hi. uh ok. my bf and i are studyin in the same school but different class. we are geog students, and only that subject's period then we same class. and in my OWN form class (nt geog class), i've got a few close GUY friends.. i always hang around with them.. my bf doesnt like me to be with them.. but i don like to be alone, and im quite talkative too.. my best girl pal jus transferred sch becos of some reasons, then those guys in my class are the only ones i can get along well with..
sighs.. and one of the guys, IM REALLY REALLY close to him. i have never ever harboured any thoughts on him before. but everyone sees us as a couple i dunno why. my bf sometimes get pissed becos of this too. but the 2 of them are close frens. i dunno why he doesnt trust me with him.
jus yesterday, we had geog lesson.. my bf's class hasn't arrived yet, my class reached first. i was talkin to my closest guy fren.. then my bf came in, i swear i really didnt see him!! so i jus carried on chattin with that guy fren of mine. awhile later when i saw my bf, he gave me the "sighs-chatting-with-guys-again" look.
later that night, we smsed and quarreled bcos of this. he said i was unreasonable, cos whenever i see him with girls around, i would get pissed and stuffs. yea i admit im quite sensitive.. but the girls he always talk to.. one of them used to be his EX. im jus after her. how can i not worry?? somemore my bf got bad reputation one.. he's a well known flirt.. sighs. and when he sees me with guys around, its "only friends"..
then during our sms quarrel, he said he needed to cool down, and asked me not to contact him for the next few days, or even a whole week. i was really sad.. and angry.. perhaps both. i dunno how to describe.. sighs.. i really don get it.. whats there to cool?
i couldnt sleep.. jus kept cryin for the night.. i cant help but kept thinking that this r/s is really going to end.. he used to msg me every morning.. but i didnt receive his sms this morning.. sighs.. i wanted to msg him sayin how much i miss him, but he said not to contact him..
after school today, he msged me and said he couldnt take it anymore; he missed me alot and he apologised. i was so damn happy. i tot everything is startin to look good again, and we could be as loving as the past.. but now his smses seems to be so cold.. i was thinking if we couldnt be like the past.. whats the point of being together..
but.. after yesterday.. a whole night of quarrelling.. a whole day nvr receive his smses.. i felt really lost and sad.. i cried in class.. i cant lose him.. i don wanna lose him.. but i really dunno wat to do now.. i know i still do love him..
we're both very sensitive.. but i really really do get along well with guys much better.. the girls in my class are soooo bitchy. there's only a few girls whom i get better along with.. but we dont have so much to talk about.. sighs.. shld i really give up my frens becos of him?? or if he still cant accept it.. then.. i guess thats it?? sighs..

sighs, there's alot more to our r/s.. if i continue, it'll be so long.. lol. i'll stop here. sorry.. maybe my story quite boring or childish.. but.. i really dunno who else i can turn to.. but only to rant out everything here.. sorry..