... NS .. how should i say ... i put up a topic here before.. saying iwant to chiong my way thru ns .4 months ago ... now i finish my bmt... if given me another chance .. i will say i will do the same and put in more effort...
now i am a private just pass out from bmtc .. 2 more days i will know where will be my new vocation... i hope i can get into something interesting.. but due to i am from the obese batch( under obe) meaning the heaviest group i doubt i can go anywhere near ocs or sispec as i still fail my ippt in my 4 month course..
16 weeks i learn alot of things so much ranging for how to survive how to endure, how to help one another...so much so much ..
but nothing starts of easily .. i have people disliking me... reason i dont know how to keng... many seem to say me behind my back .. why try so hard .. u wont get to any where .. there soon i see many people in and out of ns..different people have different mind set.. in the end some people does more get less .. some people does less get more..
People who are less chao keng get more tekan while people who are kenging sit behind and watch us suffer.. sometimes i asked myself, if it is fair?...
but i guess it is fair.. i learn thru so much things thru all those suffering.. while the rest may not even know how to survive if they are throw in to worst situation,... soon many started to OOC certainly there is some people who are out of couse unwillingly like they have injuries and stop them from carry on...
.. and we get less of the problem .. as the enduring ones are staying behind..
but still some of those still manage to get thru without been send out of course...
army train me to be different.. think more... learn to endure more...
and create many many first time into my life..
i was so fat that i cannt even run ...used to be running 2.4 in 20 mins.. now i can run in 12 mins ..which i never expected myself to do it.. ( infact i dont see that i was practicing much running but it turn out that i can run faster and faster) ..
i cannt do a single pull up ... now i can manage to pull up to 4 pull ups...
i used to be weight at 110kg and i lost 20 kg in there too just in 16 weeks...
20 kg.. how heavy .. try to get two packs of 10 kg rice u will know...
that is the life i never used to have .. now i am more confindence already ... more happy in some sense about my life.. but this is only the beginning...
soon i will be posted to my new unit.. i hope it is something that can help me and bring a even better me ...
dont try to escape nothing there to be fear of.. what is the fear factor .. ns is just only a small fiction of your life...