Originally posted by mal_colm1979:
Hi all.. Its me posting again.
Its been a month since me and her parted. I have been trying to get over it, and still trying. Its not easy....
After reading the post of "Self Destruct" by Yunhaier.. I believe I am one of the victims..
For the past one month, I have developed a sense of "I-don't-care" and I have induldged myself in self-abuse... i.e: alcoholism... I cannot survive a day without it anymore. And I think it really takes the troubled thoughts away from me. Try as i might... I simply will end up at the store everynight! getting beer...
The moment I drink, ah..... soothing...
I don't understand why.... I do not drink at all in the past.
Slowly, I began to talk very little and shy away from all people... This is the exact opposite of what i was last time. My mindset have changed alot and I can feel it myself.
I just wanna share what I am going through. Its a very tedious poccess of going through all this and I am very tired.
They say "time will heal all wound.." I say its a big fat lie....
Suffering through a syndrom which i am losing myself.... I do not know how to find myself back...
Get a FACT RIGHT... Time will not necessarily heal all wound.. Time only allows wound to heal.
AND it would ONLY HAPPENS if you ALLOW it to HAPPEN... Else, you could also very well be on the path of destruction... Where you're just letting time consumes and destroy you....