ten year waiting
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she told me in sms today,
she accept him as he try to run away to oversea to forget her, but he can't, he is a saf personal ADF somemore shame on him could tell this lier to her, i didnot expose him to her. she say YH suffer the same as me, then she accept his love?
she say "i try very hard to like u" but she is not a great woman for me, she told me i am a type of guy with girl can depend on. what is she trying to tell me, by keep sorry to me, she never do me wrong what, i just wanted to know why she must hide the relationship infront of me, where my friend knew beforehand, i am world last to knew that. what is she trying to hide. -
Bro YH,
I fully agree with Smudgey's comments even though her words may sound hurting to your ears and heart...
i have some additional words though for you... try looking things from a different perspective...
you've waited for ten years for someone... yes its a long wait... but likewise it shows you are capable of living without her by your side (physically at the very least) for ten years...
you wallow in alcohol but you tried to pick yourself up... it shows you are still capable of rescuing yourself WITHOUT her by your side too...
Try loving her from another way... as a good friend or a good sister perhaps... she may accept your care and concern in this manner... on your side i'm sure you'll be happy too as long as you can care for her...
Remember no one but yourself can deny you happiness
Take care -
Time to move in the right direction boy...? ~Pats yonghao's head...~Originally posted by yonghao:she told me in sms today,
she accept him as he try to run away to oversea to forget her, but he can't, he is a saf personal ADF somemore shame on him could tell this lier to her, i didnot expose him to her. she say YH suffer the same as me, then she accept his love?
she say "i try very hard to like u" but she is not a great woman for me, she told me i am a type of guy with can depend on. what is she trying to tell me, by keep sorry to me, she never do me wrong what, i just wanted to know why she must hide the relationship infront of me, where my friend knew beforehand, i am world last to knew that. what is she trying to hide.
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Originally posted by yonghao:i have mean carry torch for a girl whom i knew her in my sec 1 camping the first week of school in 1994. let name her SL, she was my clasmate all the way to sec 4. at sec 2 i declared in class to everyone of my classmate i love her. she knew that too but she think too young to think about is. prehap wait until finish sec school study then talk about it as her parent quite strict with her.
but sec 4 a classmate call JX woo her as he manage to concieve her to go steady with her. i don't know that until a classmate call QW told me that, but i bless them at the best. At that time i have a girlfriend from other school call SM but she is not the one i love. so we finish our sec 4 at 1997 and leave the school. she have already break off with JX and QW go after her. QW to me is fuuk people in the world lie here lie there boost himself. i saw QW and SL together at 1999 Sep in our ex sec sch where they having moon light festival. from there i told myself i still love her as i unable to love other girl whom i met before, i am still single today. that night i have a feeling in my heart so painful until i almost cry ask why. few month later i heard my friend who is best friend in school told me i have chance already as she broke of with him.
i every friday not working sure fetch her after work. one sunday at year2000 before CNY i call her to tell her i really wish to hold her hand care about her but she told me she not ready to accept my love as she need time to forget QW. fuuk i told myself, what the hell i doing unable to show her i care her, like her, love her. i got drunk daily almost even at my friend birthday i can finish a 3/4bottle of martell before midnight where the birthday cake not cut and have the gut to drive from east coast park to west coast. i work from monday to sunday in order to numb myself, every weekend is 8am to 11pm. so i getting headaches on and off at 2001, my company doctor refer me to sgh neurology doctor. at 2001 jun i leave the company to ns.
in ns train is hard tough as mono intake in amour, to go throught the train i got pain killer. as post out after bmt. to rp in a camp but mine problem getting worse, my leg slight badly when i sleep and doctor could not find out why, i was ask to go for sleep test and i confirm i suffering from narcolepsy and downgraded to e9l9 at sep2002. doctor told me i sleep ten time ten time are dreaming, no matter taking a nap also dream, condition very bad. if i am tired, sleep should be not a problem. SL do well in her career. after ord i start out my small trading company, thing pick fast. but i still often remind her i still waiting, my best friend told me still not QW she will choose me. i am glad, but often drink until drunk. and slow the habit kick off.
yesterday a class gathering i saw SL with a classmate of ours YH, they both left together in mid of the session at K-box at 8 and 8 plus we leave the k-box together. i think should i confirm call SL to confirm that she and YH are dating , if so what to do, bless same like last time, but i knew SL have a bad image on YH cos he make a remark saying her mom, lor so as he call her home, SL mom answer the phone and start enquire who are you and so and so.
finally i call SL in my car at her house downstair, she told me yes, i bless them, and in my heart the feeling i got the same actually what i got in 6 year ago. i drop the phone i scream and shout in the car and drove to kent ridge to scream and shout my anger out, i drink again, got half drunk. i wait ten year plus for her. i wait for her 5 year to forget her unpleasant past. i got this ending. i miss out so my girl, never get serious in woo and court a girl, yet i got this. stupid right, this call friend
Your spend ten years waiting for her? Or you wasted ten years revolving your life around a woman that doesn't give a damn about you? NEVER pin your hope on somebody to tell you straight into your face to 'Move On; it's impossible between us' - because only a handful of people would react in such a way. Most of them prefer to lead their life, regardless of how others, whom they have no feelings for, loved them like crazy.
This isn't faithful... this is delayed delusion and truely long lasting indeed. You held onto a blind faith, thinking that if you could work hard by waiting hard, you may probably end up with her. You force yourself into delusion mode, slogging like a mad man, shifted your focus, but refuse to accept this cruel reality that has slap you not once, not twice, but several times.
Love is MORE than working hard my dear. Hard waiting equals nothing if you mean nothing to her. Have you thought of the fact that you are shoving your liking down her throat? So what if you have spend ten years waiting for her?
