Venting out..
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Haha.. After reading the few post up here in sgforums.. I feel tat my prob is v insignficant.. Yet.. I jus feel so frustrated.. I need a vent to let out!
Now working for abt a year le.. In a clinic as a nurse..
I reali dunno why but i feel extremely unhappy.. Esp each time it's a sun.. I got the sun blues.. I jus feel so down that the nx dae is mon & i got to go work.. & up crying in my bf arms..
Jus hate the feelin so much tat i could change from totally enjoying in the dae time to a sunken lifeless person.. I can't slp.. coz i dun wan the nite to end..
This is my 1st job.. I've no experience anywhere at all.. Thus.. I'm always so afraid of my boss.. Speak to her v softly.. Haha..
But thing is.. She tends to "bully" mi.. Mayb i more kid & one of the youngest in the clinic.. My other colleague.. She is a year older than mi.. But she is more streetwise and have worked b4 abt 4 years.. So the way she talk is much more mature than mi.. Boss all talk to them show then respect..
Whenever she speaks to mi.. Not all the time.. But most of the time she is the harshest to mi.. N alot of things pick on mi.. Mayb coz i'm the nurse there.. Gonna tampa become her personal assistance as well..
There is alot of work for mi to handle.. From clinical.. sometimes personal..
I dunno.. Mayb to compare with alot others.. This stress is v minimal.. trivial.. To mi.. I jus hate the fact that my work keep piling.. & i can't seems to do finish anythin! Once i mx to complete anythin.. The nx thing jus pile up again..
It feds mi up even more that when i'm right up to my neck.. My other colleague.. She is an optometrist.. sorry if i got the spellin wrong..
Her main scope is to check eye..
Other than tat.. Jus help out with appointment taking, answering the phone.. tat's all.. mi n the recept we are up to our neck briming with work.. she jus sit there stare at her nails.. urgh!!!
And u noe the biasness abt my boss??
My colleague can ask her the same thing tat i ask her.. the result will come out totally different..
eg, if there is an insurance form to fill up & patient wants it immediately.. She will give mi tat kinda face and ask.. is it urgent? of coz it is!! If not why would i wan to interrupt her inbetween counsultations??
My colleague go in.. no prob.. jus fill it up..
Sometimes i tell her.. She will say i say it at the wrong time. shld have told her at the end of clinic.. If i din tell her, she will say u shld have said it inbetween!!
I'm reali lost.. I dunno wat is the right thing and time to say wat i'm supposed to say!!
The latest incident.. She asked mi to check out some medicine cost for her..
asked mi to call all the drug distributor.. There is a drug guide on her desk.. and i packed her room, i jus kept it to its originalposition..
called the usual suppliers we ordered from.. Got hell from her coz i didn use the drug guide..Yeah.. i was silly but i reali din think abt it!
All i could ans was tat it was on your desk, u din pass it to mi..
She always think i'm reali free i duno why..
Each time i heard her call my name.. my heart reali sank.. and i will be like.. oh shit.. wat have i done this time?? -
We each have our own duties to cover..
Basically i'm bao ka liao.. From drugs to low stock which i have to monitor.. Monitorin some special eye appt in eye center.. All surgery under mi.. Plus the washin of instruments.. even the stupid fridge coz it has some drugs in it become my responsibility to pack.. all the stuff that need to be wrapped like cotton balls, wools.. guaze.. etc.. So many small little items..
If there is time, i dun mind.. thing is.. there isn much time.. gonna balance btw ur paper work and the manual stuff..
When patient fail to turn up b4 their surgery date for an appt, it became my fault coz i failed to monitor.. Yeah.. My fault.. i tot tat at least they have the decency to call to cancel the surgery if they dun wan it.. jus keep quiet till i realise the week of the op when i wan to do prep..
I'm jus so tired..
Other plp expect u i shld say mi to noe all the job.. Alot of other job supposely the optometrist shld do become my duty durin clinic too.. takin of the eye ball photos.. using a machine to check out visual field.. I'm not trained at all in this!
YET!! The optometrist who is trained in this.. onli noe the theory but have never ever done it b4 in work!!!!
I'm expected to noe counter work.. TAt is our receptionist job..How all the billing is done, etc.. I'm jus short of helpin out to chase debts.. Settle petty cash & doin small account..
I'm also expected to noe how to check the glasses power.. Do a basic vision check on the patient when optometrist is alone.
Noe how to do filing and where all the files are when the person in charge in not around.. PRactically everything!!!!
Packing the boss room is either mi or the clinic assistant.. of coz no one else helps..
I'm the onli one expected to noe everybody's duty but no one noes abt mine!!!!
Come anythin to surgery.. Oh.. I will put you to my staff nurse..
