From : a so call friend
Sent : Tuesday, September 26, 2006 10:38 PM
To : the friend
FIREND,
from the looks of things seems that you're not too happy.
well, i've seen on your msn that your're in us. i am happy for you. because that's all you ever wanted to do for the longest time. you can say and think what you want. that's the truth.
when i saw you coming online i tried to msn you. i have spent some time with you and i know the reaction you'll give. if i am not a friend, why would i even want to do that, knowing the short temper that you have and knowing the things you'd say?
the truth is that things have not been too rosy even since the last time we met at compass point when i passed you your spare key.
whatever i have now is all given. this year alone, i had to move 3 times. unlike your situation, i was driven out by my own people whom i have given my best. and till today, i am still paying for the thousands owing by them. you know it. you've seen the letters. put yourself in my shoes, how would you have handled this?
my days have been spent trying to pay off the loans as best i can and keeping my sanity at the same time. i do not have a wide social circle at alll. and you know that. most of the people i know are your friends to start with. i do not have the luxury of keeping the company of friends as much as i would like.
but i have found God. and in these bad times He is the One Whom is keeping me going. my pocket may be thin, but my faith is as strong as ever.
you know me as a sincere person. especially in the times with your mother, i tried my best to make the situation as best as i can and stay as long as i can so you'll not be alone with her. it was only when you decided to move on that i shifted. we both spoke about this and you did tell me to find another place because of the situation. you were on my bed and crying. i stayed because even though i could not do anything, you needn't have to go through it alone.
in anycase, i think your anger and disappointment may have gotten the better of you. if you stiill think that i am not a true friend because i did not contact you as often, i can tell you my friendship with you has always been direct and blunt. you know that as well as anyone. between us, there was never a time when we counted beans. whatever we had we shared, although you shared more. and i am grateful for that.
if you choose to think that i am who you make me out to be, i have tried to clarify. i already know the reaction you'll give. as a friend, all i can say is not to be angry for too long. my family whom i have loved have abandoned me with the things they have enjoyed at my expense. imagine if i maintain that anger, i would have no peace. right now, for me, it's all about moving on and not letting my anger hold me back. i've learnt to accept things.
i sincerely hope you'll find what you're looking for there. i know for a fact there's much experiences and oppurtunities over there. and i wish you peace more than anything.
so call friend
This guy, I know him for a while.
He is those sort that cannot start any conversation with any friend without some form of aggravation on other parties part..
No one is Allowed to grumble at him or anything. Even in a friendly manner.
I had merely send him a testimonial on friendster with a "Some friend he is, never even borther to catch up with a Hi! Humpfft humpfft..."
Ga Na SAI!
But truth be said, he really is quite a jackazz in real life. And him saying what he says. And me knowing his past. And the fact that his response is most likely to try to tell me to keep quiet if his current squeeze were to question me and ask me about his past and lousy personality.
He abuses better when others didnt know him. I know his tactic. He goes around isolating a person, then he treats her badly, and then he blames it on her and make her feel bad and reliant on him.
And when eventually the female realises the trick and learn to talk to people, that guy will undoubtedly be dumped again. And he will go around to blame other people.