What has TEN YEARS have to prove anything?
So what if it is TEN YEARS?
It doesn't matter, isn't it?
The fact remains - your refusal and resistance to move on cost you one decade of youth. Continue to play fool with yourself, bask with self lies, get dead drunk and live in your world of delusion, you can persist in this dream of yours for the next ten years or how many 'ten years slot' you could spare - Nothing will change.
If Love was in the picture, you two would have been together right from the start.
Don't kid yourself.
Cheers -
yonghao
just want to ask if she jumps, you will jump too right?
Are you waiting for her to get marrried and have children liao in order to understand that she never love you at all?
"i just wanted to know why she must hide the relationship infront of me, where my friend knew beforehand, i am world last to knew that. what is she trying to hide"
You want to know the reason why? cos she is scare of u liao.. She is scare of u so much that she is willing to hide from you and listern to lies of others to get away from you.
Haiz is seems that you do not get what all of us is saying. Is ok some people never will learn cos they do not wish to face the truth. We had done our best to advice you. If you wish that 10 years is too short of this girl then by all means go ahead.
I have done my best for you and the rest is up to you to decide. Is your life and I can only advice this much. -
i can feel ur pain bro,...but mine is worst,not 10 years but 15+ bloody years..serious..untill to this day i try to keep her out of my mind!!is is endless suffering!!!Do not make the same mistake like i did coz i did not told her i seriously love her.. sometimes i even cry in my sleep coz i miss her so much...
but what i can say is try ur best wooing her and tell her ur damn serious abt her...and want to be with her forever,tell her abt ur inner feeling towards her,...ask her to give u a chance to make this relationship work...!!
but if she decline ur offer ,control urself and walk out of her life and u did not need to say sorry!!!
then u tell ur self,atleast i made an effort by telling her,not like someone dont even have the chance to tell the gerl that he love her...
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10 years.... how u live in delusion and try to destroy yourself..
ever since she went steady with ur fren, u should know that u stand no chance..
I believe u are in ur 20s.. not too late to wake up and move on..
if she never have a liking for u and will nv love u.. waht's the point of getting together?
Let her go, and set urself free. -
what a wait ten years. finally i see some true love in sg
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Hi, I'll not say so much or even console you or advise or even relate your past history actions which you've done n to "correct" you which some others had done....Originally posted by yonghao:i have mean carry torch for a girl whom i knew her in my sec 1 camping the first week of school in 1994. let name her SL, she was my clasmate all the way to sec 4. at sec 2 i declared in class to everyone of my classmate i love her. she knew that too but she think too young to think about is. prehap wait until finish sec school study then talk about it as her parent quite strict with her.
but sec 4 a classmate call JX woo her as he manage to concieve her to go steady with her. i don't know that until a classmate call QW told me that, but i bless them at the best. At that time i have a girlfriend from other school call SM but she is not the one i love. so we finish our sec 4 at 1997 and leave the school. she have already break off with JX and QW go after her. QW to me is fuuk people in the world lie here lie there boost himself. i saw QW and SL together at 1999 Sep in our ex sec sch where they having moon light festival. from there i told myself i still love her as i unable to love other girl whom i met before, i am still single today. that night i have a feeling in my heart so painful until i almost cry ask why. few month later i heard my friend who is best friend in school told me i have chance already as she broke of with him.
i every friday not working sure fetch her after work. one sunday at year2000 before CNY i call her to tell her i really wish to hold her hand care about her but she told me she not ready to accept my love as she need time to forget QW. fuuk i told myself, what the hell i doing unable to show her i care her, like her, love her. i got drunk daily almost even at my friend birthday i can finish a 3/4bottle of martell before midnight where the birthday cake not cut and have the gut to drive from east coast park to west coast. i work from monday to sunday in order to numb myself, every weekend is 8am to 11pm. so i getting headaches on and off at 2001, my company doctor refer me to sgh neurology doctor. at 2001 jun i leave the company to ns.
in ns train is hard tough as mono intake in amour, to go throught the train i got pain killer. as post out after bmt. to rp in a camp but mine problem getting worse, my leg slight badly when i sleep and doctor could not find out why, i was ask to go for sleep test and i confirm i suffering from narcolepsy and downgraded to e9l9 at sep2002. doctor told me i sleep ten time ten time are dreaming, no matter taking a nap also dream, condition very bad. if i am tired, sleep should be not a problem. SL do well in her career. after ord i start out my small trading company, thing pick fast. but i still often remind her i still waiting, my best friend told me still not QW she will choose me. i am glad, but often drink until drunk. and slow the habit kick off.
yesterday a class gathering i saw SL with a classmate of ours YH, they both left together in mid of the session at K-box at 8 and 8 plus we leave the k-box together. i think should i confirm call SL to confirm that she and YH are dating , if so what to do, bless same like last time, but i knew SL have a bad image on YH cos he make a remark saying her mom, lor so as he call her home, SL mom answer the phone and start enquire who are you and so and so.
finally i call SL in my car at her house downstair, she told me yes, i bless them, and in my heart the feeling i got the same actually what i got in 6 year ago. i drop the phone i scream and shout in the car and drove to kent ridge to scream and shout my anger out, i drink again, got half drunk. i wait ten year plus for her. i wait for her 5 year to forget her unpleasant past. i got this ending. i miss out so my girl, never get serious in woo and court a girl, yet i got this. stupid right, this call friend
I hope you've released out your feelings and agony in this forum...it doesn't really help much, but at least, you'll be abit better off...
Do not blame whoever, be it yoruself, or the girl or anyone...what's the use??
Whether you can "re-live" yourself is really up to you, how you're going to live your life from this point onwards is your decision..no one can helps you...
It's either you get up n walk or you just lie down there.