Singularity
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The let me cry.
Let all that end end...
I too have nothing to say
Thanks for the dream, ling.
Goodbye... -
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Start - October 6 2000
End - Wednesday January 31 2001 5.41pm
All that glitters in my eyes are a pair of concentrated emotions, filled with past joy, old quarrels, warm hugs, hot kisses, present desolation, injustice, sadness, despair, all form together so concentrated but never to leave the corner of my eyes.
For have I forgotten what is it like to cry?
For have I been strong enough to swallow it down?
For have I pushed it so far back into my own emotional backyard that it never seem to hurt that much?
For now I fear, not of where I shall go nor what I shall do.
Fear, of the uncontrollable guilt pangs that will hold on to me like a mad dog, clinging on to me and ever growing, suffocating my every breath, taking my life away and leaving me only a shadow so thin, all it can do is desipate.
Fear, of losing my mind, as I anticipate the growing of the pain with so much soul and emotion that I will get the fits as it swallows me down as I tunneled into, ever falling into the hell that was made by me, to me, and, will have only me. -
wei!!!..dun tell meu got dumped by that rich ger....
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I shan't push it back, whats healthy and whats strong.
I can never cry enough, and it makes me weak.
I'll never cry again, and it'll make me mad.
Injustice, die and never know why.
Desolation, die and know no one will ever cry.
Dispair, die and felt dead.
Oh God, You shall banish me to Hell.
The one I kept it from You because of Your Awe, Your Strength, Your Glory.
Banish me because I will never look up.
Banish me because I will never feel.
Banish me because I will never see.
Banish me bacause I will never love.
Flowers are no beautiful.
Sky is limited.
Wind is never cool.
Sun rains.
Water taste of dust.
I stab my eyes with broken bowls, offering my life, my tormented soul, my crazy hell infested demonic mind for your digust.
I drag the ceramic knife down, opening myself to Your Glory.
I pull my face away, for I face Your power with my skinless self.
I maimed myself, because I need the pain, to feel around.
I lie down and fall and fall and fall. -
She sounds strong now.
Does she sound not?
Strangers always sound strong when they talk about.
She'll learn.
She'll learn.
She'll learn.
She'll learn.
She'll learn.
She'll learn.
She'll learn.
She'll learn.
She'll learn.
She'll learn.
She'll learn.
She'll learn.
Somehow I know, if I make this through You will throw a peach on my lap.
Somehow I know, what You are trying hard to teach.
Somehow I know, that though You are inside me telling my this little shit of mine isn't a shit to big problems.
Somehow I tried, to talk to you again.
Somehow I tried, to do whatever I can.
Somehow I tried, to stay from You and find my own strength.
Somehow I realised, circles I've walked will bring me back.
Somehow
Somehow
Somehow
Somehow
Somehow
Somehow
Somehow -
x 100
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Never say I love you if you dun really care.
Never talk of feelings if they aren't really there.
Never say forever if you ever plan to part. -
Why the sudden postings?Forever?Somehing went wrong?Cheer up,eheh
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Theory Of Relativity
Eating a lot of good food will make 1 hour seem like 5 minutes while eating lotsa horrigible cooked veggies will make 5 minutes seem like 1 hour
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