Originally posted by men_@_arms:
i know the As are over but why am i feeling depressed? jesus help me.
Its like i feel LONELY and insecure, i feel lesser of a person than other people because they seem to have more fun, more friends and more blogs and shit than me. While the number of friends i have i can count with my hand u know?
The trouble is. its harder to break into other circles and know other people and is vexing.
Maybe i am expecting too much from all people. Maybe i am really disturbed.. Maybe i've got something seriously wrong with the way i see things?
I lack deep connections with people, connections that i see inherent wth everyone else in their interactions with others..
And it further disturbs me to answer the question "WHY do i lack these simple things", because it makes me think even more about what i fucked up loser/evil/dipshit i am.. anf frankly it makes me suicidal.
help.
Actually, your problem is rather simple.
Foremost, know yourself and love yourself better. By achieving these, try being a 'servant'. Let me explain.
1. Knowing yourself - understand your needs and your attitudes and behaviour. Take note of issues like, not tactful, big mouth, not considerate, etc... and maintain the good points about yourself. In short, upgrade your personality.. and not fake it out.
2. Try to relax and love yourself. Loving yourself will help others to love you. This means that you have to learn to accept the facts of life, stop whining and move on. Read up self-help books if you want to but do bare in mind that you are different from others so please stop comparing yourself to others. They don't have what you have/experience and you don't have theirs. (note: all winners are borned a loser, they ultimately win because they never allow themselves to go into depression and keep motivating themself to move on regardless of hardship)
3. Being a social 'servant'. Serve others. Be solf spoken and be actively volunteering to take part and help out. Try avoid expecting what others can offer you but think about what you can offer others. Hmm.. ever try helping out at the People Association Youth Club or something?