love urself more, girl. -
she does not chiong amd she stae it clearly liao. Why do you keep forcing her.
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your houseOriginally posted by kingofbeholder:dont worry be happy.
this sat go chiong want or not? devil/momo/china black..? u choose! -
everything must try what....if she choing maybe got motivation?....Originally posted by mistyblue:she does not chiong amd she stae it clearly liao. Why do you keep forcing her.
So...the more u try the more u know...
who knows she choing she might have courage to learn new stuff and find new jobs and have a better attitude in her work and studies?
she must realise she got a purpose to live...
and must thing of those who support her....to not disapoint them and have a positive attitude
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u are in depression..go seek professional help
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Oh well....Life is a journey of discovery....
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no worries..
will be a better person..
wiser ..
Read more books ..
trust me ..
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seriously, you need to seek professional help..
try the line gorby gave to you...
here, we can only listen and try to help out in our amaturish ways...
maybe, stop thinking about running away from things and work at them.. things may seem overwhelming but try to fix them slowly...
you can start by putting away the pills.. and stop cutting yourself
then whatever comes, take a few deep breaths, then start writing down the problems.. analyse it... if it is difficult, try asking close friends to help.. cut it down to managable pieces and solve each piece...
soon that problem will be solved piece by piece
continue with whatever comes...
and a hopefully, you start to stop hating yourself and one day (hopefully soon) start to love yourself
hang in there and be well yah? -
as ace ventura would say "loooo hoo hoo hooo zerrr"Originally posted by BaBy_JaP_WaWa:i hate myself for being a failure in everything i do.. in relationship or at work.. things dun seems to go smoothly when i was 14..
i started playing truant in school.. then after i graduated from sec sch went on to ite after 3 months dun wan to study wan to go work n drop out of sch.. looked for so long n finally got a job.. i'm happy but it didn't last long.. it didn't last for even a month.. then secon job also didn't last for a month.. i duno wat happened to mi.. now i feel like finding a job again.. but so afraid that i will quit shorter then 1 month again.. i feel like taking some courses that i like but i dun have the courage to do that.. (i duno y i dun have courage.. i feel so weird now..)
for relationship i have been quarreling with my bf since this year.. i said sorry to him everytime the quarrels end n he say he didn't blame mi cos he know how i feel lately.. he didn't blame mi but i blame everything on myself.. i feel that i'm so selfish that i onli think of myself n not him.. i realli feel like ending this relationship but i canot bear to do so.. i rate myself as a useless person.. simple things also dun have the courage to do.. now i reali feel like dying..
since sec sch whenever my parents force mi to go to sch i would take any pills that i find at home.. panadols, flu pills wateva i can find.. then after taking all the pills i will feel very drowsy then fall into a deep sleep.. then the next time i wake up i feel better.. but now is whenever i'm stressed i would immediately think of taking the pills again.. i noe it will damage my liver but sometimes i jus dun bother.. if i dun take pills i would go sentosa alone n look at the sea.. after that i feel better but not as good as taking pills.. last time i used to cut myself.. i'm so confused to wat i wan to do now.. my mind is blank.. is there anything worng with mi? -
u are in depression..go seek professional help
u sure? i duno abt mi having depression.. -
maybe not depression?
maybe you are just stressed by things happening around you and you're kinda feeling lost?
everyone gets a little lost sometimes..
as to the things you feel you have to do, make a decision, take a few deep breaths, steel yourself and stick with that decision you've made...
again, hopefully, you'll start to find yourself and that "courage" you say you lack..
slowly slowly..