Originally posted by sleepycat:
.. very well-written & hello again creature of the night..
u wrote well on the whys.. but courage & wisdom are but adjectives without the hows.. so.. how?

following a long-lost-but-remembered advice you had for me, i embrace my karma.. no hatred nor bitterness nor anger but there lies pain that doesn't seem to go away & which deepen as the nights pass away. this does make self-destruction appealing esp. when u know the pain & memories are so etched in you that u become one with them and only through lying in complete silence will the voices fade..
thanks in advance.
chillz

That part after the *** is meant to someone on a personal note. She may tyco read it if she happened to check here. And of course, she knows yunhaier and yunhaier knows her, thus the 'how' would appear when I get to see her, although my timing is terribly squeezed. (See how long I get to reply my own topic since it was posted by me?)
If memories is clock, pain would be the alarm. Every marking on the clock represent something; at other time, it probably meant nothing. But when the alarm is triggered, we know it's there for a reason - to remind us about something significiant.
The path of self destruction is where the deluded is lured to walk. We all have the power to transform this bitter energy into something realistic and constructive. If losing unworthy love or act of foolishness could trigger this delusion, WHATEVER good things you have worked previously will equate to nothing. We all make mistakes in life - inevitable; but is it an innocent mistake or bad attitude?
If you wanna accept positivity and Love, equip yourself with some long-term foresight. All short-sightedness in love/related usually result in some sad drama or personal regrets. In simple:
If you know you GONNA regret something in the future now, don't do it.

Cheers