Abt drugs, all also come to mi.. Worst.. When the stock supply is low.. There are some medication which i put in other cabinet out of the usual place coz of space constriction..
Plp could say tat.. I'm not in charge of drugs.. Its ur duty to top up mah.. REcept said tat.. And she will say.. I dunno how to do vision check. IT's not expected of mi. I need to stay at counter can already..
Okie.. to give credit.. she sometimes help out with puttin of eye drops when clinic is short handed..
So gam.. I suddenly on m.c.. Of coz not i choose the date!! I Haven finish checkin out the drugs prices for my boss coz on sat.. most are close..
But i did put in all the company and tel no in it.. so the job is half done.. onli need to ask the cost, any bonus..
for the 2 days i was sick.. they finally got a taste.. the boss hunt them.. alot of demands... wants to noe how many tab in a box.. packing.. country of origins.. blah blah blah..
they got irriated with mi.. sorta of lah.. of coz they dun say out aloud.. but could tell from their attitude lik it is my fault.. told mi u choose the wrong dae to mc ah.. i jus quiet.. -
Back to my boss..
There was this once i stayed back till abt 7pm. offical time is 5.30.. okie.. i'm not paid overtime!!
But coz we normally work past our office hrs.. we tak it as time off when there is no clinic runnin.. eg.. we could go back earlier when no noon clinic..
i was headache abt the stock coz not tally and jus implement a new system.. there was no time to do with full runnin of clinic.. plus i need submit the list of things my colleague is supposed to key into the system.. etc..
The best time was to stay back.. when i jus told her i'm goin off.. our usual routine.. she said.. why u so late still haven go back?
Oh. no lah.. i need to finish off the stock take coz no time le.. she had the cheek to say tat.. "muz be u tak time off at the wrong time that why no time to do!!!"
I was like.. i jus did it yest!! on a mon.. i stayed back on tues.. She goin on leave by fri.. which i need it done by then!!! wed , thurs, whole dae occupied..
sorry for the long post.. goin kena..
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this has been going on for 1 year?
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dun be sad lah. First job, take everything positively. More work given to you, take it as training. Nonsense give to you, take it as development. I can say I am doing well in my second job because of all the crap i got in my very first job. You learn and learn and absorb and absorb, and one day when you learnt all that you need, you get all the experience you need, LEAVE. But for now, if it has not come to a point where you will die from all these nonsense, bear with it, because you gonna come out better one day.
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quit
or compain to the manpower thingy -
quit lor...
can always change new environment... -
You sounded like one of my friend..
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just tender ur resignation....no one can stop u
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ya, tender ur resignation cos im sure u wont dare to oppose her in any case.
i think maybe u're soft by nature.
change a new job and make sure ple dun take u for granted.
or if u dare, just voice out the next time she aims u. -
Please lor... if you are like that, better find someone rich and marry him... so you can just sleep all day at home.
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Take it as a prsonal challenge. The wider your job scope, the greater your opportunity to show whay you are capable of. Rather than look upon more work as a tougher job, look upon it as an opportunity to learn and to express yourself. A change of mindsey and attitude does wonders. Dun compare yourself with your colleague or anyone else for that matter coz it's your life and yours alone. Go at your own pace.
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How long have you been on the job? The first 3 months usually mean probation and sh*t duties. 5 months onwards and if you are still filling forms, calling suppliers, packing pills, counting stock and making phone calls, then it's time to move on because there is nothing in the clinic for you to learn (given you're a nurse).
Life is too short and you're probably too young for a 4 wall clinic with overweight women past their prime who only know how to put you down. Especially so if there's zero knowledge they're going to impart.
Would you be better off doing volunteer work overseas, earn little money for a while and coming back with some experience in actual field work? -
yo ahkico finally u have resurface again haha
aiya work is like that de, but when u get even more senior u can abuse ur power -
You are right, you're very immature and childish. It has nothing to do with your age. It is your mentality how you perceive and look at things in life. You're also a lazy person. Just by the way you post can tell a lot about you. Can't even use simple proper English to type. Using all those sms structure. I'm not surprise you even speak like that in person. It's no wonder your boss bully you. Serves you right. If you don't respect yourself don't expect others to respect you!
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you only work 6 days,
I have worked 7 days a week with more than 16 hours a day/., no ot pay.
I was nearly killed in my line of work and I forced to work in the sun and rain.
Handle work load of 3 person and pay is no better than an O level student.
I am a uni grad btw and I also never complain so much.
After 2 years I left that company and I realise I gain a lot.
I am able to take in more loads and my new workers at my new company could not compare to me.
I rose to a manager within a year and my pay now is much higher.
Bad Experience helps only if you can see the positive light out of it.
First job is always like that.