Hiyah CoolMyth,
My motivation for everyday when I'm working & attending to my files is the weekend, which starts on Fri evening. I always try to clear my work as much as possible, to prepare for an enjoyable weekend with my guy.
Perhaps I was kinda happier go lucky at school, my main motivation was to make sure my family is comfy, I'm comfy. I don't need much anyway... Nowadays, it's more about my guy, & making sure we enjoy our weekends together as far as possible : )
FeowFeow
Originally posted by CoolMyth:
Everyday when you wake up, how do you keep yourself going in the day's chores?
What keeps you going on in life? What motivates you to do the things you are doing now?
Time and again, I've been pondering over these questions. Till today, I have not found a very conclusive answer. Everyday, day and night, I'm living a life that I'm unsure of where this is leading me to.
Living life up to graduation, getting a stable job and being able to support my parents in the future seems to be the motivation for me after so much thinking. But now, I'm starting to worry and it's getting worse for me as time passes by, one day at a time. Can I graduate successfully with a good result? Can I find a stable and hopefully well-paying job? If I can't find a job, will I disappoint my parents?
I'm by nature a rather shy and anti-social person. I'm very unwilling to take on the burdens of others and have to worry about them when I have my own "worries" to think about. Thus, I don't have much friends. Often, I'm been accused as self-centred and selfish but that doesn't really bother me since I'm so used to it now. I have no looks and definitely no money. Certainly not a guy that would interest any gal. Even though I have ascertained myself that I will remain single, unmarried and be an old, happy bachelor, I do wonder what will become of me in the future. When I am in my later years, sitting in an old dingy chair, what can I hope for? What are the things that I can look back on proudly? I don't have an answer to this right now.
Am I thinking too much? Indeed, this is a comment that I have received rather often as well. I suppose that when I am alone and there is nothing occupying my mind that these thoughts will again flood my mind. Is there purpose in life?
I really wonder.
Thanks for hearing my rants of sorts. Feel free to give your comments.